posted May 22, 2012 10:24 PM            

I feel up to a reading tonight. I hope you see this - and that you have a question in mind. I really want to get back to you for those readings you have done for me on your empath thread and the exchange.

posted May 22, 2012 11:00 PM            

Thank you so much for the offer. I feel so blessed in this forum. Alot of good well intentioned caring folks contribute here. It is a nice feeling

I have no idea what my question should be as, i have no clue what to expect anymore. I know what i know and believe in how the universe chooses to communicate, but i feel doubtful with spurts of hope here and there. Its draining to say the least. Being in love with jason is no easy task at this point in time.

Will i atleast see him on my birthday on friday or will he ditch... What will the outcome of my relationship with jason be after this weekend. Or better said what lies ahead for jason and i this weekend?

I dont know anymore. I know what i feel. What i want.but i dont think i can or should continue to ignore actions.

Its tough.

You may choose to read the thread started by the lovely miss hannaramaa tittled under my name to get a feel as to where i am or you may choose to go cold turkey and see what vibrations your cards pick up. Read the thread and then draw cards again and see what else comes up.

Shyvirgo1979 was so sweet and her cards gave some wonderful insights. She is sunniest virgo i have ever had the pleasure of chatting with.

posted May 22, 2012 11:18 PM            

It was my pleasure to help give you clarity in your quest for answers in your own life. Since almost all my core numbers in numerology are 9s, Helping one close the chapter so they can move on to their next phase will in turn, help me close mine.

So anytime i can help you, i am in turn fulfilling my lesson too.

I am here to help and freewill is yours.

posted May 23, 2012 09:58 PM            

Here is the reading I did for you...

what does junethird need to know to gain strength for herself from this relationship?

the card that reflects your state of mind over this situation: The World, Reversed: You are uncertain of what you have; and despite a fear/discontentedness - still seek to find content here.

what will jason bring to the table this birthday weekend?
V of Pentacles, Reversed:
First thing I noticed about The World Reversed - symbolic of you in reference to this issue, is the position of the woman's face. She is looking away from Scorpio (transformation) and Leo (Ego) and toward Aquarius (Community) and Taurus (stability) for answers. I sense that in some way Jason embodies the energy of Aqua/Taurus - and that you truly look to him to give you love/affection you can understand. But I feel that you have more Scorpio and Leo energy in you - and there is a tension that builds - but inevitably - creates a disconnect between your loving styles. The V of Pentacles Reversed to me indicates that no matter what Jason does - and being Pentacles, I do believe it will be something tangible, it will be a let-down for you. My feeling here is that you can expect him to "show up" - but not in the way you may have communicated you need to feel loved. If you haven't been clear yet - do so now to avoid this outcome. Men are dense. In fact - as it pertains to the different languages of loving - we all are. Unless we tell someone what we need/want, we haven't given them a fair shot to show us how important meeting our needs for affection are.

And with both of these characters on the card out in the cold - it strikes me that you may have left some of this uncommunicated.

How will this birthday affect their relationship overall?
Ace of Cups, Reversed:
This looks like an opportunity for a new beginning emotionally. A chance to learn new emotional patterns to establish within your behaviors together. This calls on one or both of you to let go of emotions you may have been withholding from one another for fear of the other's response. It is time for an honest new beginning - and you have the love there.

What do you need to know to gain strength for yourself from this relationship:
Queen of Pentacles, Reversed:
This card suggests there is an inequity in the roles you play in your relationship - but that the inequity comes from how you see yourself. The Queen of Pentacles is independent and able to nurture her family as well as herself. It strikes me that with a reversal here - you may once have been in this role - but now have come to see yourself as dependent or worthy. In order to gain equinamity and strength through this relationship - you will need to do the things which foster your confidence tangibly, as it pertains to Jason. Where you may have come to rely on him too much - begin to rely on him less...the shift will occur, and you will become centered.

posted May 23, 2012 11:17 PM            

Thank you.

Your interpretations gave me a different way to look at things.

I don't know if I should interpret the cards or not... But from my understanding of the work rx is that one, your world is turned upside down. Upright you are looking outwards rx you are locked inside. Cut off from the outside. stuck in a past world.

I embody "aqua/Taurus" he embodies "Scorpio/Leo"
Since in reversed it's about your own inhibitions/fears.

Yes there is tension.

Five of Pents rx is good. As the window becomes a doorway. A chance to come in from the col so to speak.

Ace of cups rx. Is not good. As when cups are rx it's emptying it's liquid, draining. Cups are emotions so Feelings of loss and emotions are centre stage

Queen of Pents rx is not positive either. As Pents are physically earned so to speak. Queens are the doers. Kings command. Queensake it happen. Just like in real life. Behind every successful man is a woman lol

Yes queen of Pents rx represents dependency of others. Mistrust and jealousy.

I do agree with your MSG at the end. That detachment is a good way to go.

Yes he know Iam in town. I texted him on monday that i would be in town the next day. He replied, confirmed my arrival... Pretty much writing back my own text back to me... I replied back. "yes. It's my birthday on Friday" he didnt reply back.And its wedneaday jight now and he has Not bothered to call or text to see what's up.

It's funny because two weeks ago we were talking about the dates I wanted to visit and I asked for breakfast on bed and he replied yes. Just for you and ill get u balloons too.

We didn't fight. Or anything since then. He just got distant.

He isn't stupid. He is almost 31 years old. He has been in plenty relationships. He knows. He is choosing to act this way. Wether it's one of his dumb tests (Scorpio rising, Venus in scorpio Mars in Leo) I will not "remind" him anymore.

It's not going to be fun this weekend. I will Have fun with a few friends and i will survive to live to tell another tale.

Detachment is key.

posted May 23, 2012 11:45 PM            

I'd try on the interpretation of the reversed V of Pentacles as your point to intercede - we know the tarot reflects an outcome if we leave the energy as is - and get him on the phone. Tell him what you expect, when and where. You matter to him.

Reversed Ace of Cups isn't the kiss of death - it is a new beginning and release of pent up emotion. That is always healthy. It's letting go either way you look at it - and you can look at it positively - though I empathize a great deal with how much your heart has been through the ringer here. I do think you have a chance to honor yourself and regain some sense of equality and control of your heart here.

The Queen means you've been neglecting to look out for number one - put yourself first - and others will follow suit. Being that you vibrate to the 9 frequency, this is less than comfortable for you - but I'm sure youre familiar with the expression that if the plane is going down - you have to put the oxygen on yourself before you can help anyone else get theirs. This relationship is teaching you this lesson. And, I think from what you've said about how you two mesh - it neednt be over. Communication is what makes us or breaks us - you've got this one girl.

You'll have a great birthday - I believe it - because I do see the control you have in it.

posted May 24, 2012 12:07 AM            

I'd try on the interpretation of the reversed V of Pentacles as your point to intercede - we know the tarot reflects an outcome if we leave the energy as is - and get him on the phone. Tell him what you expect, when and where. You matter to him.

Reversed Ace of Cups isn't the kiss of death - it is a new beginning and release of pent up emotion. That is always healthy. It's letting go either way you look at it - and you can look at it positively - though I empathize a great deal with how much your heart has been through the ringer here. I do think you have a chance to honor yourself and regain some sense of equality and control of your heart here.

The Queen means you've been neglecting to look out for number one - put yourself first - and others will follow suit. Being that you vibrate to the 9 frequency, this is less than comfortable for you - but I'm sure youre familiar with the expression that if the plane is going down - you have to put the oxygen on yourself before you can help anyone else get theirs. This relationship is teaching you this lesson. And, I think from what you've said about how you two mesh - it neednt be over. Communication is what makes us or breaks us - you've got this one girl.

You'll have a great birthday - I believe it - because I do see the control you have in it.

posted May 24, 2012 01:27 AM            

Thats why i enjoy this forum. Exchanging different points of view on how each of us read our cards is endlessly fascinating.

Makes me wish i would have brought my cards with me i put them aside a few days ago, and now iam in want of them again. Thats a good thing even more so for rosalind, as i owe her a reading and i want to be at my best.

I must acknowledge elixir, peachbeigeblue and beccathelion for their readings last week... They all pretty much suggested detachment... Dont be afraiid and let go so the universe can give back to you. I guess in caveman language... The rubberband effect.

Thank you all so much for your patience, insights, time and most of all good energies. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.

I will keep your guidance in mind wp.

And yes, he doesnt like to be told what to do much... He is a very stubnorn virgo man. His gemini moon doesnt help much... It even drives me a gemini sun native crazzzy.

Yes my destiny/expression, inner dreams/personality and hearts desire/ soul urge numbers are All 9s. My lifepath is number 5 but my karmic debt is 0 tho. Its not an easy walk lol but Sometimes i just need to vent to clear my head.

I will let go. This chapter is closed for me.

Thank you.

posted May 24, 2012 11:43 PM            

I contemplated on your advice and Texted an olive branch. I am here. When do I get to see you. No reply all day.

It's really a shame. A tough pill to swallow. But a good lesson to give let go of your ego (also Rosalind's advice from my chart reading) and give it one more try.

I gave it one last kick, one more than I would have liked, but I gave it anyway. So I walk forward with no regrets now.

Thank you!

posted May 25, 2012 12:41 PM            

When someone hurts me like this - I have a hard time enjoying what should be a great celebration: the anniversary of the day you came to be you. I hope for you that you are able to be stronger than I - and find all the joy, love and wonder in the world today and this weekend that undoubtedly surrounds you.

That is my birthday wish for you - and if it's not a good birthday - you can always have a redo!

Much love to you - you deserve it and know that your friends here are sending you lots of well-wishes and love.