posted November 27, 2012 02:01 PM
Stay with me on this...
Okay, so...I have talked to a few psychics in the past several months, especially concerning my love life. Needless to say, it has been non-existent. It's been up, and down. No one has stuck around, I've gone from extreme to extreme, and now nearing the end of 2012 and the fourth year I've been single, I'm ******* tired (excuse my french). So you all have mostly likely read on a few threads on here, I've been having vivid dreams about my ex-husband. So much so I've had look back AND compare notes. I have not spoken to him in nearly a few years, being as it may, the last conversation we had was 10 minutes long and it was uber awkward. While we ended things on a quiet note and have never lashed out at each other AND have not been in meddling in each other lives, I must admit, I miss the guy and the way we were. We were the best of friends and we love each other dearly before things went south. I was under the impression he was falling out of love and that he wanted out so I left before the worse got worse.
He of course moved on and met someone whom I knew of but did not know personally...she'll come back into the story later.
So, for the past few weeks, I have been wrecking my brain as to what and how I can get over this crazy wall of static I have with the dreams and the emotions I've been having. Mind you all, I've gone through spurts where I'm totally content and making strides with starting my life over after the divorce and there have been times I've been crying and grieving over the fact I lost my best friend and husband possibly for good. So, in a lightening bolt of an idea I decided last night to contact a psychic again about my situation and how I can finally overcome this...rather....when I will get through this and finally meet someone new.
So......I'm telling this lady my plight and where I am coming from about the matter and she says the one thing I've heard from the past 2 psychics...apparently...the girl..er, woman he was/or still with put a curse between us with some kind of black magic. AND..she put one on me so that I will not meet anyone. The reader also said my ex and I are meant to be and that we were not destined to be apart, ever. She said we were twin flames.
REALLY???
OK.
So, I'm sitting there last night on my couch shocked and confused. Either this woman who told me this revelation wanted to to really get paid, or she was telling the truth. She stated that my ex is under a spell BUT he thinks of me all the time and that he misses me. I kinda laughed at that because I never thought of him actually doing such a thing. Granted the last time we talked, she was living there (per what my sister told me...whom he still talks to from time to time). The lady told me I will have to get the spell reversed in order for me to move on with my life and be healed. But she also said he could return once if it is successful.
Okay.
I don't know how or what to feel at this moment. I'm in a state of flux. I'm tired, beat down, and worn out. My mind keeps bopping from one place to the next. I cannot concentrate. I need peace, I need solace, and I need to rid myself of this. I want to cry, I need to cry, but I cannot. It makes no ******* sense to me. I'm not mad, because I don't know if this is believe-able or not. I am not mad at her if she put the spell on me and him. I just want peace. WTF??? it's been too long. But if I've heard it from a few readers...than it must be true.
Worst part is, I have no money to see a wiccan or a reader to have this done. Its so silly...lol....but again, WTF is going on??? I wish I could snap my fingers and all will be well again, and I can move on.
Deep down, I'm hoping for a happy ending. A VERY happy one.
Can anyone help me out here???
UGH.
I need a hug.