posted November 15, 2012 04:39 PM            

The first thing I noticed when I looked at your chart (and honestly, what I was sort of looking for) was a hard aspect to Moon from either Saturn or Uranus and you have both, in fact.

Saturn opposite Moon is especially notable in your chart because you have Saturn (ruled by Capricorn) in the opposite sign of Cancer and Moon (ruled by Cancer) in the opposite sign of Capricorn. Moon isn't really comfortable in Cap any more than Saturn is comfortable in Cancer and with the opposition, you are likely to keep a lot (most?) of your feelings to yourself. It can also make you inhibited emotionally and possibly prevent you from opening yourself up to others and/or making yourself vulnerable. You are, I imagine, incredibly emotionally self sufficient, but I do wonder with this aspect how difficult it must be to keep all those feelings locked up.

The Mercury conjunct Uranus squaring your Moon (and widely, your Saturn) also underlines this and adds the challenge of loving your freedom but finding it difficult to find the right balance without feeling too exposed and tied down.

I also see Chiron turing the whole thing in to a Grand Cross so perhaps there is some woundedness surrounding vulnerability and freedom/individuality. The good thing with Chiron is that it also means that there is some healing to be had in regards to this (perhaps by pursuing a more intimate relationship on your own terms?)

The ruler of your 8th and 10th houses is Mercury which is conjunct Uranus so I would imagine that your career and the hidden aspects of you (as well as who you are sexually) want to feel unencumbered. Do you put most of your communication efforts (as well as your energy) in to your career?

You have NN in the 1st house which means your SN is in the 7th house. You have come from a place of 'other' and in this life you are working on issues involving individuality and self. Your IC is also ruled by Neptune and Neptune is in fact squaring your IC, which is your root.

Having said all this, I don't believe that any of this means that you cannot have a relationship if you want one. The chart is the energy and interpreting it is usually the most likely ways it will manifest. I get the sense that you may indeed want a relationship but perhaps you are not comfortable with the level of vulnerability necessary to sustain one beyond a certain level of intimacy. Let me know if that resonates for you.

The bottom line is that if you want a relationship, you can certainly have one, but it may come through a process of delving in to some of your deeper rooted feelings. (With Sun conjunct Pluto and Mars I imagine that you can hold a lot of intensity inside).

posted November 16, 2012 09:24 PM            

Your Venus is sextiled by Saturn which is the planet of commitment. Your Venus rules your 7th House of partnerships, significant other. This aspect isn't big and strong but I believe it's saying that it's definitely a possibility for you. You're not doomed to be without a partner in this life.

As I get older I notice that there are so many ways to be a couple, to be in relationships. I know two couples right now who are smitten with each other but purposely don't sleep in the same room and one of those couples actually live across the street from each other because that's how their relationship started. They decided that since they can afford it they'll keep it that way because they absolutely love going the social process of going to visit each other. That's the married couple.

The other couple has two different bedrooms because the boyfriend sleeps with the lights, television, computers, and music playing all night - well, he doesn't sleep much, only a few hours a night so she has her own bedroom that's quiet where she can get a full 8 hours. And yet the "idealised" intimacy happens between them.

I see and hear more stories like this as I get older. People find a way.

I wish you both the best in figuring this out.