posted November 14, 2012 10:22 PM            

If i put my natal chart would anyone be able to tell me when in my life I will be happy for an dextended period of time? When I was younger I was much happier even with all the effed stuff i went through I managed to not let it get to me but now I just cant deal. I take one foot forward and then something pulls me 10 steps back.

posted November 15, 2012 05:29 AM            

Also, your Pisces moon might make it harder to hold on to "happy". I hate the Pisces stereotype, but it seems to fit all personal planets when they fall under it's rule, at least to a point. And with something traumatic (obviously) happening to you, it's going to be quite difficult to ignore that Pisces moon "feeling" all over the rest of your heart and mind.

I wish I could give you a hug!!!! I don't even need to know the details for my heart to break for you, just knowing you're feeling the way that you do...

I can't say when you'll be happy based off your chart, my guess would be when you come to terms with whatever it is that's bothering you now. Maybe you don't need to "trust somebody enough" to talk to them about what's happened to you? What if it was just somebody who didn't know you and would never see/hear from you again if you never contacted them again? There is a place here (I'm sure they have similar facilities in NY) that you can just walk in off the street and tell them you're having a difficult time, that you need somebody to talk to, and you're provided a counselor at no charge... Just to sit and talk with about whatever it is that's put you in the place you're in emotionally/mentally. I don't know how you feel about that sort of thing, but it's a start, not feeling like you're the ONLY one to know and carry your burden.

I wish you the best in this Kat! Everyone deserves to be happy!

As for a career, something high-paced probably would suit you best with Mars conjunct your MC. Maybe something to do with sports/athletics or perhaps sports medicine? Positive Jupiter-Neptune aspects tend to produce a "healing touch" quality desired by the general public for doctors, vets, teachers, rehabilitation specialists... Maybe being a nurse in the E.R.? With your Jupiter, Mercury, and Moon all in your 12th house and Saturn in your 8th, I imagine death isn't a new/scary thing for you and these placements might make it easier to deal with a situation like E.R. work where you don't ALWAYS save the patient. And if you add that Venus is trine your Mars and MC, you probably have a lot of compassion to give even on a non-personal level, don't be afraid to!

posted November 21, 2012 10:23 AM            

Hi! Sorry you are going through a difficult time right now---I know how it is to go through thing and not want to talk--

What I notice is the moon in the 12th---I have this as well--that is a CLASSIC trait of this position. Additionally, your mercury is there too in a conjunction which shows that your feelings and thoughts are deeply connected--do you feel this way? Additionally, Jupiter--is also there which means to me that you have faith in your ability to heal yourself.

I think perhaps this state is uncomfortable, because of that Aries ascendant with the the sun in the first! Big personality! So maybe you can tap into that Aries energy and speak your truth.

No one is ever damaged! I think you have a strong sense of healing so connect with someone that you truly trust and take a chance.

As far as career, you have a great mars/neptune conjunction which shows sensitivity, action, and creativity. Are you a creative person? Would you describe yourself as driven and focused? Capricorn @ the midheaven shows the influence of Saturn which means that success will be a steady climb!

I'm just an amateur, so I cannot tell you a specific time--but I can guess that when you reach out to someone, doors will open up to you.

posted November 21, 2012 10:08 PM            

I just feel I cant catch a break. How is it every guy ive dated was trying to use me and only sees me as just sex? I am a strong person(was) but this is breaking down my self esteem especially since its been happening since i started dating. My very first bf who took my virginity gave me a std. Thats pretty much where my life became ****** when I let men into it. I try to rebuild my confidence all the time and if you knew me you probably wouldnt know I had an issue in that area but i do. I keep attracting crazies and wierdos. Like just last week this guy asked me for my num asked when he would see me again and then asked if he could come over I said no and that was the end of the convo forever. If i was a bit more secure it wouldnt bother me but thats the gist of all my situations or just flat out lying to get into my pants. I have always been naive when it comes to matters of the heart and it has gotten me in trouble. But this is who I am and I just wish I could for once be accepted for who I am. Now I am just weird with guys I act weird around them because I just dont know how to relate to them. And its the same story with every guy rinse and repeat. Like I am the pit stop to love. Im not even feening for someone to love me, just a guy to be normal and at least want to get to know me, to treat like a real person with real feelings. I want to have a normal situation like every other person I know, go on dates, flirt, have fun, normal **** . I have not had that ever and and I am starting to not feel worthy of Normal. I really think its Venus opp Pluto that messes it up everytime. And then the moon in Pisces makes it hard to cope with the Bs that comes along with it. I read that Pisces moon attract wierd people and situations and they never lied on that one. But at the same time my twin hasnt gone thru this at all wtf. I got the ****** end of the stick.