posted March 21, 2013 06:46 AM            

It seems like I'm not destined to find happiness. Believe me I have tried. It seems like the best years have passed me by and the years to come will be pretty much the same as those that have gone before. Like Thomas hardy once said " happiness is but an episode in the general drama of pain.

And I have realized something else : Every male I have ever loved from my father to my brother to my ex husband to my ex boyfriends to my nephew has been separated from me by either death, distance or circumstances.

I also am quite hesitant to chase after guys. A man has to prove that he really wants me before I reciprocate. It's not pride or arrogance I am just too scared of reading things wrong

I would be really grateful if someone could see what my chart says about this

Thank you.....

posted March 21, 2013 09:47 AM            

I'm still practicing so I can't give you much details yet, but I will try to help you with what I can. The experts might have more detailed ideas on this

from what I see in your chart, the aspects that stood out to me were:

-Sun opposite moon and jupiter (sun, ruler of the 10th= paternal figure/masculine energy opposite moon=your emotional core/feminine energy, jupiter=greater benefic)

This might indicate your difficulties with men in general, or tension between your parents although that will not always be the case. Your sun is debilitated in Aquarius. You seem to have a push-pull tendency between your feelings and logic.

-Neptune square venus (neptune, ruler of the 5th= relationships/children square the ruler of your 7th house of relationships, venus)

-Mars in your 12th, Saturn in your 5th.

However, whatever is in this chart will not "predispose" you to anything. I personally think that looking at the transits/progressions will help you understand your question better. There may be recurrent themes at the time of those events.

posted March 21, 2013 12:02 PM            

For example, they are both in the 11th house of friends. Pluto is the transformative planet, but he is retrograde here. There is a lesson you need to uncover here, hence the kites, and when you do, you will understand better.

Other things to research:
Your Saturn is in your 5th House of dating in close conjunction your Chiron - healing/wounds.

Your Mars in your 12th - hidden secrets and undoings, this can be a great strength if you learn how to harness it.

Neptune in conjunction with Ascendant Scorpio.

And the Sun/Moon/Jupiter Rx/Mercury in close proximity to Venus is important. Skip over the Horay parts but I went into some details here that you could look into, chart formation, stelliums, asteroids, aspects and other formations - such as grand trines.

http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum11/HTML/006357.html

GOOD LUCK - its a learning process, and you have taken the first step!

posted March 21, 2013 12:27 PM            

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Originally posted by imeanj:
You need to learn more about your Kites, you have to towards Pluto and Neptune, both of the planets are retrograde. You need to learn more about what that means, in regards to sign, and house.

For example, they are both in the 11th house of friends. Pluto is the transformative planet, but he is retrograde here. There is a lesson you need to uncover here, hence the kites, and when you do, you will understand better.

Other things to research:
Your Saturn is in your 5th House of dating in close conjunction your Chiron - healing/wounds.

Your Mars in your 12th - hidden secrets and undoings, this can be a great strength if you learn how to harness it.

Neptune in conjunction with Ascendant Scorpio.

And the Sun/Moon/Jupiter Rx/Mercury in close proximity to Venus is important. Skip over the Horay parts but I went into some details here that you could look into, chart formation, stelliums, asteroids, aspects and other formations - such as grand trines.

http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum11/HTML/006357.html

GOOD LUCK - its a learning process, and you have taken the first step!

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Thank imeanj

I will look up all the info and post my thoughts here and maybe you and lunae can check and confirm...

posted March 22, 2013 12:55 AM            

Anyone else has any thoughts to share on this?