posted January 31, 2014 01:40 AM            

The cop and I have long history. Majorly primal connection. Some love there. Does he feel like I'm more so bad for his life, than good?

posted January 31, 2014 02:27 PM            

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Originally posted by LostTaurus:
Hello PG8. I pulled a spread very heavy in Diamonds - all of your clarifier cards, in fact - which are representative of change. I think he's reticent; he hasn't made a decision one way or another, but is in the process of analyzing it all. I believe his intentions are good, but that he's going to take his time to decide and then BOOM; once his decision is made, he won't go back from it. Because he doesn't yet know, I couldn't possibly tell you what that decision might be.

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Wow, that is nail biting information but I truly "sensed" he is in a state of evaluation about he and I. Your input has really helped simmer my thoughts a great deal. I so appreciate you taking your time to provide me this feedback!

posted February 01, 2014 09:39 PM            

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Absolutely, I'd love to help where and if I can!

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I know I'm being a bit much on this LostTaurus, but I'm feeling this urge to let it ALL out. Tell him everything I'm thinking and feeling. I've never done so, not in the way I feel I need to now. Do you feel that doing so, may go in vain? This urge is really overwhelming…

posted February 01, 2014 11:43 PM            

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Small bits, my friend; feed it to him in SMALL BITS. Show him rather than tell him right now.

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posted February 03, 2014 09:38 AM            

Le sigh Is it possible to ask you about his current matters of the heart and mind? If not, I understand completely; I've been pushing it on this subject…

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posted February 03, 2014 12:52 PM            

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I'll do my best to explore this with you a little further this evening if you like. Am between classes right now.

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posted February 05, 2014 01:35 AM            

He has for the most part for days. Though he resurfaced yesterday asking to "see me" if you get my drift. Had to decline. That's all the dialogue we shared. Very to the point and nothing special smh

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Still just not getting anything PG. Has he withdrawn from you in some way?

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posted February 05, 2014 03:13 AM            

We go without contact for weeks to years and then we resurface with white hot gusto. The only reason I like to probe him is because I'm NOT used to any man having this kind of power over me, so I've always wanted to interpret why via astrology. But also, he has this tendency to express his feelings verbally, when it's not needed. If this is going to be an intimate involvement only, I'm ok with that. But the comments on wanting to spend time and questioning if I'd marry him should he ask etc. Misleading comments that he doesn't even have to state. It CAN just be what it is. This is why I question, does he really love me and does he want me to be in his life going forward? That's all…

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Yes, I would definitely caution you against falling into that trap. As I said, we Taureans can compartmentalize great sex like PROS! It's not conscious or malicious at all; it just is what it is. If a specific question comes up and you feel the need to ask, please don't hesitate

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posted February 05, 2014 08:46 AM            

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He's a Cappy LT I guess you're sensing that he's just about getting what he wants, no true feelings there for me? Interestingly enough I've finally "cooled" myself, a great bit. This always happens with him. I finally get nonchalant and begin to almost despise him for being so fickle.

We go without contact for weeks to years and then we resurface with white hot gusto. The only reason I like to probe him is because I'm NOT used to any man having this kind of power over me, so I've always wanted to interpret why via astrology. But also, he has this tendency to express his feelings verbally, when it's not needed. If this is going to be an intimate involvement only, I'm ok with that. But the comments on wanting to spend time and questioning if I'd marry him should he ask etc. Misleading comments that he doesn't even have to state. It CAN just be what it is. This is why I question, does he really love me and does he want me to be in his life going forward? That's all…

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Honestly? As scary a prospect as it sounds, I would talk to him - calmly and rationally - and tell him that, pretty much verbatim: "If this is going to be an intimate involvement only, I'm ok with that. But the comments on wanting to spend time and questioning if I'd marry you should you ask etc.; misleading comments that you don't even have to state. It CAN just be what it is."

I say that because I don't know if he's being manipulative intentionally or not, but it still amounts to manipulation; that's rough on the soul.

posted February 05, 2014 09:00 AM            

There's a chance I won't hear from him for days again BUT next week I'm absolutely going to see him and do this. Firm in this decision. Should be interesting and maddening lol Can't wait to fill you in! Thank you darling!

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Honestly? As scary a prospect as it sounds, I would talk to him - calmly and rationally - and tell him that, pretty much verbatim: "If this is going to be an intimate involvement only, I'm ok with that. But the comments on wanting to spend time and questioning if I'd marry you should you ask etc.; misleading comments that you don't even have to state. It CAN just be what it is."

I say that because I don't know if he's being manipulative intentionally or not, but it still amounts to manipulation; that's rough on the soul.

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posted February 05, 2014 10:14 AM            

Well, such things align us for better to come. I hope that you can gradually fall in line deep down, as you deal with this. Somewhat funny, sometimes we're having our hearts broken and other times we're the reason someone else gets their heart broken. Yet there's growth through everything! Keep me posted as you please dear!

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I'm looking forward to hearing all about it!

As an aside, I had to say goodbye to a very dear friend this morning. He's been a companion and confidant for a couple of years now; though he lives a couple of hours away, we get together occasionally just to keep contact. We've seen each other through some hard times. But with this new man, my friendship with him has to change. I'm a little sad because he's a really wonderful guy, but I'm in love with the man we've been talking about. I so hope that we can be friends after a point. Not sure why I'm telling you this, I think perhaps I just needed to tell someone. Please forgive my over-sharing.

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posted February 05, 2014 10:38 AM            

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Well, such things align us for better to come. I hope that you can gradually fall in line deep down, as you deal with this. Somewhat funny, sometimes we're having our hearts broken and other times we're the reason someone else gets their heart broken. Yet there's growth through everything! Keep me posted as you please dear!

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I believe this as well. This was an extreme 'leap of faith' on my part, as this new man and I aren't yet "official", but I can sense that it's headed in that direction and so had to follow my heart in making it. Emotional housekeeping sure is rough though... I hate to hurt anyone.