posted March 29, 2013 02:55 PM            

I have a 10th house in Capricorn with moon conjunct Jupiter and Venus (these two very tight) and Sun in Saggitarius, as well as mercury and Neptune these two conjunct midheaven in 0 capricorn.

The lord of midheaven is in 8th house scorpio (saturn).

North node conjuncts part of fortune in taurus 2nd.

So why I am never happy in any job that gets to me?? I feel low self esteem, I think I will never be good enough in any job, that I am clumsy and so on, nobody will respect me. I dont know what my skills are and which one I can put to good use. I feel so bad.

I sometimes got well paid jobs but I feel that was out of luck and not really for a job well done or something I felt I could do well. I feel always dislocated at my 3 jobs I had for these past 6 years. I am picking the wrong areas only (economics, then statistics, now I am trying to change career for geosciences, currently doing formal studies, but I dont think I am good enough for it, that I lack practical skills)?

Any suggestions where or how these bad things are coming from? Is it just some bad choice in areas of work?

I dont think people see me well at the jobs I had (like someone would think with jupiter venus in 10th in capricorn).

Also I dont have this business/management skills books of astrology says. I am a good director if I have a creative play/some creative thing to coordinate, but I hate/cant do well with coordinating people to deliver things in time (I cant even make myself deliver things in time at work). I like painting, creating clothes, drawing, singing (I suck at fiction writing though XD ) .

Makes no sense to me. I think I am a lost case or astrology doesn't give me any clue or send me in a direction I will never be able to achieve, cause I felt is not who I am? I am so confused!

Sorry for the rumble, I don't know if makes any sense, but why the usual descriptions don't fit me? Or I am reading the wrong books?

Thanks for the illumination (if anybody knows a good book about career/vocation and astrology, I would be so thankful!)

(I cant say I am 100% sure of the hour and minutes, since I was not aware when I was born XD, but my dad taped and pictured the birth, it was a cesarean in a hospital and my mom remembers the hour too. And birth certificate has the specifics too. So I think is right.)

posted March 29, 2013 10:40 PM            

You’ve got lot of planets in 10th house.I assume you are the type of person who is very career-oriented. North node in 2nd indicates that you may be someone who may have issues regarding your self-worth.You have to develop your talents.If you are good at painting,singing,creating clothes you will have to make career out of that,I think the problem lies there.You are talented in one area but you are trying to work in other areas.You will probably be in public eyes which will help you in gaining lot of recognition if you pursue your career in what your’re talented.You have so many planets in 10th,there may be some hard aspects.If your planets in 10th are afflicted you may have some problems in your career,problems with the authority and how others perceive you in that area.

Part of fortune conjunct north node indicates that your luck will be at its best if you walk the path indicated by your north node.You have to value yourself.

posted March 30, 2013 10:24 AM            

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posted March 30, 2013 11:15 AM            

While those are lovely planets in that 10th house showing that you are very career and reputation focus--you also have neptune and mercury conjuncting you MC from the 9th house. mercury conjunct neptune is a dream, peotic placement that goes with what they feel and THINK is going on in the present. That is also a very creative aspect. I have this aspect as well. Asking if you lack "practical" skills is so key here--because that conjunction is based on creativity and new ways of looking at things! No wonder you feel so "lost"

posted March 30, 2013 06:31 PM            

I have an intuition for painting, singing, but not much training. I can say i have a style of painting that I get an inspiration out of nowhere and i put on paper, is natural, but I cant plan to write a book or do a drawing and then I do according the plan. So you can imagine with having to deal with business plans, schedule managing, so on, is not very good lol. Or deciding which applications or bonds to put money, knowing laws.

But if you give me a very specific task that requires problem solving, like lets say someone had problems with maths, computers or software, I can always solve it even not having formal IT training. But if I had to do a business or budget accompanying, memorizing and remembering important laws, remembering little daily things, so on, then I suck.

I never believed art can be a career. I thought wouldn't help the world, make people lives better if I were lets say, a fashion designer or a painter. And I dont know why I picked business and economics as a bachelor degree and never changed, even when i knew after 1 month in there, it was not for me.