posted January 08, 2012 10:23 AM            

i wanted to quit

recently , i came back to my hometown for a wedding and after two days of it , he is blocking communication . we talked in between, on/off.... am apologising for anythign that might hav/hav not hurt him... coz i just want we should work on this marriage..and i honestly dont want it to end so soon..

am so sad at the moment

posted January 08, 2012 10:31 AM            

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posted January 08, 2012 10:32 AM            

Chiron conjuncts your NN. Your life with him him will have a pain theme. just that your life will have much pain in it, with this relationship.

His Saturn is on your moon. He puts cold water on your heart.

His Uranus trines your Sun so there is attraction.
His venus squares your Uranus---attraction, I think but not a good aspect with a square. It may be a "wanting to run" aspect. I am not sure about this. If Ceri is around. What do you think? At any rate, it is a hard aspect to have with the square.
(I HADNT PUT ASTEROID CHART UP, BACK THEN , SO PLZ CHECK IT OUT )

YOUR Pluto oppose his moon. You will want to control him, his emotions. Maybe, try to release him, emotionally, a little bit.

There will be lots of adjustments and you have that deep,deep Chiron together so you will go through a lot of things together

posted January 08, 2012 11:04 AM            

At any rate, what happened to shut your inner child down, as a child. Did you have a very stern father who restricted you?

Lets talk about this aspect because it is important what happens to the Child Asteroid.

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posted January 08, 2012 11:06 AM            

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posted January 08, 2012 12:33 PM            

This aspect refers to one person’s Chiron conjunct another person’s North Node. This would be in a synastry chart, which is one person’s natal(birth chart) compared to another person’s natal(birth) chart. I have seen Chiron conjunct the NN in synastry, several times. It is not common, but it does occur, so I wanted to write about it. I have direct experience, too, so I can talk from that, which is always, the most compelling. I have great respect for the Nodes, in synastry. There is , both, a North Node and a South Node. The South Node shows the areas in which the couple will be comfortable. If Venus is conjunct the SN, the couple will be comfortable sharing love. If Eros is conjunct the SN, the couple will be comfortable sharing eroticism.

The NN is the opposite, in the sense that it is not a comfort zone, but an aspirational one. If the SN is where one has been. The NN is where one is going. Going new places is always more frightening than staying in one’scomfort zone Hence, the NN is fraught with challenges. Think of something that has challenged you, such as your first job or going off to college. The NN embodies that sentiment.

In synastry, if the planet of pain, Chiron, in one person, touches the NN of the other person, the relationship will have a pain theme. One may ask, “Should I leave the relationship based on this?” I could not answer that, obviously. In every synastry, there will be hard factors. I will try to explain how I see Chiron conjunct the NN playing out in a long term marriage. Chiron conjunct the NN does NOT mean that every minute of the marriage will be fraught with pain. Chiron is an attractor to people,also. In many synastries, Chrion conjuncts planets between people. This is not, necessarily bad. One shares one’s pain in one’s intimate relationships. However, with Chiron conjunct the NN in synastry, one of the main themes, perhaps THE main theme will BE pain, in my experience. The pain is not a 24/7 event. There are many periods of time which are not painful. There are many shared events which are not painful. However, if one looks at the relationship, as a whole , from a future vantage point,for example, one would describe it as having a theme of pain

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posted January 08, 2012 02:10 PM            

@stern father... my father is kind of everything to me....he has alwss given me the freedom nd lv nd support..and so far, i hv alws felt he is the only one who can understand me..till now , i think we just argued thrice (am almost 27 yrs old)...nd even then , he was the one who alws gave up (lolz, am papa's girl)....so obviously , when initially my partner was very lvng towards me , i saw kind of my dad in him...even told him so and called him so...and that was a secure point...but eventually , the security vanished with time..anyws..

i hv got a very lvng family...strong bonds..touchwood...my mother is strong , practical , yet emotional...nd has been there for me in all my hard times...

still, somehow , i never felt so good with mum....yes, was very insecure as a child..felt mum loved others more than me....as i grew up , however, i did talk to her about that...she grew more considerate after that..but for all ups and downs in life, i keep blaming my childhood insecurity..with no one else to vent my hurt on , i cry and blame my mum...but after few hours, its mum's lap i eventually fall asleep in...

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posted January 08, 2012 02:53 PM            

dnt really know ami...

he has threatened me he wont let me enter his country .so , am just confused and waiting.

since last three days , he has again not been responding to me /any important emails or calls by me...so i got much worried as he is alone there and requested to reply if he was ok....to which he replied > no need to call...am ok... (sigh)

he has been having a tough time at job... he had to take few leaves after our marriage , so things got worse at his job (I NEVER ASKED HIM TO TAKE THOSE LEAVES )... so he blames am the reason for his disturbed job

he is also having a tough time with his family....and thats mainly becoz his sister didnt want he should marry me. he lost his mum three yrs back , isnt much on talking terms with his father or relatives , so so far, his sister has been his closest . after i came to his life , he and his sister grew a little distant (obviously , both are now married..this is so obvious)...and recently , he had a little fight with his sister after which she stopped contacting /responding to him , at all, and behaves like my perfect enemy ( trust me , everyone around can swear she so inspires him to separate from me...she kind of makes him feel he wi either hav me or her in his life).

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posted January 10, 2012 08:25 AM            

(im) patiently waiting for what u write ...

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posted January 11, 2012 11:18 AM            

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posted January 11, 2012 11:23 AM            

His Saturn is on your moon. He puts cold water on your heart.

His Uranus trines your Sun so there is attraction.
His venus squares your Uranus---attraction, I think but not a good aspect with a square. It may be a "wanting to run" aspect. I am not sure about this. If Ceri is around. What do you think? At any rate, it is a hard aspect to have with the square.
(I HADNT PUT ASTEROID CHART UP, BACK THEN , SO PLZ CHECK IT OUT )

YOUR Pluto oppose his moon. You will want to control him, his emotions. Maybe, try to release him, emotionally, a little bit.

There will be lots of adjustments and you have that deep,deep Chiron together so you will go through a lot of things together