posted November 17, 2013 04:10 PM            

Thank you for the opportunity to share our queries and doubts. English is not my first language, so I apologise in advance for anything ^^'

I actually already did a reading for my situation, but I didn't understand quite well, so I think the opinion of an outsider would help.

The situation is: 2 or 3 months ago I saw a new guy at my workplace and I got interested at the first sight. We work at the same department, but doing completely different things, which made it hard for me to see him often or start a conversation. I told a girl friend who works close with both, me and him, but she haven't said a word about it until last month, so it was a little surprising when she came and said he asked my number. When she did that, I wasn't even thinking about that anymore.

The day after he started texting me. We would text each other all day long in the first weeks, and he would call at night and stay at the phone with me until the sunrise. It was so awesome, so perfect, so intense, I started feeling insecure, but somewhat I managed to overcome this at first. Then we would met in secret and quickly at work (yeah, dumb thing to do), but again, awesome and perfect to be with him. And the way he would look at me, God, he's the first in YEARS to look at me like that. Soon enough he said me he was truly happy he found me, that he like me a LOT, that he wanted to live so many things with me, that he wanted to be all mine, and having me to be all his.

With time, all the texting and callings started to decrease, but I guess it's just normal, once he treated me the same everytime we talked and met.

But then we would never meet outside our workplace, because our shifts are different and our freetime doesn't match. At the weekends he works at a second job, and it's always nightime, so it's always difficult to find the right time we both can see each other. Never happened so far. This started frustrating me. A LOT. And I was already insecure at the beggining, because he's handsome and everything seemed to be so perfect, it only got worse and worse. AND, to get even worse, there's a lady at his Facebook he hits on and I found it. He hits on her long before he ever known me, as far as I could gather, so it's probably not serious, otherwise he wouldn't be open to meet me and be so intense with me (or he's just a lothario and that's it).

The present situation is this: I'm really insecure, because I was full of hopes and wishes that everything would work, and I really like him, it's been a really long time someone could make me feel this way, but I don't know if I can trust him, or this all. This is making me act really badly with him, pressing him, trying to reach him all day long, everyday, and I KNOW it's really really wrong, to act like this. He never complained, tho, never commented it, or asked to stop. He says he really wants to be with me, it's just hard because of work. Still says he likes me a lot, still call me sweet names, but I feel he's getting away.

I did this reading last friday.

1 - I took a card for him. Mentalized him with all my heart and asked who was he in this situation.

The Hanged Man.

2 - I took a card for myself. Mentalized me in this situation, and how could he be perceiving me.

The Moon.

3 - I took a card for us, and for our future. Asked if we will be together, happily, if this will happen.

The World.

4 - As I found a little odd the last answer, as I see The World as a really great thing to happen and I couldn't see how this present would lead to this kind of future, I made this one more question: can I trust him?

Four of Wands.

I know I have to make a huge effort to overcome my insecurity, relax, let it all be, don't be jealous, don't pressure things to happen and let it follow it's own time. But it's being so hard. And I'm not usually this way, almost all my past relationships I was so free, so calm letting the other be free as well. With him it's different. And it s****, because it's him I want, why I have to be such an a**? Anyway, I understand quite well The Hanged Man and The Moon, but The World and the Four of Wands is puzzling me. If I calm down and trust, will we be together and happy? That's it?