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posted January 21, 2014 09:00 AM            

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Above is my chart.
I have sun in Capri,neptune conjunct venus in 12th house,both in Aqua. I have read some article in the internet that this would make me a dreamer,vivid imagination. However,this is not true,i rarely fantasize things,i prefer make it come true. I have Mars,uranus,jupiter,moon in 1st house Aqua. I am not emotional,i love talking to people but shy in the crowd because of low self-esteem. Any intepretation?

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posted January 21, 2014 10:14 AM            

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Hi harleyniall1998, I think that Neptune/Venus conjunction in the 12th house, in Capricorn, is more related to passive and idealistic, sensitive yet not easily expressed affection; also, usually planets in the 12th house can be related to self esteem issues.
But the most obvious aspect for lack of self confidence is Saturn square Sun with Sun in the 12th house.
With Uranus/Mars/Jupiter/Moon in the 1st house, in Aqua, you are assertive, original/unconventional, generous, optimistic and show how you feel on the outside. Uranus is also your AC ruler, and that and the stellium in the 1st house shows a strong emphasis on self. It is important to you to understand yourself and figure our your own individuality, to be able to freely say "I am!" without restriction. Aqua is a more aloof and rational (as in opposite to emotional) sign, but you can still be strong in terms of character.
But yes, that Sun square Saturn in the 12th house indicates that underneath all this optimism, you might feel insecure about yourself.
Furthermore, Mercury is sextile Moon/Jupiter from 11th house, showing that you like to interact and communicate with friends and join communities. It allows you to expand intellectually, and mentally engage you and makes you feel great.
Also, Pluto is trine to Mars/Uranus/Venus/AC. Hmm, magnetic. XD Adds some depth to your way of being, without it being too heavy.

More onto your Sun/Saturn square... Saturn is in the 2nd house, house of material plane, and values of self. 2nd house is an earth house, it's related to money thought money is not the only value of material plane. Your own values in regards to life, do you feel that they affect your own self worth and confidence?
Also, Sun is the ruler of 7th house, house of others. Are your values in conflict with others?

Lastly, you have North Node in Virgo, in the 7th house. South Node is where we come from, while North Node is where we should head to, the life lessons we have to learn. In the 7th house it shows that you have to learn to acknowledge other people, their own individuality, and what it means to interact with them. By learning of others, you learn more about yourself. By acknowledging and seeing others, you see yourself. 7th house asks for awareness of others, to be fair and see them as equals. In this world, we are almost always bound to others no matter how individualistic we are, and it's important to acknowledge that.
Also, Virgo is a practical sign that applies what one is talented at to be at service for others and in our daily, routine lives. This is not to be a slave of course lol, but Virgo's highest level is about altruism, meaning servicing coz it is what you truly feel, by free will.
It feels that your North Node is about being more aware of others and learning how to foster relationships through your daily routine lives. Picture a married couple for example. Love is not just about romantic dinners or passionate scenarios, but also sharing routine life responsibilities and other boring, but important things. With family and friends too, there are routine things that are important for the relationships to grow.

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posted January 22, 2014 07:19 AM            

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This is very accurate,thanks. I always show others that i am very optimistic,happy and confident but inside,i am very insecure,not as confident as shown outside. I am always afraid that i will be hurt,my feelings won't be returned eventually. That's why,although i am an extrovert,i rarely make new friends. Only after having checked them thoroughly can i trust and befriend them. I would also hate going anywhere alone since i am self-conscious about the way people look at me or judge me,hence,i often ask my friends or family members to go with me.

About Saturn in 2th house in Aries,it's true that i hate materialism. Maybe it sounds crazy but i would hate spending money or even having money. It's just something necessary,not absolute. I can easily live without it. I usually lose money too since i spend it freely without pre-planing, i don't even consider about if i have it or not. My personal values are too different,i guess this would decrease my confidence.

My values do conflict with others. As i mentioned above,mine are different (Uranus Dom and Uranus in 1st house).Therefore,i am at odds in the crowd,having difficulty with team work since i want to do want i want.

The North Node part is right too. I think i am often selfish. I always see my needs the most important and ignore others'. Maybe i should learn to sacrifice more.

I also read somewhere that i can fulfill North Node Task through marriage??? (north node in 7th house).

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posted January 22, 2014 07:50 AM            

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I guess that one of the ways to help your Sun/Saturn square conflict that affects your insecurities, is to come to peace with your values and reality/money. Thing is, people often give too much value to money and end up forgetting the value of other things in life, but then we can't also simply devalue money, as it is part of life. Not that the paper is part of life, but more like acknowledging that in life, we have limitation and need to work for resources in order to live, that this is part of natural order. Even if we don't live with money and the system of the modern world, we would still need to hunt, fish, gather crops or other natural resources, that it is just part of the natural order.
So the key to solve this is to find the balance and understand and accept what's part of life and natural order. One does not need to live eccentrically, and it's good to be aware that overvaluing money and material goods is bad, and one can live humbly, yet still acknowledge the natural importance of resources.

Also, when you reach this balance and find peace between your own values and the material plane, and be honest and true to your own values, you will become more confident and fulfilled.

Squares can be a lifelong lesson, but we can try to understand what each position stands for and why they are conflicted with each other, and then find the bridge and balance between them, by time.

As for marriage fulfilling the North Node task, it might help since by marriage we face the daily issues and reality of what it means to have a relationship with someone that is not avoidable, and we have to learn how to share responsibilities on a daily routine level, thought it is not necessarily required as you can learn from other relationships, nor by simply marrying the task is done as the task is only done if we learn the lessons (which can also be lifelong).

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