posted March 02, 2013 06:50 AM
Thanks a million! I do not know how to interpret I was trying to go online and google find answers via research. I will tell you how you did as far as things I do know in regards to the 2 of us.Page of wands - How relationship used to be
***Yes! Definitely hit the nail on the head!I always had a idea of my ideal man & what I wanted a LATINO man who was just like me -this man was the opp. a small town caucasian who swept me off my feet! We met 1 night at a lounge,exchanged #s,he reached out to me 2 days later then again & after our 3rd time of hanging out it was...powerful, beautiful,fun, we literally would stay out all night till 7:00 am in the morning till it was time for me to go to college & him to work. I am Sagittarius & he is Gemini we loved doing random on the go type things...I met his mother after few days of meeting him, within a week it felt like we knew each other for years..he took care of me when I was sick,he fixed my car,offered me help financially as I am poor college student, he lived with his parents still,and I stayed every night with him at their home it was never an issue, I loved the family & vice versa. We were only together from Oct-Dec. never ever felt such a deep,beautiful amazing connection...I feel like I lost my soulmate the one who was for me. We did get very intimate quickly which is VERY unusual for me. We are both in our mid 20's but I am very immature in regards to relationships as I never had a real one or one where I felt loved. He was somewhat immature as well, with the partying drinking like a 21 yr old. We both are very outgoing,funny,playful and acted very youthful together.
Knight of Wands - What lead to the end
***The passion was still very much there & strong. Things became volatile very volatile. We had a situation happen with an ex texting him,causing issues. He told her he moved on with me but she did some awful things. It made him & I well..me act volatile. I texted him told him terrible things, I tried tearing him apart with my words, I was so angry,hurt,afraid that this ex was going to cause him to leave me cause what she did, but in reality, I don't think he was going to leave me but I pushed him away. & did this from Dec to Jan. I was a terrible person..and have suffered because of these actions.
Knight of Pentacles - Significance of relationship
***I think that this was the significance, a lesson to be learned, I needed to learn to not be so volatile & act so aggressively verbally abusive when I am angered & need to learn when enough is enough. I think our passion was amazing and positive...but my temper, my paranoia of worrying if he was going to leave me for his ex was over the top. I was thinking things, that more than likely weren't true, example he wanted his ex back. I def need to find grounded in love.I just can't figure out the significance of the relationship for him was?
Six of Swords - Where relationship stands
*** Yes, that is correct we are not together. Both have had some very profound things happen & changes in our lives..its wow,almost very karmic.
Four of Wands - What you (I) want?
***Very true! I wanted to build a future with this man, not right away but I did. I wanted to eventually when I was more mature,stable as far as career goes, emotional wise (not so volatile as mentioned above)more stable. I thought how awesome it would be to build a home with this man, we are both small town ppl so in the town he lives in,I wanted us to be surrounded by family,friends good times, I always thought or saw him as someone who would make an amazing father. We used to joke about if we had kids & how they would be.
King of Pentacles - What he wanted from this?
***Wow, I have to say right on as well, here, I don't think he wanted more control as this isn't how he is, I would tell him to make decisions cause he was the man when it came to certain things..like, where we were gonna go,do etc. he didn't like that. I do believe he definitely wanted me to trust him, as mentioned above in regards to the ex. I remember when he thought I had said something about him hanging out with her he got very emotional upset not mean or angry he just didn't like that I was doing that said he never would do that to me. He probably wanted more respect and for me to quit the verbal abuse when I was upset.
Ace of Words - Obstacles to overcome
***YES! I def need to learn and clean myself of that verbal vomit when upset,need to trust that, should have trusted,respected not let my anger or hurt get to me. I have been going to church since the separation more often, I do not go out, I have not drank in over a month, I want to be a better person in regards to relationship. I am not a bad or mean person, I just let emotions overtake me, let his ex take over pull my strings like a puppet pulling them to make me upset push me over the edge. I wish I could of acted differently & I am trying really hard to change for my future as I feel I caused this heartbreak myself.
The Magician - Is relationship meant to be?
***Not sure, I don't understand what this card means or any for that fact really..but I would LOVE for us to be allowed a fresh start.
Temperance - Where relationship is headed?
*** Not sure of this one either, I do need to realize I cannot control...but for him, I don't know what this card signify s.
Nine of Cups - COurse of action
****Makes sense, I suppose. I do think of him day & night, remember our good times together...when I think of what made me happy, he did. Before I met him, I wasn't very happy felt very lonely, I was just going with life...he brought back excitement, I felt like someone cared for me, saw me as beautiful, he grew to be my best friend not only my lover, I miss our random silly adventures together & miss sitting around doing nothing with him cause we always had a good time no matter what.
I think you were pretty darn right about everything! I do hope that the magician card us starting up again rings true. I must admit I cried while writing this up, I miss him so much & miss everything about him, feel so depressed,lonely & I miss my friend cause that is what I considered him as well...he has a great rep for being a good man,a nice man, treating his girlfriends very well. If it wasn't for his ex coming around causing problems I can almost 99 percent guarantee we would not have ever even argued..because we never did upset 1 another or were unhappy. I never had this type of connection and I am afraid I never will, I don't want it with anyone else...I just...want us back