posted July 28, 2013 03:34 PM            

I am always willing to stick to my commitments

In fact I wanted to do it the evening I posted the thread, however ended up beat way before the evening came. This repeated until yesterday. Yesterday I got a horrible heartache (tachycardia is the order of the day) and spent the whole day staring at the first season of Homeland (uh huh awesome choice), not being of much use

posted July 28, 2013 03:36 PM            

Page of swords crossed by the High Priestess
the Wheel of Fortune above
5 swords below
3 pents on the left
7 pents on the right
knight of cups - 7 wands - knight if wands - sun

I’m feeling like you’re almost too soft and nice for the world that’s been tough on you. You might have been misused and possibly even mistreated at work, maybe someone used you to their advantage and there you were unpaid/underpaid, with no refs/credits/whatever. This particular chapter of your life seems to be at the core of your worries and might even be affecting your self-esteem. Which might be why you are a bit too wary, too much on the alert. And you don’t seem to know what’s going to become of you, which causes further aggravation. On the bright side, you do have some valuable experience in the industry/sector you wish to be in., so hold onto it. Or maybe it’s an industry you have experience in but are not considering at this moment? Anyway, some of the skills you have acquired are a valuable asset. BUT in the short term it is still going to take a while, you might go to a few pointless interviews, might have other people chosen over you, I feel like the atmosphere around you is tense, driving you a bit mental, too cluttered/confusing. What you want is a job that’s going to rock your world, right? Like be a change, be entertaining in a good way, when challenge feels like adventure, something not boring? The good news is, with two majors in the future, is that you will have an amazing opportunity and things will start picking up with an almost surprising swiftness, gonna change from chalk to cheese to say so, you’ll have a hard time believing you ever had to deal with this period of futility.

I’m also picking up that you come across as lovable to people who meet you, maybe you should display more firmness and less sweetness, within reasonable limits? Try to highlight your experience, put an emphasis on that as opposed to being nice? Also maybe the likes of you might be easily undermined by tougher colleagues who wish to trip you up at all costs in front of whoever the boss is. So watch out. But I seriously doubt that this opportunity represented by the sun will feature any of this rubbish.

posted July 28, 2013 03:40 PM            

Queen o Cups crossed by 9 cups
The Emperor above
7 pents below
5 swords on the left
3 swords on the right
judgment - 3 cups – Queen of Pents - 2pents

Spiritual/emotional treasures is basically the reason you’re asking this question. The sadness stems from the fact that they are a bit self-contained these days (like I see men come and go but there’ll be one who will collect my soul ©), and what you want is your soul collected for good? I’m imagining however that it’s not quite easily expos-able at this stage? Like you want your soul collected but are not quite ready to offer it as an open cup, rather a closed one. I’m not talking about an open heart, it’s completely irrelevant. Just something lacks balance, what you wish to offer is too well hidden to be seen by anyone but you. Am I right that you don’t quite have your emotional and other needs satisfied, has everyone been failing to do this of late? I’m not sure about a past disappointment, but then it’s a common motif.

You’re feeling really astir, aren’t you? This anxiety stems from some gut feeling that it’s about time things changed, like you’ve had your share of misadventures and could do with something in a different vein. It feels like you go to parties or dinners or both, all around you people are cheerful and seem to radiate confidence and it clashes with this unrest and this feeling you have of imminent change.

In fact in the short term (and I asked about the next important succession of events) what is likely to happen is you getting involved with a person who is very unstable, too willing to act cool and make a point about being a free agent. This will result in a lot of rules implicitly imposed on you, so really if free will can come into play perhaps you could use it if you choose to. In the Rider deck the red of the emperor clashes with the blue of the QoC, your spiritual/emotional needs will prob have to be put on the shelf, will result in a hunger/confinement sort of scenario, depends on how long you want this to go on in your life.

posted July 28, 2013 03:40 PM            

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Originally posted by andstuff:
Hello lovely ladies

I am always willing to stick to my commitments

In fact I wanted to do it the evening I posted the thread, however ended up beat way before the evening came. This repeated until yesterday. Yesterday I got a horrible heartache (tachycardia is the order of the day) and spent the whole day staring at the first season of Homeland (uh huh awesome choice), not being of much use

But today is gonna be the day. Apologies for the delay and if something is unclear please do tell me to elaborate, I tried to read emotional imprints, to learn which is my current ambition, and I'm grateful to both of you for letting me do this for you. if what I typed needs clarification, I'd be happy to

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Andstuff,

posted July 28, 2013 08:23 PM            

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Originally posted by andstuff:
@ elixir: your question was about career/getting a job

Page of swords crossed by the High Priestess
the Wheel of Fortune above
5 swords below
3 pents on the left
7 pents on the right
knight of cups - 7 wands - knight if wands - sun

I’m feeling like you’re almost too soft and nice for the world that’s been tough on you. You might have been misused and possibly even mistreated at work, maybe someone used you to their advantage and there you were unpaid/underpaid, with no refs/credits/whatever. This particular chapter of your life seems to be at the core of your worries and might even be affecting your self-esteem. Which might be why you are a bit too wary, too much on the alert. And you don’t seem to know what’s going to become of you, which causes further aggravation. On the bright side, you do have some valuable experience in the industry/sector you wish to be in., so hold onto it. Or maybe it’s an industry you have experience in but are not considering at this moment? Anyway, some of the skills you have acquired are a valuable asset. BUT in the short term it is still going to take a while, you might go to a few pointless interviews, might have other people chosen over you, I feel like the atmosphere around you is tense, driving you a bit mental, too cluttered/confusing. What you want is a job that’s going to rock your world, right? Like be a change, be entertaining in a good way, when challenge feels like adventure, something not boring? The good news is, with two majors in the future, is that you will have an amazing opportunity and things will start picking up with an almost surprising swiftness, gonna change from chalk to cheese to say so, you’ll have a hard time believing you ever had to deal with this period of futility.

I’m also picking up that you come across as lovable to people who meet you, maybe you should display more firmness and less sweetness, within reasonable limits? Try to highlight your experience, put an emphasis on that as opposed to being nice? Also maybe the likes of you might be easily undermined by tougher colleagues who wish to trip you up at all costs in front of whoever the boss is. So watch out. But I seriously doubt that this opportunity represented by the sun will feature any of this rubbish.

Please do let me know what you think and whatever might be wrong (especially that)

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Thank you for the positive reading. You are right, my last job sucked, low pay and I was working with people who weren't nice at all. And yes, I feel I am not cutthroat enought for this world sometimes.

posted July 29, 2013 07:38 AM            

yes I definitely feel it is time things changed, and I have just coming out of a very tough period in my life. Nothing to do with relationships, though of course there hasn´t been much happening on this front either.

However, I don´t really see myself getting involved with anyone (even though I might want to) at this point (but then you never know), but if this involvement would mean I have to suppress or contain my emotional needs, then, frankly spoken, it is not worth it. Thanks, but no thanks.

posted August 03, 2013 09:15 AM            

this is how i feel about deviant moon. fellini/commedia del arte gone mad

enjoyed an account of your dream, Twirl, not being a massive dream interpretor

i have to admit sometimes this macabre stuff is too much. maybe i should get a joie de vivre to redress the balance. or maybe not

posted August 03, 2013 10:04 AM            

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Originally posted by andstuff:

@ Ceri: if your apology was addressed to me there's no need I [for example] don't dig goth/fantasy-ish decks i think (?) you work with, it's normal. some people can't read rider btw. And oh, thanks for the feedback you left above, hope one day i'll do a reading for you that will sound better and come true

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Yes, I know. I find it amazing though, how cards can speak so differently to us.
I haven`t been able to read Riders for DECADES, it is just recently that they "allowed me back". lol

As for your reading, I think it was very good, especially in pointing out my internal workings, and that is what to me is the most important stuff, be it in astrology or tarot, cause I truely believe that it is our inner attitudes or beliefs that shape our view on certain things or how we experience something.