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Topic: Suicidal LOVE?
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Fatale Newflake Posts: 4 From: long beach, CA, USA Registered: Aug 2012
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posted December 26, 2012 02:51 AM
Me and my ex of 3 years on/off had an INTENSE relationship. The feelings ran as deep as Hades. We both have Venus in the 8th house and my ascendant is his descendant in Virgo. He actually downed a bottle of pills and tried slitting his wrists when I tried breaking up with him for the 1st time... (I think it was a manipulative tactic & that he wasn't REALLY for reals). And it's crazy because he's not even the "crazy" type. He's very optimistic & grew up in a really good home... doesn't have much "baggage" nor any outlandish personality defects. Later on when he broke my heart the 1st time, the pain was so intense, I had thoughts of suicide running through my head. The 2nd time he broke my heart & we were split up for about 10 months, I resorted to drugs (everyday) because I couldn't deal with a reality that was unbearable... otherwise I felt like I wanted to die. When I eventually moved on, he came running back to me but it was too late... but I still had immense love for him... but the romantic feelings are completely gone. 1 year later, which is today, I get text from him telling me that although he's accomplished so much & fulfilled his life dreams while we were split up, the heartbreak of us not being together hurts so much that he's starting to feel like death is the only option. SOrry if all of this sounds SO CRAZY and TMI but I'm desperate for answers. I'm wondering if I should just settle with him? Becuz I know that "romantic" feelings in most marriages eventually fade away & it's the friendship that stands the test of time. He's actually a really great guy, has his **** together, educated, good income, comes from a great family, very artistic, talented, creative, great sense of humor, kindhearted etc... I'm the one with issues, I don't even know why he wants me. But the romantic feelings are completely gone, no matter how hard I try to force them.. I feel as though I love him like I'd love a brother. I want to fall back in love with him bcuz I feel like a damn fool for letting such a good guy go. Even my family was disappointed when we broke up & they NEVER liked ANY guy I was with! Ughh i feel so fcked in the head :/My chart: http://www.astro.com/cgi/showgif.cgi?lang= e&gif=astro_w2at_02_esther_lee_hp.28224.22812.gif&res=63&va=&cid=c44fileB3MHFJ-u1356051404 His chart: http://www.astro.com/cgi/showgif.cgi?lang=e&gi f=astro_w2at_01_albert_hp.28068.15601.gif&res=63&va=&cid=c44fileB3MHFJ-u1356051404 IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve Moderator Posts: 2279 From: Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 26, 2012 04:29 AM
Sounds like a heavy-afflicted-Pluto/8th house thing.But anyway, astrology apart, why would you want to "settle" with a guy who makes you suicidal and whom you make suicidal? I mean, I don't see how something like that could become a stable, healthy relationship. What if one of you cheats? or betrays the other in any other way? You guys are gonna go crazy and kill each other or kill yourselves.. It really sounds like a very toxic relationship and I would recommend you cut all ties with that person and move on to find a better life. Actually the answer is pretty simple: are you happy with that person? Would you like to live your life with them? now.. think about it carefully. And because someone wants to die when you break up with them doesn't mean they love you.. it means they have serious attachment issues and they're scared of separation to the point of self-destruction. It has little to do with *you*, but with *them* and *their* abandonment issues. Please love yourself enough to be able to make the right decision *for yourself*. IP: Logged |
lalalinda Moderator Posts: 2826 From: nevada Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 26, 2012 04:45 AM
Hello Fatale! Welcome to LL moving to Personal Readings ------------------
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Redpearl3 Newflake Posts: 24 From: Registered: Dec 2012
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posted December 26, 2012 12:45 PM
I dunno if you should settle down with him or not but Your karma is to heal each other. Maybe talking things out will help the process. Take it slow and talk alot about everything. Dont hold back.IP: Logged |
Lily Knowflake Posts: 72 From: Registered: Mar 2012
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posted December 27, 2012 06:20 AM
The charts expired...
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