posted September 22, 2013 03:04 PM            

You have Neptune conjunct MC, which makes you like a psychic sponge, and very sensitive to the world around you. To feel uneasy and depressed is not a sign of a problem with you, it is a sign of the sickness of the society you live in. As you said, you feel the burden of the world on your shoulders. In your case your sensitivity is further heightened by Moon conjunct Neptune, NN and Uranus. Uranus conjunction could cause emotional imbalances when they are out of control.

You need psychic protection through aura clearing, meditations and visualisations. This would be very important. Your aspects also confer ability to affect positive change in society. Once you've discovered your strength, that may be the next step.

Secondly, you ASC is at an anaretic degree - 29 Aries precisely. " It's the last degree of the zodiac sign, and there can be a real sense of urgency surrounding the characteristics and associations of the particular sign'". II is also related to indecision, confusion, change and the need for it.

You have some lovely aspects in your chart which can mainfest as special abilites, e.g, Venus conjunct Jupiter.

posted September 22, 2013 04:47 PM            

On one hand you are very ambitious (sun in 6th house, saturn in 10th house) but doesn't really know where to start.

Once you do find out what you want from your life, you will have plenty of energy (especially mentally) to help you, maybe it feels too easy in the beginning until you get a challenge that seems to be too big and choose to give up, but don't!

You might also be a bit too serious about your life, but deep inside you really wan't to have fun and not take everything so heavy. You have a jupiter in virgo in 5th house, so you should really try to loosen a bit up and have some fun. Forget your pain for a while and try to find out what makes you passionate in your life, is it drama, arts, politics, career, science, helping others, school, religion, philosophy, family, children, lovers, friends, anything.

posted September 22, 2013 04:57 PM            

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What are the worst aspects in my natal chart? Do I have heavy karma?

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And just to answer your question, I would say the most difficult aspect is mars square saturn, but NO you don't have bad karma, some people just got more difficult charts than others, but the lesson to learn with heavy saturn aspects is to keep on working... the difficult thing about mars square saturn is just that you can become stubborn about your views on life, and become stern and thinking that life is no good to you (like you say) and it doesn't matter what you do anyways. This is precisely what this aspect says if you read about it... the challenge is then to keep your head up and don't look down in anger all the time. Isn't there anything good in life? Is there no joy? I believe you know, cause you have lots of good placements too, you are probably just in a difficult time, but hopefully you will learn to be a bit optimistic, and learn from your outgoing aries ascendant, or moon in 9th house!

posted September 24, 2013 08:04 AM            

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Originally posted by Astro keen:
You have Neptune conjunct MC, which makes you like a psychic sponge, and very sensitive to the world around you. To feel uneasy and depressed is not a sign of a problem with you, it is a sign of the sickness of the society you live in.

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Originally posted by next to neptune:
On one hand you are very ambitious (sun in 6th house, saturn in 10th house) but doesn't really know where to start.

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So true.

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Originally posted by next to neptune:
don't forget to learn how to relax and not thinking you are the savior of the world or should be doing something great, being someone important.

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I do have a feeling that I should be doing something monumentally

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Originally posted by next to neptune:
some people just got more difficult charts than others

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posted September 24, 2013 09:02 PM            

Sun square or opposition Neptune
Those people born under a challenging aspect between the Sun and Neptune often struggle with a desire to be something special or to experience something more than the ordinary. They are day-dreamers and idealists. It is easy for these people to trust others, even (and perhaps especially) people who might seem from the outside looking in as unsavory types. They are looking to identify with something beyond what is normally expected of people.

Most have in common a childhood that didn't help the natives direct or define their lives. Perhaps the early family life was lacking in supervision or clearly defined rules. A father figure may have been absent or distant and ineffective. Many people with these aspects have a glorified image of their fathers. Whether the image is very positive or very negative (or if it swings between these extremes), the image is not very clear or rational. Whatever the case may be, these people struggle with defining who they are. They might gravitate towards the "wrong people", or get in with the "wrong crowd" in an attempt to define who they are. They might be susceptible to being taken advantage of by others, especially by men or authority figures. They can be easily led astray by peculiar desires or self-destructive habits. In order to add a greater-than-ordinary dimension of experience to their lives that helps them to feel special and important, they might be attracted to Neptune-ruled behaviors, such as secret affairs, drugs, or other escapist behaviors. In some way, these people feel a strong urge to glamorize their role in the world. In extreme cases, the natives are completely deluded. However, in most cases, there is simply some confusion about the past (such as remembering childhood experiences in ways that are far removed from reality), and a tendency to daydream about being someone more "important" than they assume they are. They may struggle with early conditioning that made them feel tossed aside or neglected in some way, and certainly not directed and supported.

posted September 25, 2013 03:35 PM            

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Originally posted by Sandra018:
You also have a Neptune sq Sun
I copied the below text from café astrology, and their descriptions are pretty accurate..see how it resonates with you.

Sun square or opposition Neptune
Those people born under a challenging aspect between the Sun and Neptune often struggle with a desire to be something special or to experience something more than the ordinary. They are day-dreamers and idealists. It is easy for these people to trust others, even (and perhaps especially) people who might seem from the outside looking in as unsavory types. They are looking to identify with something beyond what is normally expected of people.

Most have in common a childhood that didn't help the natives direct or define their lives. Perhaps the early family life was lacking in supervision or clearly defined rules. A father figure may have been absent or distant and ineffective. Many people with these aspects have a glorified image of their fathers. Whether the image is very positive or very negative (or if it swings between these extremes), the image is not very clear or rational. Whatever the case may be, these people struggle with defining who they are. They might gravitate towards the "wrong people", or get in with the "wrong crowd" in an attempt to define who they are. They might be susceptible to being taken advantage of by others, especially by men or authority figures. They can be easily led astray by peculiar desires or self-destructive habits. In order to add a greater-than-ordinary dimension of experience to their lives that helps them to feel special and important, they might be attracted to Neptune-ruled behaviors, such as secret affairs, drugs, or other escapist behaviors. In some way, these people feel a strong urge to glamorize their role in the world. In extreme cases, the natives are completely deluded. However, in most cases, there is simply some confusion about the past (such as remembering childhood experiences in ways that are far removed from reality), and a tendency to daydream about being someone more "important" than they assume they are. They may struggle with early conditioning that made them feel tossed aside or neglected in some way, and certainly not directed and supported.

These people are very sensitive, especially with regards to any real or imagined blows to their ego. If the natal chart shows a strong sense of reality and a robust mind (Mercury and Saturn well-placed, for example), the negative interpretations of this aspect are less extreme. Still, the natives are likely to recognize at some point in their lives that they have a tendency to engage in escapist and self-destructive fantasies and/or habits. It is useful to be able to connect these behaviors with their probable source, which is likely to be a weakly-defined ego and identity in childhood.

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