posted July 24, 2013 03:11 PM            

Had a glimpse in your cards in concern to A.
I was a bit confused about the question (why only until the end of the year? Or is one of you moving residence/or planning to?). So I just asked: Will A. try to make Andstuff his again?
Unfortunately I think the answer to your question is most likely that he is not going to try this. Even though he does seem quite taken/concerned with you (he might have already told you something similar earlier). It feels like he has made up his mind to move away from the two of you & he just feels like the circumstances just aren’t right for the two of you. I’m seeing him moving ‘out of reach’ for you.
Is this A. the man from your past reading? Or is this another gentleman? For some reason I’m under the impression that he feels he would be putting too much of a burden on you & blocking you in your own process. Overall there’s a lot of ‘worry’/’troubles’ attached to this connection.

Sorry :-(
My cards are just a snap shot of time though. For me nothing is ever written in stone.

posted July 26, 2013 09:10 AM            

My hair is normally dark chestnut, but it turns dark red when I'm nervous.

But he's not gonna love anyone like he loved me, no clue what his problem is. I keep getting this message, like he loves me but doesn't want to make his problems mine, so to say. But it's completely unreasonable. I don't know what's in his head. All he ever tells me is he doesn't want horrible things happening to me because of him then the next thing he does is recount his memories of me using sensual language. The weirdest bit is he got in touch at some point right after i hinted in my private blog I might have funny talents, as if he I don't know felt an unconscious urge to use them to his advantage. I never told him I dabble in magic though, so whatever. It's just frustrating that I could probably use my healing/rope magic thing and he would be fine again, at any rate much better than now, and there's no life for me if he's not fine. I can't forgive anyone for being fine when he's not. I can't be close with anyone because they are just wretches looking for love and seriously who are they to get it? Base earthly creatures, why not go to their equals, but they look my way and one day my suicidal tendencies will get the better of me, which will be their fault. I don't get it, why not snap up what you want.... It's not the most difficult thing in the world

My Lenormand keeps giving me sun, lilies and heart in different combos once it comes to his feelings, but gives me clouds and such once it's about taking action with regard thereto. I know it's mental, but well our spiritual hunger keeps soaring and I just can't deal with this anymore, no one can work it out for us

As far as the present goes, your reading is accurate, and well he tried to wipe/f*ck me out of his life 3 years ago and epically failed. I kept cool and got a love letter eventually.

Thanks for remembering me, really kind of you Let's exchange again sometime or other.... Which deck did you say it was?

posted July 26, 2013 11:28 AM            

I'm too proud to acknowledge I need fixing, that's how it is. So maybe I shouldn't be bothering angels who could save their energy for others Besides there's no one worth fixing myself for so there's no point

releasing is synonymous to admitting defeat in my head (*theres a party in my head and no one is inviiiiiiiiiiited*). Fowles had a lovely phrase about this, "pretending second rate is first rate", I was only 20 when I read Daniel Martin, so my head is full of those kinda notions, wrong ones according to most people.