posted December 20, 2012 11:41 AM
Hello ,when I look at your chart and am searching 'back' to find past lives, I immediately find myself saying, and the feeling is like a shock, and I say to you with what I am feeling, 'I feel so sorry for you - you had to do it though'
I may come back to the asteroid bits that you are asking but I'm just going with the impression on a prominent past life. So it seems not too long ago, and the time 1908 has appeared but am thinking the birth year is 1899, in a dutch-french place, and the boy had to sell out on some people, had to tell on them, but he really had no choice by his conscience. So yes, a nine year old boy fairheaded or maybe light brown but generally fair with fair skin.
And the name is Ambrose, and the last name is Roosvlt, or similar. And the area, after googling around, feels like Flanders. East Flanders in fact. In East Flanders is Ghent, and Ghent is connected to the legend of King Arthur. If you google it, its where an Abbot of Glastonbury fled to Flanders and left some manuscripts of the legend and some time after that Cretien de Troyes wrote Percevel ou le cont de Grael.
So already this is a multilayered impression that probably connects two existences - and I know right now that I won't do it justice as the relationships of imagery and significance are rich and complex and I'm sensing humour and huge deluges of information and important themes - so my lazy side is backing off as it is one of those things that will have me spending copious amounts of time just cruising through the 'landscape' of the story and its contents. Perhaps I can come back to it over time. And there is a guide present - so I think this is where the humour is bubbling from.
The guide, one of yours, has put the name forward of Homer de Meyes , pronounced with a french accent, so it sounds like Oumair de Meyes (which sounds like 'demise') so I question is this where the joke is but he seems to be serious about the name. The guide is not always your guide but one of about 100. He is one of your guides because he is related to you, through your mother's side, and he might add that your mother is a remarkable woman and a good cook, someone he would be glad to call his descendant. I tried to clarify the spelling of the de Meyes bit, and I think it is right, I asked if it was more of a de Meyers and it seems no that's not it, but he sighs and says as far as names go, it could well be one and the same, as in how names get corrupted and it may have originally been this or his name might be the original - who can tell.
So the guide has surfaced because: he is not particularly happy, it seems a little onerous for him, but he wants you to kickstart a dream kind of hidden under you. Well not exactly him wanting to kickstart this he is saying, but in fact its something that needs intervention so its on his job card so to speak.
He has just indicated that there is something important but he doesn't know whether to say it. It is like he doesn't know whether he should say but I see a man that he is directing my focus to, that is large, and sturdily built, fair skinned, and has hair that is a bit unruly and reddish. He is keen on you. His name, the guide says 'meat brain' but perhaps his name is something like Brian or something else with a B, and there is an M and maybe a G. So is it possible something like Brian McGruber. I'm not sure, because it is complex why I don't get things exact. I do get some kind of things exact at times but it is like my brain has to translate an impression. Anyway, I'm not confident about this, it feels a bit too flimsy.
And the whole guide thing, I can barely believe it myself when I get these moments with these personalities. So maybe don't take the whole thing to seriously, because maybe neither of us should believe it.
Anyway, Flanders was significant in WW1, but if 1908 is correct, I'm not sure what is happening at that time. But it seems there was some kind of segregation or laws about a type of people or persons. Maybe they had been kicked out, but they were staying on hoping no one would say anything. And I think they were actually Jews, but that seems too early for that kind of drama as that was more WW2. But anyway, the boy had to tell on them and being a child, he thought he was doing the right thing as children of 9 would generally try to follow what is being put about as what you need to do in the event of...
So already I think that the German influence in East Flanders was against Jews, long before Hitler came to power, and perhaps Hitler grew up in a similar atmosphere of distrust of Jews. So here is this little boy only doing what he is being told to do. And on the otherhand here is this Jewish family that is thinking that most of the community will not be bothered to make a big thing and pressure them out of the town, because they have been living and working there for some 20yrs. And there is an air of arrogance about them - I'm not completely sure why, I think possibly they think no one has the right to say they can't live there, and I have a feeling they are actually taking advantage of the towns people through their business. I think they have connections with a prominent council man or something who is also Jewish, and the two feel like they run the town. So it seems that there is a push through the papers to frown upon Jewish people at this time. And the little boy hears his father talking over this. So, I think the boy hides nearby, and he listens to what they say, as the Jewish people often sit out on a little table outside their place of business and they drink coffee and talk about the town with their close friends. So the little boy, has turned against the Jewish family because he thinks they are bad people, and I think he has heard their joking mean statements about the more original inhabitants of the town. In fact many of the townspeople know of this sort of dominance by the Jewish family and the councillor's family but they don't worry about it too much and they just get on with their work. It feels like there is grain crops, cattle and dairy around the town, and the town makes something like gouda or edam cheese and the people there just love it. The climate is lovely and everything is nice and everyone has enough to eat so they don't worry to much about business ideas and they leave the Jews to worry themselves about it. But the little boy has considered many things, and he is not happy with how the Jewish people talk about others and seem to mock the rest of the people. He has given to crouching down behind a stone wall that is adjacent to the Jewish family's home/place of business. And over a few weeks he hears things about how they say things. So he goes with his father to the head man in his church and tells him what he has heard, the various mocking things etc (and I am just recounting the events here as I would never take lightly the genocide of the Jews in the holocaust etc or try and rile up anti-semitism, I do in fact have some interest in things Hebrew/Yiddish).
So gravely the tall church man, takes these ideas to the elders of the church for which the boy's father is one. And they are pleasant, kind people, but a couple of things can get them incensed and one of them is being taken for fools and being taken advantage of. It seems that the Jews were somehow diddling a corporation of the townspeople. They were selling the cheese and produce but they were lying about the margin of profit. And when it was investigated, the family were roughed up and ousted out of the town.
Then it seems that sometime later, possibly at least 9mths, the boy is with his father on a day trip to the next town which is bigger, and the father is arranging to buy some tools. Whilst waiting outside in the street, the boy sees the Jewish man that was kicked out of town. He doesn't say anything as he forgets about it - then halfway back home to their own town he mentions it to his father. His father turns around and goes back to the bigger town and tells some of the men of the town. Then in the coming weeks or so the town's people of both towns scour the whole area, encompassing about 80 square miles, and eventually they find the family living in a cottage on the land of a flemish family that is quite isolated, and not up on the politics of the town or the wider area. They then burnt the families belongings and tied the adults up with ropes and took them another 50miles into scrub forest and dumped them there without any food or protection from the elements. Sometime later the news filtered back that one of the children had died of exposure. It was a damp autumn. The family eventually made it to a city but they had nothing and there was no charity, and they were broken down with the loss of the child.
Some of the adults in the original town where the boy lived were not worried about what had befallen the family, but the whole affair rested heavily on the boy's heart. He didn't want to go to Sunday school anymore and he wasn't too sure about God. He felt he had brought about the death of the Jewish child and all he could think was he basically killed the child. But truly it was the circumstances at the time, and the atmosphere of anti-Jew.
The boy grew up and lived until 1956 and died of complications resulting from worms in pork and what started out as gastrointestinal discomfort and nausea ended up as changes to the brain and a heart attack. In his life he married a beautiful woman, who was named Fleur I think, or it may have been spelt Floeurwy. And they had 5 children, six pregnancies and one was a miscarriage at 3 mths, the last one, and the mother was traumatised by it all as she became unwell with it and had to take sleeping syrup to settle her hysteria. Fact is she had a massive fight with her husband because she was left to put cows away in the half dark and had to lift and drag this horrible heavy gate to the cow pen and she slipped in the mucky cow mud, so that her legs slid apart and pulled badly and she felt that it brought on the miscarriage. Anyway after about a day and half of miscarrying, and worrying about everything getting behind on the housework and with the family, she got so frustrated over Ambrose, her husband that she stopped talking to him and just started snapping at him because she actually felt like going right off her brain at him. He went to great trouble to bring the doctor out and the doctor gave her a small bottle of laudanum to help her get some rest and chill her out a bit. She could only take a few drops at a time, and the bottle lasted ages, she became quite addicted to it.
Ambrose became quite a painter in the last decade of his life and he even sold some of them.
So if you can believe it that is all I have to write on it for now. Possibly I could directly answer your original queries a bit better. It always seems like a crock of rubbish but there must be something in it because once I pick up the thread of an impression I can follow it in to a story.
I have asked for something more significant about the guide saying he's on your mother's side. After all it's pretty general to say someone is a good woman and a great cook, because even if they are not its just such a standard compliment. So there is indicated to me a brown wallet, a man's wallet, and it seems that something very particular to the owner of the wallet is that his initials are etched into the corner of the wallet. Are they J.R. It definitely seems like an R is there but I'm not sure about the J. Please tell if these things are ridiculous and wrong, especially this last paragraph.