posted January 02, 2014 06:08 PM            

I pulled an oracle card for you as some support. It's a card about boundaries & it's asking you to care enough about yourself to also acknowledge your own limits. There's no need to give yourself completely away, even if you very much want to help & serve (literal in your profession, right?). If you start recognising & honouring your own boundaries, others will also respect them & start working with them. Doing that will do you & others good.

Hope this helped & think it's great you explained to the lady what happened. Think this card is also supporting you into being more assertive (what you did when you told her).
Don't worry too much, think this may actually help you into jobs that flow more easy for you, instead of having the feeling you can't keep up and/or may do something 'wrong'

posted January 02, 2014 07:08 PM            

I'm different from others, that there were times I couldn't be as good as the average people of the group. I also was not good at naturally blending with the groups, and it did affect my confidence at time, even thought I have always been emotionally unaffected (I have always been quite independent).

Good thing is, I also do have some things I'm good at, and I didn't need to try hard to discover them.

Even now at my career, I have things I'm good at but also weaknesses that can cost me jobs if I'm not careful. For example, I'm not good at communicating as the average people, that it costed me some good job opportunities (I can screw up my speech and get nervous). Also, I do lack something in my field that can be considered as major, but I have tried to hide it well, while trying to improve it. I hide it, while I try to shine what I'm good at, so that people would take notice on that instead.

Thing is, everyone has their own talents and where they might not be good at. It sucks when we have put effort yet we are not enough for something, but it just means that we might just need to try to understand where we are actually good at, and improve that instead.
Also, maybe you are just a slow learner but after learning, you are actually highly efficient. Maybe you are the type that all you need is more time to learn, and then you are actually very good at it after "graduating". You know, I'm a programmer and if you ask me, I suck at technical knowledge, but once I get used to a set of programming methods used in a certain project development, I can actually shine well too. I'm just not as technically knowledgeable as the average programmers, which can be a huge no no, specially if discovered in the interview, along with my communication skill (I have Saturn in the 3rd house btw). But my strength is my creative thinking, that can only shine when I'm warmed up in something.

So don't let this affect you! You just need to explore where you are good at, figure out what strengths you might have, and use this knowledge strategically to turn the situations in favor of you!

posted January 03, 2014 08:14 AM            

I hope and I wish you find something soon and be happy with it! Btw, I pulled the Ten of Pentacles for you, so you'll be OK

posted January 03, 2014 07:56 PM            

I feel if this had been another job that didnt test for social skills then u wouldnt be so upset

But american society is so focused on extroverted personality traits to be desirable and someone who is shy or introverted is unworthy then i feel this has hurt you a lot bc it says something deeper inside of you of ur worth as a person. At least you feel that it does bc this is what society communicates to us

posted January 03, 2014 10:23 PM            

You can just live with me and be my love and the world can go take a hike.

So There.

posted January 04, 2014 12:12 PM            

So sorry to hear of your job loss. The universe has not been treating you well lately!