posted November 26, 2012 09:58 AM            

I keep having dreams of my ex-husband. I lived with him in Canada and I keep dreaming of that place too. We divorced in late 2009 and I thought by now I would be over him and moved on with someone new and not to mention moved on to a new life. Whenever I dream of him, the feelings stay with me all day, almost paralyzing me with anxiety, fear, sadness and loneliness. I even hear his voice in my dreams and I wake up thinking he is actually in my apartment somewhere. I drive myself into utter seclusion at times because I feel I cannot express my feelings to my family because I feel they don't understand why I feel the way I do, so I hide it. I go through spurts where I am happy to be on my own and then I regret ever leaving him. We were together a total of ten years and it makes me sad we could not make it work, we were practically best friends. The memories, the good times, and the way were come back to haunt me and because they remind me of who and what I lost. I know he is never coming back, I know we will never see each other again, and I know we will never speak again, and I know he has already moved on...but why can't I? I feel like I've paid my dues, I've had my karma, and I have been lonely enough to have understood why we did not work out.

I don't want to suffer anymore, I just want to move on, I don't want to live my life like this anymore.

I deserve love.

Can someone help me with a reading, please???

Thank You