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TheInnerSpirit
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posted September 13, 2012 02:55 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for TheInnerSpirit     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi everyone,

Would like to introduce myself first: 27 Male who has an interest in astrology. Here's my story: (Sorry for the length but this already feels so therapeutic for me)

I met my love (let's call her NP) at my current job 2 years ago. My cousin had committed suicide and I had recently gotten out of a horrible, abusive 2 year relationship. I decided to climb Mt. Kilimanjaro after this and truly felt my life was "cleared up" and "reset".

NP was amazing, beautiful and caring. We got close, and kissed. She immediately told me she couldn't be with me because of her family obligations (Also, we are both from strict South Asian families). Yet, we still hooked up (no sex) after I got told no.

After a while, I really fell for her. She "broke it off" with me after some trivial arguments we had and said that we couldn't do this at our job anymore as the rumors kept arising.

Devastated, I consulted a psychic. She told me this woman was my twin flame soulmate and I was going to marry her. I kept going to this psychic to help myself and her.

Going to work was soul-crushing for me but the psychic kept telling me NP still loved me. NP kept texting me however and tried to keep in contact with me which made the pain even worse.

After 6 months, we start talking again and kissed again (still no sex). After starting it again, NP all of sudden quits her job. I am utterly baffled by this to this day. I was so angry at the psychic not being able to prevent or warn me about this so I stopped seeing her. In hindsight this was probably a bad move but I can't change the past.

It will be one year next month since she left. Yet, she still texts me about once every 10 days to check up on me. NP always says she wants to meet up but it never happens or she cancels last minute.

We never had sex, but I can't stop thinking about this woman. I have traveled extensively to try to forget her. I have kissed other women (I can't even bring myself to sleep with other women). It just won't go away.

Her texts make it worse because maybe I can move on (the psychic still believes she is my twin flame) but I can't when I see that she still thinks of me.

I have read about twin flames and I think I'm "the runner" in this relationship.

I can't move on from this. I sleep with her on my mind, I wake up to her, my whole being is engulfed in thinking about her.

What do I do?

MY CHARTS:

Synastry Chart:
She's outside

http://i.imgur.com/RHytk.gif

Composite Chart:

http://i.imgur.com/Wgm6A.gif


And a cafe astrology profile with both of our birth times: http://goo.gl/xuIhF

If someone could maybe look at the charts and/or offer some advice with twin flames, please feel free, I really don't know where else to go.

Thanks for reading,

TheInnerSpirit

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TheInnerSpirit
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posted September 16, 2012 09:48 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for TheInnerSpirit     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Bump

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andstuff
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posted September 16, 2012 10:27 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for andstuff     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi,

i'm not amazing at synastries, BUT what I can see is that her Saturn trines your Venus. This means that she might act cold and do things that appear as if she were pushing you away/keeping you at a distance. There was a thread in Astrology 2.0 precisely about this. She doesn't probably even realise she's doing it. But this would explain the problem. http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/215588.html

Hope someone else might be able to comment on this further, because, again, I am not by any means a top expert. I might look further and see what aspects can be used to help against this.

Also, yes, the physical attraction must be strong-ish.

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Randall
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posted September 16, 2012 11:26 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Welcome!

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"Never mentally imagine for another that which you would not want to experience for yourself, since the mental image you send out inevitably comes back to you." Rebecca Clark

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TheInnerSpirit
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posted September 16, 2012 11:34 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for TheInnerSpirit     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank you andstuff for your very insightful reply!

There is definitely an aspect to her about this. Understanding this Saturn aspect, her opinion was always relationships being work and commitment creating too much "fuss".

Not a good sign but thanks again

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slowpoke
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posted September 16, 2012 10:09 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for slowpoke     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Try here too.

This site gives you some idea of the aspects associated with the Synastry aspects, but it is an incomplete set of aspects.
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http://astro.cafeastrology.com/cgi-bin/astro/comp2f

http://www.astrologyfiles.com/free-horoscope-matching/

Slowpoke's Aspects To Live For
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/202766.html


Slowpoke's: Synastry Aspects - Void of Planet Linkages
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/214576.html


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TheInnerSpirit
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posted September 19, 2012 11:20 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for TheInnerSpirit     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank you slowpoke

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