posted November 16, 2012 03:22 PM
Ok, your thread title was so cute.... omg. Haha. Just saying. I love 'socially awkward penguin' on tumblr because I can relate to some of it myself. I'D And this is coming from someone with Jupiter in the 11th. Some things that stood out:
1. Chiron in the 11th. Chiron is our 'wound that never heals' and the 11th represents social groups and socialization. So having this here might make you feel bittersweet about being in large groups of friends/organizations from anxieties about it or bad past experiences. Chiron in the 11th might add to the disposition of preferring aloneness because of the struggles of trying to do 11th house activities.
2. Chiron squares Mercury... do you by any chance, feel that many of the things you say and how you communicate cause you shame, or feeling embarrassed socially?
3. The ruler of the 11th is the Moon because Cancer is on the 11th house cusp. The Moon is conjunct your Pluto, showing an intensity and possible isolation having to do with social groups. Pluto brings isolation and crises to what it touches... having Pluto influence your 11th house can make socialization a very intense process, with love-hate relationships, a sudden large amount of friends and then having none, being that lone Scorpionic figure who can't settle or needs to be apart from society. Having Pluto in the 11th, touching the 11th house ruler or dispositing planets in the 11th can do this.
4. The Moon is square Saturn which also shows social limitations, and not only that, but emotional limitations as well. So you probably feel very emotionally distant and awkward when you try to communicate both emotionally and in terms of the 11th, when you try to reach out in a heartfelt [Cancer/Moon] way to acquaintances, large groups at parties, friends, etc.
5. The Moon is also opposite Venus. You probably deep down want friends and desire close contact, and can sometimes feel like you're overdoing it or not coming across the right way despite desperately trying to.
6. Virgo rising. This rising sign can make one incredibly hard on themselves. Having the ruler Mercury in the 8th also shows a Scorpionic identity and a limited access to one's own mental prowess because of the possible shame you could feel about thinking/looking the way you do.