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Topic: All of a sudden got very low.
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jenny415 Knowflake Posts: 291 From: Registered: Aug 2013
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posted December 28, 2013 03:14 AM
I am training at my new job and it is the most difficult job I have ever had in terms of all of the things I need to know- different language, meat items(i don't eat it and since I was 9- so can't tell diff between shredded pork vs beef...) seating charts, seat numbers, pos system, taking orders on phone, waitlist, etc. part of me wants to quit now but I feel like this is something I started doing after I got fired from the job I loved at the restaurant.I also have this painful fear of my current bosses finding out about me working at last rest and getting fired. I would hate for them to find me dishonest or mistrustful. I have quit two jobs after that during training. This is not typical of me- I stay generally too long somewhere. I think I just don't want to fail or get fired again. But I really want to stick it out as this place is really amazing. I just got this wave of sadness coming home thinking about my death- if I would even be remembered if anything happened. I wonder if I impacted anyone. I want to share love with someone and have friends I can invite over for dinner parties. I am very low. IP: Logged |
Lioness Knowflake Posts: 6534 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted December 28, 2013 04:29 AM
First,.. I'm sorry your having a hard time... Keep in mind with any new position, there is always an adjustment period, along with the training and getting everything right... If u leave, you just will go through it somewhere else... Just go in do your best, and you will get the hang of it naturally... The more you worry, the more you will slip so to speak.. Have confidence, and know the company "needs" people... If one day you decide it's not for you, then look for something else... But inti, then, keep your head high, and focus on yourself.. All the other things will also just fall into place... Have faith. . IP: Logged |
jenny415 Knowflake Posts: 291 From: Registered: Aug 2013
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posted December 28, 2013 03:40 PM
Thank you for your support Lioness. I will really try hard to stick with it and not let my fear of failure get in the way of success. I hope you are recovering well, I was thinking about you yesterday actually ! IP: Logged |
Lioness Knowflake Posts: 6534 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted December 28, 2013 11:01 PM
Yes.. Thank u.. I'm a lilltle sore, but it gets better everyday... I'm almost 100% back to normal... IP: Logged |
RunAroundScreaming Moderator Posts: 7599 From: Registered: Oct 2010
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posted December 29, 2013 01:22 PM
I used to feel this way sometimes. But for me it's more that my existing friends will randomly desert me or stop contacting me. Then I found God, and now every time I feel like this, which is rare now, he fills me up with such peace and understanding and logic. It's something that's gotta be magic or supernatural. But I know I am never alone.Don't be sad. You can always make friends. Join a club. Find a hobby. Best friends are made in an instant. In the blink of an eye. All you have to do is be in the right place at the right time, usually someplace where you have the same interests/values. IP: Logged |
jenny415 Knowflake Posts: 291 From: Registered: Aug 2013
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posted December 30, 2013 01:40 AM
Thanks runaround, I enjoy my midnight/1 am tea time on my steps. It is quiet, I am alone but looking at moon and star remind me no matter how dark, there is always light to be found.IP: Logged |