posted May 10, 2013 10:57 AM
Ok LostButNotLost, I did a Celtic Cross to figure out why you are depressed, which is your bigger issue right now than your relationship status (and please take all this with many grains of salt, as I am just a beginner! Other folks on this forum, plz chime in). Here is what emerged:The card not shown but at the center of the cross, represents the atmosphere surrounding the central issue. Eight of Cups (Indolence), when reversed: The realization that a matter thought to be important was actually of little consequence. Moving on from something in which you had invested great love and devotion. The start of an inner journey to find higher aspects of life. Reflection on what is truly fulfilling in life.
The card visible at the center of the cross represents the obstacle that stands in your way - it may even be something that sounds good but is not actually to your benefit. The World, when reversed: Incompleteness and shoddy design. A great work betrayed. Insecurity, fear of change, and the failure to reach goals. Regret and disappointment.
The card at the top of the cross represents your goal, or the best you can achieve without a dramatic change of priorities. Three of Wands (Virtue), when reversed: Pride and arrogance. Convincing oneself that the ends justify the means. A great act of betrayal set in motion. Sinking to the level of an opponent. The vain quest for glory and a personal spotlight. Charity or friendship offered with intent of material gain.
The card at the bottom of the cross represents the foundation on which the situation is based. Four of Wands (Completion): A chance to rest and rejoice, having successfully resolved a matter of great import. The initial success of a business venture or creative project. The blossoming of a friendship or romantic relationship. Conclusions drawn based on hard won experience. Spiritual, material, or emotional rewards for diligent effort. May suggest marriage, childbirth, or a victory celebration.
The card at the left of the cross represents a passing influence or something to be released. Ace of Pentacles: The seed of prosperity and material gain - perhaps as yet unseen. A new foundation from which to turn your dreams into reality. The need to focus on the practical and understand the dynamics of the natural world. May represent a gift, document, inheritance, or an unexpected opportunity for physical achievement.
The card at the right of the cross represents an approaching influence or something to be embraced. King of Pentacles, when reversed: The dark essence of earth behaving as air, such as a diamond: An unyielding businessman, with a gift for identifying weakness and exploiting it for personal gain. One well informed about material affairs, but ignorant of larger, more pressing issues. A blind devotee of business as usual, unconcerned with the unintended results, and contemptuous of new ideas. A person full of greed and avarice, easily corrupted by luxury or the temptations of the flesh.
The card at the base of the staff represents your role or attitude. Three of Cups (Abundance), when reversed: A time of shallow overindulgence, followed depletion. The successful but utterly unfulfilling conclusion of a matter. Satisfaction from sensual pleasures divorced from any sense of love. May indicate problems prematurely dismissed or a victory claimed before it is certain.
The card second from the bottom of the staff represents your environment and the people you are interacting with. The High Priestess, when reversed: Being confused and led astray from the true path. Spiritual deception. Overzealous and shallow-minded pursuit of the esoteric. Insecurity, conceit and self-destructiveness. The forces of nature unleashed.
The card second from the top of the staff represents your hopes, fears, or an unexpected element that will come into play. Five of Pentacles (Worry), when reversed: Concern over finance leads to prudent action. Impending physical threat is met with calm and skill. Suffering and loneliness leads to spiritual growth. Stress is met without resorting to excess or the pursuit of oblivion.
The card at the top of the staff represents the ultimate outcome should you continue on this course. Knight of Pentacles: The essence of earth behaving as fire, such as molten magma: One slow to action, but decisive and unrelenting once set in motion. A force of nature whose methods are as predictable and dependable as they are unstoppable. The voice of duty, honor, and responsibility. The will to the change the world, not through bold action, but through the thorough and unwavering application of proven means.
It sounds like your biggest problem right now is that you feel disappointed and insecure (do you also have financial problems too? Lots of pents here). The reading suggests that you really need to focus on yourself right now and figure out your priorities and the more important, satisfying things you can get out of life, otherwise, you will go on a fruitless search for a feeling of completeness that will lead you astray. Your environment doesn't sound like it's helping either. I'm not sure who the King of Pents R is supposed to represent. Perhaps someone who has just hurt you that you need to embrace by recognizing what he has done, or a shadow side of yourself that you need to recognize, or someone who will enter your life soon that you need to be wary of. But the reading suggests that if you look inside yourself and make prudent changes, that you can achieve a healthy outlook and end up in a much stronger state than where you are now.