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Topic: Ughh... Retrograde
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beccathelion
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posted February 24, 2013 11:09 PM
  
Anybody else having trouble with this damn Mercury retrograde? I've been feeling really weird. Hyper-aware. Like somebody is always watching me. I'm having trouble concentrating, motivating myself. I basically just want to sit around all day in PJs and contemplate how unhappy I am with... well nothing. I also have this really anxious feeling all of the time. Waiting for the shoe to drop sort of thing. It's absolutely obnoxious.I'm a Leo Sun/Sag Moon/Leo Asc... this is basically making me feel like a sad, droopy sunflower. Anybody else???? Or am I at the crossroads of a more devastating, spiritual ennui  IP: Logged |
littlecloud
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posted February 24, 2013 11:31 PM
I think my experience is typical; miscommunications, arguments. I keep feeling like I have to watch what I say because someone may take offense. I also keep misspelling a lot of things.I'm also feeling like donning pjs all the time but I have been sick so it could be that too. IP: Logged |
beccathelion
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posted February 24, 2013 11:47 PM
It sucks! I've been misspeaking like crazy, and I'm an English teacher, so that goes over like a lead balloon. Wah-wah-wah. March 17th needs to hurry up and get here IP: Logged |
littlecloud
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posted February 25, 2013 12:04 AM
March is always such a long month :/Also I meant to say that I'm sorry I didn't get to do a spread for you in your thread about your dream. I meant to and by the time I got home to be able to, you already had a few responses so I felt I was a bit late on that. IP: Logged |
beccathelion
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posted February 25, 2013 12:07 AM
Oh my gosh, don't even worry about it. You're completely fine  The fact that you even volunteered was way too sweet. I know how it goes completely. We all have lives that sometimes get in the way of our big hearts. I do it all the time (insert blanket apology to all the people I've forgotten about on here ...)IP: Logged |
littlecloud
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posted February 25, 2013 12:32 AM
You've read for me a couple of times and I always want to return the favor yet never really get too.. If you want me to do some other kind of reading you're more than welcome to ask. But if it's tarot it'll have to wait until tomorrow. I've been obsessively doing 3 card readings for myself and I think I've driven myself insane. Maybe it's mercury rx or something...IP: Logged |
beccathelion
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posted February 25, 2013 02:03 AM
No, I totally think it's the repeated readings. I've gotten into that tailspin too, and by the time I see the light, I am exhausted and all shook up. Also, you are way too sweet. Tell you what, I have no idea what kind of readings you do other than tarot but... The next six months of my life are gonna be pretty rocky and full of uncertainty (which I don't do so well with.) I'm graduating from grad school, I'm applying for a major workshop that could get me a tv writing job (life dream), crossing my fingers I get hired as an instructor at my school so I don't starve to death, and am moving yet again in June. Lots of stress, lots of concerns. I'm trying to stay positive and say, "Everything for a reason," but sometimes... I get nervous. So, anything you can read on that would actually be quite wonderful! Even if it says: she is going to explode and live on the streets, okay. Fine. I just... I am trying not to read myself :/ it's hard. IP: Logged |
littlecloud
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posted February 25, 2013 02:04 PM
I know :/ I keep asking the same question using different words or not at all..I can get neurotic at times...Anyway I asked what can Beccathalion do during the month of March to ensure she reaches her goals You- Empress
Crossing- 9 of cups
below- The Hermit
left- Emperor
Above- Page of Discs
right- 2 of rods the staff part of the cc
3 of rods- King of Swords- 3 of cups- 4 of cups This is a bit of weird reading...I get a lot of feeling like forging your own path, doing things your own way. Perhaps allow yourself some time to be with friends or feel good about what you've accomplished but don't compare yourself to others, focusing on what you've yet to do. Look at the opportunities that are still ahead. You have a lot to offer (2 rods) and with many returns (3 rods). There may be someone who can help you keep a level head..(King of Swords). All the 3's make me think group project, learning to work with others, or someone who will help you.
I think working on things alone made you a bit closed off to people (hermit, emperor). It's a single minded pursuit that led you to be more of an observer, and perhaps it worked out in the past that way but I'm thinking that doing it all alone may leave feeling drained and apathetic (4 of cups). I hope this helps...I can come back to this later and see if there is anything else to add. IP: Logged |
littlecloud
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posted February 25, 2013 02:52 PM
Speaking of merc Rx, I just had the worst time communicating with people to try to get an appointment for my MRI. I wanted to pull may hair out I was so frustrated. And I've messed up my entire day trying to get this appointment..IP: Logged |
beccathelion
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From: CA
Registered: Jun 2009
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posted February 25, 2013 04:33 PM
Littlecloud. Dude, you are so accurate on so many levels. I got into this great program in SoCal in 2010 for poetry/creative writing. I was so excited, but the last two years have really beaten me down. In my work, I love painting weird pictures and talking about survival versus telling a formal story in traditional form (which my two main teachers cared about deeply.) After hearing, "You just aren't good at that stuff you like. Try our way instead," twenty thousand times... it sort of took the wind out my sails. I mean, they are living legends, so of course I followed their advice, but I did get apathetic and bored. I felt like I couldn't be me and do what I like doing as an individual and writer. I just went into my own world and stopped caring so much about my work. The good news is, they both basically retired, and the new dept. head is my thesis chair. She's so wonderful. She said, "Be weird. You are good at weird. You love weird. Do it." Talk about a total 360.So now, getting back into spec writing on the side, which I did for undergrad... I've started to feel a lot better. I want to show my work with others, collaborate more, and be myself again. I'm just scared, because my whole life I've sort of only leaned on myself and my family. Got me some trust issues, so branching out is... very new territory. Especially with sharing my dream to be write for TV. Oh my God. Life dream x 100000000. And I do definitely need to take time and breath and stop to smell the roses. I am always looking for the next big "goal" to set. That's a folly on my part. Thanks for this so much. It's reassuring and makes me feel better. Just keep plodding along and stop panicking. Actually rely on my friends. I can do that. I think. Ideally. Damn Leo sensibilities of never seeming helpless. Okay, MRI? Are you okay??? And do you mean your day is jacked, because you have to go in today, or because you are frustrated? Don't let the frustration get to you. Some people are just ridiculous and mean, because they answer phones and schedule stuff for a living, which isn't a bad career at all... but some people suck. Don't let your day be ruined!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IP: Logged |
littlecloud
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posted February 25, 2013 08:29 PM
Haha on the Leo sensibilities, I totally get that. I'm glad the reading made sense, I kinda looked at it and was like huh...and then once I started typing it all seemed to come to me. Good to see I still have my touch. Was starting to feel freaked out bc of last night, but sometimes readings don't make that much sense until after the fact and you're like Ohhhhhhhhhhh, that's what that meant! Which happened to me today. Things weren't as bad as they seemed... although there is a consistent thing about a change happening now, so hopefully it goes my way...I had gotten hit by a car and I'm still hurting and not being able to get back to my normal life. It's been almost 5 months and for what the diagnosis was I should've been fine by now. Just have this feeling the entire time that they were wrong... Anyway the insurance that's been paying for all my rehab is ending soon and so I'm trying to cram as much last minute help in two weeks. I was expecting to go get the MRI earlier and was basically waiting around for that and kind of blew off everything I was supposed to do. I'm a terrible time manager. Enough about me, the King of Swords totally makes sense now. I'm assuming it's your chair giving you advice. Perhaps she can lead you to a group project? IP: Logged |
beccathelion
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From: CA
Registered: Jun 2009
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posted February 26, 2013 08:25 PM
I hope you feel better. That sounds absolutely awful, but hell yeah, I'd pack in as much as I could too. I'll say some prayers for you. Doctors are the worst... drives me insane to have to go to them. My thesis chair could totally be the King. It's possible she could lead me to group work in some sense. There are 3 people on my committee, and at some point, I have to show them my stuff. I'm also considering collaborating with a friend of mine a spec script for a competition. I wonder if that is it too. I don't work so well in teams, but I think we could make something pretty awesome. I just get hesitant, since I've worked so much alone. And you've totally still got your touch. Rockin' it, for sure. IP: Logged |
venuscorpio86
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From: salem,or usa
Registered: Feb 2011
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posted February 26, 2013 09:31 PM
I am so new to all of this stuff. Who is affected by Mercury retrograde? Is everyone affected or only people who have certain aspects in their natal charts?IP: Logged |
beccathelion
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From: CA
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posted February 26, 2013 11:16 PM
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Originally posted by venuscorpio86:
I am so new to all of this stuff. Who is affected by Mercury retrograde? Is everyone affected or only people who have certain aspects in their natal charts?
I don't know much more either; something I hope to rectify one glorious day. As I understand it, everyone is affected by the cycle, but some more than others and vice versa. My guess is Virgo and Gemini folks (Mercury is the ruler of those signs) would feel it a little more strongly. It's not a bad time by any means; it's just a little wonky and misunderstandings are common. For instance, I've been having trouble saying what I want to say... it comes out all befuddled and weird. Plus, the money I was expecting from a school loan got strangely held up (unbelievably uncommon), and I think the money thing matters, cause I am a Leo (saying this again... geez), and on the surface, we're supposed to be greedy cougar-like lions with a love of fine wines and velveteen sheets  Anyway, I think Mercury in retrograde can be great for some out of the box activities, for spicing up your life a little with the unconventional. It's a terrible time though to sign on dotted lines or make decisions (too great a chance something will go wrong or someone will change their mind.) IP: Logged |
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