posted December 29, 2011 01:23 PM            

I will make some time today/tonight to do your reading and post.

posted January 05, 2012 03:28 AM            

First and foremost -- I connected to your energy and your question and the image of a globe, the world - continually popped up. Secondly, I did an exercise focusing on what gift you need most to heal emotionally concerning your question. I saw a wooden rectangular box, with carvings of a celtic style. I open the box - it's empty. But that's just what you need: it's like you've too much inside and what you want and need more than anything is space, expansion, and vacancy - room inside to fill.

Do you feel trapped and filled up with things you don't want already?

Let's get onto your tarot reading:
VI of Swords:
This is what's going on for you in your emotional/thought process. You really do feel bound by your own thoughts. You seem to be blindly navigating through this period of your life, because you can't see through the fog of your past and anxiety.

This is connected to --
X of Swords (reversed):
You are mulling over and have attached yourself to a pattern of thinking about yourself that keeps you from moving forward. This is a very painful place, perhaps you suffered some trauma; but my sense is it is connected to a relationship - in the VI of Swords, I clearly feel that the energy of a former lover is what you are holding onto so much - that energy is what you allow to steer you. What would he/she do? I sense you asking yourself, rather than beginning to think about "What do I want to do?"

IV of Wands (Reversed):
Still some reluctancy to let go of whatever it is you're holding onto. Aspirations with a partner, but the attachment brings you no success.

Strength:
This is what you need to forge ahead successfully emotionally: the trust within yourself of your capability, your absolute inner knowledge and wisdom - let your higher self guide you to turn things around, and put the past in its proper place in your life. We can never abandon our past, nor do we forget it or regret it. Instead, we learn from it, respect the lessons learned - and move forward wiser.

King of Swords (reversed):
This card embodies the energy of Libra. Moving forward, do you need some validation or balanced perspective within of what a "real" job is? If you are involved in the arts, that is as "real" as having a position as an attorney.

Knight of Pentacles (reversed):
The Knight is all about sowing seeds, the knight of the harvest. This reversed position suggests again you need to get out of your head and allow yourself to have tangible experiences, take stock of those experiences, and reap what you've sown. It needn't be "not enough" and it doesn't look like survival mode...but this card does suggest that your short-term future will require frugality as you shift your thought patterns and decide what it is that makes you happy/brings you peace.

III of Cups:
This is the outcome card. This card is so beautiful, three women, just after the harvest, glasses raised, dancing. This is a card of harmony - an emotional state wherein joy is felt in its entirety. And, based again on the cards - I have to ask, have you been longing to do something in the arts and/or entertainment? Have you got wanderlust? If so - these cards compel you to let go of the past, the self-doubt, that inner critic, and follow your dream.

This friend, is what I see for you. I'm sorry I wasn't available earlier to read for you - but I'm glad that I have read now. Better quality over a rush. Better to truly connect and hopefully be of some benefit to you.

posted January 05, 2012 09:09 AM            

I really have no idea how this will end up. I can only rely on god's guardiance and my own higher feelings towards something guide myself, and I guess that's the way that life should always be. It's painful to have my own thinking pattern as a religious person plus my old lover's influence, and having a whole new idea like blink in my life. It made me feel not only emotionally sick, but also sick in body. It's so hard to get up in holidays and really hard to keep up with my relationships etc. So I am only doing miniral to keep up with my friends etc.

I didn't know what I want. My thoughts were used to be people's thoughts, and suddenly because of my changing believes, I am alone, and with no one supporting me, nor anyone that will give me even anything, any encouragement on what I am doing now. It makes me feel so downright terrible.

Thanks for the reading by the way. I guess in a sense, I got it sorted out with god and he said I need to have more conversations with him like what I just did today. Then when I finally get unstuck from my job, which is a bit over a month later (my trainee contract over), I can get ready to go.

posted January 05, 2012 03:47 PM            

Just trust yourself like you're doing.

posted January 07, 2012 01:35 AM            

I have studied and self-taught the tarot for roughly 15 years on/off now.

I am also a medium/clairvoyant.

My website is here: http://www.ascendanthealing.com

@anongirl:

posted January 08, 2012 05:25 AM            

I'm not entirely sure what you mean - but I hope that it does have meaning to you and helps you to find your own answer.

Each reading is like a snowflake - completely unique layout for a unique moment in space/time - not to mention the individual asking and my energy, as the reader.

The way I read the cards, oftentimes, it is like a mirror, reflecting much of what one knows within - but illustrates as guided by the Universe and the individual's Highest Self what the path to the best solution is for each querent.

Thank you for taking the time to revisit the reading - and looking at my site.