posted February 14, 2014 04:50 PM            

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Originally posted by saylee23:

Hello! Ok I am 19 and I have been bullied all my school life, & have had an emotionally challenging home life wich led ro self hate, self mutilation & suicide attempts. Now i am in the process of trying to heal myself from the inside out. Is there something in my chart that displays or shows that this was going to be my life? & seems like my grande trine didn't do me much luck.
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posted February 14, 2014 07:50 PM            

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Originally posted by HULKA:
I have pluto in scopio th house too it's too difficult and transit of saturn conjunct natal pluto fo us...

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Ughhhhhh it's so difficult to handle, how do you go about it?

posted February 15, 2014 11:12 AM            

Please don't be discouraged. I know it's hard to process when you're young and what I will say may not help or won't be understood fully in the way it was meant to, but I will share it in the hopes that it will give you something to hope for in the future.

You're most likely an old soul and for old soul's, their early years are one of the most difficult - but old souls chose it to be that way. It's through these experiences that are compressed within the first 24-27 years that make such an impact and propel us to grow faster than others who may have the same difficult experiences over a period of 70 years.

The grand trine won't come into affect until you learn to get out of the way of it. Trines are things that we rarely feel and we can actually repress these energies if we're afraid to show them or we have other 'issues' to deal with.

Your 4th House Pluto is part of the issue, however you also have Sun sq. Saturn which has it's own issues with self-worth, and Sun op. Pluto which will force you to encounter issues with power and powerlessness - thus the bullying.

But you have a Yod/Boomerang which is an indication that you have a specific purpose to be here. Your Pluto and Uranus quincunx Mercury which are similar aspects to what I have. I suggest meditation to find out who you really are - Pluto will help tear down all your mental 'images' that you believe you are and Uranus will help you become more confident in your expression of your uniqueness and understand that you're not meant to fit into society and other people bully you because they sense and are afraid of your different way of seeing the world.

If you get a chance, try to read Eckhart Tolle's the "Power of Now". In it, he explains the difference between your life situation and who you are - beyond the thinker, beyond thought, beyond duality - you are.

With warmth and compassion.

posted February 15, 2014 12:22 PM            

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Originally posted by saylee23:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by HULKA:
[b] I have pluto in scopio th house too it's too difficult and transit of saturn conjunct natal pluto fo us...

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Ughhhhhh it's so difficult to handle, how do you go about it?

[/B][/QUOTE]

posted February 15, 2014 06:25 PM            

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Originally posted by SDragon:
Hi saylee23,

Please don't be discouraged. I know it's hard to process when you're young and what I will say may not help or won't be understood fully in the way it was meant to, but I will share it in the hopes that it will give you something to hope for in the future.

You're most likely an old soul and for old soul's, their early years are one of the most difficult - but old souls chose it to be that way. It's through these experiences that are compressed within the first 24-27 years that make such an impact and propel us to grow faster than others who may have the same difficult experiences over a period of 70 years.

The grand trine won't come into affect until you learn to get out of the way of it. Trines are things that we rarely feel and we can actually repress these energies if we're afraid to show them or we have other 'issues' to deal with.

Your 4th House Pluto is part of the issue, however you also have Sun sq. Saturn which has it's own issues with self-worth, and Sun op. Pluto which will force you to encounter issues with power and powerlessness - thus the bullying.

But you have a Yod/Boomerang which is an indication that you have a specific purpose to be here. Your Pluto and Uranus quincunx Mercury which are similar aspects to what I have. I suggest meditation to find out who you really are - Pluto will help tear down all your mental 'images' that you believe you are and Uranus will help you become more confident in your expression of your uniqueness and understand that you're not meant to fit into society and other people bully you because they sense and are afraid of your different way of seeing the world.

If you get a chance, try to read Eckhart Tolle's the "Power of Now". In it, he explains the difference between your life situation and who you are - beyond the thinker, beyond thought, beyond duality - you are.

With warmth and compassion.

[edit] I debated about writing this part but will because I believe you are an old soul. There are no enemies, there are no bullies, there are only teachers. Forgive the ones who seem to have hurt you and love them for playing the role you asked them to play in your life.

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