posted December 10, 2012 10:48 AM            

Let me clear this up a bit. My love life is messy and at the same time disappointing. I'm in my thirties and even though I seem to attract men I don't seem to attract the ones I like.

I never been in love, and don't dream of being married and having kids. The idea is suffocating to me. I do want to fall in love, to travel to have an adventurous life.

I'm currently in a wrong relationship that I cant seem to escape. The man is someone I care deeply for, but the notion I might end up with him makes me really unhappy. I tried to tell him but he gets really upset and the fact that we're working together makes this decision really difficult to be carried through. Anyhow, I will break it off with him. I can't live like this.

But, I happen to know two women with a very similar chart to mine. The three of us have transits and progressions that show commitments, marriage, engagements etc during the past year. Both these other women got in loving committed relationships this year (both men where Geminis as my partner is). One's married, the other one engaged. That makes me so sad. I know that I shouldn't compare my life to that of other people but we have been in such similar paths it's such a disappointment to know that I don't get to fall in love and get to have the kind of relationships they have. Instead mine is unhappy and suffocating.

Is it possible that this man IS my soulmate and I'm not in love with him?

posted December 11, 2012 07:02 AM            

Why is your love life messy:

Queen of swords
The Fool
Three of wands

You don't like to be alone, you tend to settle quickly so that you are in a relationship. You get physical quickly to secure their involvement. You like company, even if it means people tagging along with you to accompany you on your journey as you explore life/the world etc.

Why do you seem to have no problem attracting men but don't seem to attract the ones you like:

Seven of swords
King of swords
Ten of swords

Immediately the cards suggest that the answer is complex. To understand the dynamics I have split the question to get more of an impression.

Is it the case that you seem to have no trouble attracting men:

Seven of cups
The High Priestess
Six of Pentacles

You have no trouble attracting the men that you aren't particularly head over heels with (as you said), generally they are nice-ish with some attractive things about them. And you draw on a little vulnerable 'girl child' you, in side - and this clinches the deal. You may not be fully conscious of doing this, and your psychological workings out of this whole game of attraction is in front of your general awareness of it.

Why are you attracting men that are not particularly to your liking:

Seven of swords
Knight of pentacles
Five of swords

In one word: safety. You feel you can manage them so they are the ones you allow to get close to you. You know you can generally determine who you can keep if you want to. There is also an element of looking for the grown up version of a super crush you had when you were maybe about 14, and this super crush has kind of merged with a few characters from books and movies that you had in your mind when you were still a child.

Why have you opted for safety instead of going for who really attracts you:

Two of pentacles
Seven of cups
Nine of wands

You are not really sure who is attractive to you other than vague traits. You try to put an appearance to the type of person that attracts you but you have no idea. You wonder if they exist. Paradoxically, you see/meet guys that you find attractive but you think they can not possibly fall into the realm of what you could have a relationship with. So in one aspect you are not sure what you want in attractiveness, and then in the other aspect of it, if you see someone attractive to you, you don't regard them as a potential partner because there is no bridge mentally, between their attractiveness and you forming a relationship with them - so you tend to sum up the conundrum by telling yourself that they are the type of guy that some other chick will get because they and the guy will know how to form a relationship with each other - therefore you conclude - you don't form relationships with guys you like. Thus you keep searching for the key to somehow bridge this relationship divide so you can actually experience a relationship with someone you are attracted to.

So this is sort of like a self defeating loop to some extent, and when asked what the solution is, the answer is:

Ace of swords
Nine of pentacles
King of cups

You have geared yourself to being justified to get the guys that you think you deserve or can get. You need to rewire your thinking and instead of being some ideal that you think you should be, that you think the attractive guys will like - you need to transform yourself into the ideal of yourself that you really like and then your mind will say that you have become the ideal partner for the guy that you think ideally suits you. It is very much a talk show topic, and has some validity to it, that you get the partner, you think you deserve etc.

So I guess this is a universal phenomenon with people in general. And of course some people seem to just fall naturally into relationships with super unreal seeming people. Another conundrum - yes.

So the advice particular to you to enable this transformation is:

Eight of wands
The Chariot
Five of cups

Sadly, the advice is quite annoying but appears to be - running. Movement in general.

So run and streamline, and this will affect a kind of clock. And this will in turn affect many things including health stuff like thyroid issues. Movement such as all the usual advice, like try to walk some of the way instead of using a vehicle etc is all pertinent.

I don't like the advice myself, as far as running is concerned. I always think running is so arduous and is heavy stress on your joints etc. It seems this is the case - and yet it is still indicated as one of the important things for you. It looks like the way around the stress of running on your body is to run lightly like a gazelle - so it looks like sort of light loping, almost kind of skipping. Like if you took light longish springs forward rather than heavy bang bang bang shorter steps. This seems ridiculous to be able to do from a practical viewpoint and I don't think initially you'll get more than about 100 steps in this manner - if that, maybe even as little as 50 but that is ok.

Other parts of the advice, is emphasing your hair. It seems you are capable of luscious hair. And I see the action of a single strand of hair being plucked from your front hairline. I thought it was going to be for hair analysis for mineral deficiencies etc and it seems this would be helpful but more so it looks like this type of hair analysis and treatment would be worthwhile
http://www.verticalsinhair.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=category&layout=blog&id=65&Itemid=57

I had a look at 'Steve's' answers to some of the questions posted on the thermal reconditioning forum and it gave me hope for humanity, lol, no I just like that he took the time to answer people properly and I think he sounds like he knows what he is talking about. Anyway I just liked how genuinely human he is...chuckle.

And finally as part of the advice, with the streamlining, there is an element of becoming sleek like a fish - I know I hate all that stuff along these lines, seems so cliche, but I think you will like do a 360 in terms of loving the whole sleek, streamlined feel that you can achieve.

If this sounds depressing and you want a less arduous solution the advice is:

The World
Queen of pentacles
The Heirophant

Basically this is telling me that I'm being too demanding in my seeking, lol. If I try to seek an alternative parallel within these three cards, it is saying that you can modify your life as you wish but keep the objective of a sleek streamlined-ness to you in mind, which might effectively gear you towards the goal in alternative ways, yet still pretty tried and true behaviours such as: maybe asian style dishes, green shakes (with maybe green apple in with the spinach, or is it kelp et cetera), and aquaaerobics and stuff.

There is definitely a sea/water/eel-snake-fishiness thing going on here - and the ultimate is part of a transformed self into a more hydrated, sleek, mineralised self. So yeah, it looks like a mineral analysis is part of that hair analysis thing too as well as maybe that sleek hair website. I think you could actually have a twice-to three times a year or so body mask in some kind of green mud mineral gel stuff. So I googled that too and there seems to be a green clay and green gel body wrap stuff with minerals and other things in it on a few web sites.

Often ideas are themed and have several variations.

There also is a feel that I think one of the guys around you/or that you already know, despite seemingly not being your attractive type per se, is resonating as a good attractive match for you but he too is not putting his best face forward and face is literal as well here. Does he have a scruffy beard? I think he could play squash/racket ball if he got motivated and possibly did at some stage. So he could be fitter, and spruce his image. The suggestion that I feel is one of those guy facial days, that include excellent shave with products as well as haircut, eyebrows, and scents - which I think is a big one for you and I'm smelling woodsy masculine scents with a hint of orientals/spices. I'm also picturing a suit and nice shoes, and there is an alternative look that kind of looks like he is some kind of tennis pro like something sporty in white with red and such. This guy feels like he has a capricorn/pisces mix with a hint of sagittarian and with a prominent mercury possibly in the 10th. I think he might have a capricorn sun and he seems smart and can be very well dressed and suave even if he never cuts the ideal poster boy shape he can really dress well if he puts a mind to it and I really feel that an Italian made class act suit - he could just wear like he was born to showcase it.

For some reason YoursTrulyAlways comes to mind. Maybe I thought his ascendant was later in pisces and so his Mercury would end up in the 10th. I went back and had to find YTA's chart, sorry YTA, cringe. Yes that kind of chart mix of signs would work with the vibe of guy that I'm talking about in the above. But I must be out of my mind, and surely YTA would never have a scruffy beard, though I guess I did picture he should sculpt his sideburns a little I think.

Oh lah, I'm incredibly wafflinging,...talk, talk, talk...blah, blah, waffle talk, rah rah...

posted December 12, 2012 05:14 AM            

About the running part. Don't feel bad lol. The advice is spot on. I need to get back on that. Except, I walk- don't run- for exercise. Or I used to anyway because I've been lazy lately. Running though I find it extremely challenging but appealing at the same time. It's the freedom that comes with it. I'm gonna give it a shot. Don't know about the gazelle running thing though

The guy you're describing reminds me of someone that managed to break my heart without ever having anything to do with me. We had a strange connection -very telepathic - and I believed (hoped?) he was the one. I had all the classic signs of meeting a soulmate like I felt like the sense of deja vu. Knowing when he was going to call or appear out of nowhere but, as the story goes, being me -the ever lucky in love person that I am- he ended up marrying somebody else. But he's a Sag with a moon in Pisces and a rising in Capricorn. I think he's got Mercury conjuncting his Ascendant. Not sure though. He's always very well dressed, sometimes has an unshaven look - but a beard? No, don't think so. He's the fit athletic type but I'm not sure if he's into tennis. He could, he's into everything that makes him look posh. As far as his attractiveness goes, he's alright looking. He 's been quite popular with the ladies as far as I know. But no. Not classically beautiful. I dunno, maybe I'm still wishing even though that ship has sailed.

posted December 12, 2012 06:50 AM            

The progression of the relationship is:

The Hanged Man
Six of swords
Ten of cups

I think this amounts initially to a seasonal christmas card or similar. He looks like he is in somewhere like Florida or similar to that, I would imagine.

posted December 13, 2012 07:23 AM            

I probably will just limit readings to the forum because I can pick and choose what I want to look at. I work full time as a nurse so only have so many hours left for other stuff.