posted December 29, 2013 05:41 PM            

I decided that I would you a five question spread to see what you were asking about.

the five question spread answers five questions with five internal patterns within a 15 spread layout.

If these are not how you would ask them, sometimes you can see the connection because they are the real question behind the question. Often when I do it, I read the question and think, wow yes that probably was what I was really asking - but you'll have to decide whether the question I write is something you may have been wondering.

question 1: (something like) "I know its silly buy do I look gay enough?" (Well there is lot in this question, its complex, so that is all I could narrow it down to)

the reality/advice: underneath it all, you do have a major attraction to women

the answer/potential outcome: An older woman that you know now, is stirring your emotions/passions but I don't think she knows - and you don't like to acknowledge it to yourself or anyone.

(So that doesn't really answer the question i wrote, but there was a sensation that it was a complex question - whereby different psychological motivations were trying to coexist in the one question)

question 2: "I'm sick, sick of love, [and one night stand sex etc] - what can I do to realize my love potential [have a deeper love experience]"

reality/advice: you have too many options/opportunities for that kind of lifestyle (ie. it makes it difficult to divert from the habit)

answer/potential outcome: You do have to love yourself more (sounds cliche, I know). It does feel like a type of journey that has spiritual aspects is possible - it could be work related or place you in a position to take up other work - it does feel like a different location - more populated/busy, more corporate interests are in the area. So there is something for you there though there is an element of self reflection, self reward/nurture, self management and maturing that is kind of bundled in.

question 3: Am i eating right etc to keep myself on track with an attractive body type?

reality/advice: Yes, pretty much you are ok. You are a little skinny in terms of lack of muscle and you are a bit flabby despite the slenderness though. Thats ok - you can modify your body with exercise if you wish ie. more muscle to a degree and less flab - so perhaps you just need to tone up.

answer/potential outcome: You will also modify your diet over time I think. It seems you will try a type of tea and buy wholesome rolls instead of the coffee/cola break with the oily pastry/pizza thing or whatever it is.

question 4: "Stupid I know, but how do I bring forth my inner feminine beauty (or similar) - I know I'm a guy but I want more bewitching magnetism"

reality/advice: (there is an admonition here, ie. a rebuke and it goes something like the following) Grow up! Better to fulfill your genetic type - appropriate with age, behaviour and take advantage of your assets, mask or modify your possible flaws (less advantageous aspects). Become knowledgeable in one especially, but 2-3 subjects. Part your hair perfectly, keep your hair and nails well cared for, and dress within a brand or two (for which you already have some pieces).

answer/potential outcome: Your feminine side will come forth in your individuality and creativity, and in some of your interests/things you like. Also in the expression and tonal quality in your voice - be aware of your natural melodious and lilting tone in your voice - make it your signature - its a pleasing warm voice that has interesting tones (I picture like honey gently pouring from an oak or similar cask).

question 5: (This is a confused question, like as if several things are being asked at once and they could have differing bases to them, but its something like the following)"If/when I move - will the social environment be good/better - will their be improvements in general - like will everything just be really interesting etc" (Within that, you do not expect to ever be actually happy, being ok is all you expect, also there is a feeling that there is some situation you can never get away from - like is your mother chronically ill?)

reality/advice: There is good potential in this moving idea but you need to attend to a more definite idea of your means of travel and this may be a car or how you are going to get there.