posted March 02, 2014 08:44 PM            

I will give it a go on sensation, so, for the next few weeks with your chart:

T. Merc - something a little upsetting like you have probably heard about the ongoing plight of a child/children, and you may feel a degree of disheartenment.

T. Venus - this is quite good. You feel a bit shy but someone is interested in you and they like a lot about you - your ideas etc -they feel fairly serious and mature - but they have a lot of get up and go and probably have a loud and exuberant voice, they seem tall and medium to dark brown in hair colour- possibly nice blue eyes that are striking.

T. Mars - Its like there is problems with something to do with getting involved with someone. You take advice from others but you are on the opposite side of the globe to this person pretty much (not sure if its the same guy but could be).

T. Jupiter - Decisions, decisions, and you are possibly tending to be hasty. When it comes down to it, you are an emotional girl and you can do things on a whim based on feelings. It feels a combo of decisions about the location and particulars of completing education/work commitments, but also there is a potential to be involved in some kind of experience in a distant place.

T. Saturn - You have money but you're not quite sure how it will pan out. You may wonder if you can kind of, well not outright lie, but sort of be unaware about declaring something or kind of make out that such and such is how it is - to be able to maintain some kind of financial or status benefit. You are even ready to do a deal, maybe offer a scenario to see if you can somehow continue doing such and such and maintain the existing benefit, scholarship, or whatever it is. The thing is, what you are asking is not that major, and I think you will be successful.

T. Chiron - Pet issues, still pangs about memories of these fav pets and there is a current ache/dilemma that you are trying to deal with re: pets. Also, you are so creative, you can really get something going with interior décor - its appealing - people are often amazed.

T. Uranus - its like a broken record, how many times do you have to address something - perhaps it is with parents. They are possibly right though, and if you try and extend your perspective to incorporate theirs it may hold you in good stead down the track. For some reason it is kind of embarrassing for you to go about things as they suggest, but there is a sensation that you are a fairly private person, and you don't like to be highlighted for certain things perhaps. It seems you could take on board their key suggestions.

T. Neptune - Still these worries, a common theme, you don't like to be standing out regarding certain aspects. You want something but it comes hand in hand with something else - and the something else freaks you out and gives you the heebie jeebies. It seems, you really don't have to worry - I think you are right to ignore this - it will sort out and go away - whatever it is. Its not health related anyway I don't think.

T. Pluto - Somehow this is tying in with a long held issue that you feel you have to tread lightly around. Examples would be having to be part of a wedding party and assisting a sister - perhaps, or having to be part of a formal entourage or something. And like your mother or someone kind of imploring you to wear such and such - you will look so pretty etc. She's right it feels, and you will bust out of some kind of confine that you had yourself in regarding coolness/social stuff. Basically, you are cool, you don't have it in you to detract from your coolness, so enjoy, you will shine.

So that probably seems like a lot of wishy washy stuff but I thought I would give it a go as I like the challenge. Generally, though for you and for others reading this who might be concerned - if I say 'she's right', or that you don't have to worry, or that that seems the right decision etc - you have to keep in mind that I am reading off like a sensation and kind of a misty holograph type of thing - so like the proverbial one piece of the puzzle might not be the big picture - that is the danger here - so you must regard my interpretations as subjects for musing only - it all has to come down to someone's own decisions. Its all so airy fairy anyway.

So they are long shots

posted March 03, 2014 07:08 PM            

thanks for enlarging the chart.

So,

T. Mercury: In Aquarius in the 11th opposing over the next week your Sun in Leo in 5th, this is news(probably global) of a child/children, possibly re: their education/living conditions/oppression, and probably in a different country. Gets you talking, its another piece in a large puzzle of things you would like to do to make a difference (Sun trine to what's going on at your MC natally).

T. Venus: So the transit has just been through your 10th and this was where you would have experienced the retrograde motion recently. The transit is now in your 11th and will be entering Aquarius within the week. T. Venus is currently involved with your MC stellium and 10th house still as well, as with your ASC due to the similar degree (as semi-sextiles, and sextiles respectively). T. Venus was in significant contact with Mars Rx by square over the last couple of days and will be in aspect again(by opposition)on the 11th May when T. Venus will be conjunct your natal Mars, and this significantly will be during the last half a degree or so before direct motion for Mars Rx. So what does that mean: firstly just looking at now and the next few weeks, sextiles usually indicate social contact and with the sextile to ASC from the 11th, as well as semi-sextile to Uranus this indicates to me that you are attracting attention to your persona and how others see you, most likely through online social contact (but you already mentioned this). In some respects you are formulating a way of being that is active against wrongs/injustice - using your voice (a quality of Venus) to express views on humanitarian issues and the activities of organisations etc (but as said, you mentioned this to me already). Its hard for me to pinpoint what it actually is about but there is a skeletal backing to the types of issues, and it involves political concepts, demonstration, satire about how people treat each other, and things like the concept of good authority/bad authority as well as the plight of some people - but there is a personal bias here - that is bordering on fanaticism (it is a definite bias and does not give a holistic perspective so it does not incorporate the reality of maybe the 'middle class' as much is glossed over and they are labelled without really understanding the true nature of the issues, or something like that). Maybe it is also about being proactive in astrology and online forums to do with new age stuff such as this one.

So I said something about a guy with this T. Venus influence at the moment. With the square just gone to Mars Rx in Libra - you are probably defiant - you have a feminist, girl power almost chauvinism (but I think it is based on fear - so better to be sarcastic and defensive and tough, then have a male walk all over you, potentially abuse and leave you without money, and strapped to the domestic scene with kids to try and look after - perhaps).

To look in the chart now that I can see it, to find this guy that supposedly is current, I see him immediately in the MC stellium. Recently you have had the quincunx of T. Venus to your n. Sun in the 5th (which is in natal aspect to the MC stellium). This guy is tall, probably athletic, can climb mountains kind of thing and has something of the intrepid explorer about him. He has dark golden brown to darker brown hair, and piering blue eyes. He's handsome but not stereotypically so - there is something difficult about his facial structure and it has a type of hard strain to it and possibly the effects of age (as he could be around 40 and has lived in the sun). He harbours a huge sensitivity to something (its way back, probably from teenage years and it was a time that combined a first love as well as dramas in home life, education etc). It really affected him and he strives to be something that he thought he was deficient in then (he probably has some Sag and prominent Mars kind of stuff too). He likes you but I'm not sure about him, he could be a bit of a letch. There's at least one other younger guy, that is cynical, lazy, cute but mean and is probably an air sign. Both are potentially good for a relationship in terms of growth (more so no. 1), and fun/friendship (no.2). No. 2 presents himself as gay/bi I think - but its not the full story on his sexuality - he tends to use it as a protection a lot. You can't be bothered with the whole possibility of another guy with gay/bi focus - its too debilitating to your sense of worth it seems.

So on 11th May or within a day either side perhaps, T. Venus opposing T. Mars Rx but almost turning direct, and T. Venus conjunct your n. Mars in the 1st: I could over hype this and you could be geared for something that won't happen, so be careful of that. However, I would say, that this combo will manifest as a very internalised experience - you could feel fed up, 'I'm never gonna find love'or 'I don't get the attention that I want', you could want to see a concert too and at least get out there and be seen and be able to talk about it. But you are seen, and there are people about but there is some kind of long process that is going on, and it is to do with how you are presenting yourself (you perhaps have a combo of defensive attack, damstrel in distress, and cynicism). So there is work to be done on self esteem but in a way it is your character to harbour this vulnerability with an edginess to it. Possibly you are still hanging on to a vision of yourself and how you want to present yourself that is not really working for you - but you are resistant to altering it because it is a comfort zone/habit and it serves some purposes. Definitely a concert seems the way to go at this May time coming, because it is quincunx Pluto in 8th (shared resources) and Neptune in 10th in square (or recently being squared by T. venus, but n.neptune in natal square to Mars) this definitely speaks of very cool well known music artists and concert. I think your music tastes, despite the issues with how you portray yourself, are right for you with attracting to you and creating a mind set to attract the others that are right for you. So not all others who like this intense unreal music that you are into - are as counter culture in presentation. I'm not against counter culture but sometimes fanaticism can put you somewhere where you miss out. Fringe dwelling, is difficult. But anyway, its a process, and you have to identify what is really you and what is just too daggy (but I'm not sure if I have that right - its complex and there are roots in your character that can't be explained in a few casual sentences).

posted March 03, 2014 08:06 PM            

To respond to a few things, I use social media as a way to voice my opinions on matters I think are important. Less personal, more global type of things. Things like nutrition, politics, Erin Brockovich type stuff. Very few personal things go up there including pictures.

As for being fed up with love and being cynical, yea, I'm already there. I no longer 'believe' in love the way most people do. I hope to find someone but I'm not holding my breath as most people tend end up being a disappointment.

[q] (you perhaps have a combo of defensive attack, damstrel in distress, and cynicism). So there is work to be done on self esteem but in a way it is your character to harbour this vulnerability with an edginess to it. Possibly you are still hanging on to a vision of yourself and how you want to present yourself that is not really working for you - but you are resistant to altering it because it is a comfort zone/habit and it serves some purposes.[/q]

posted March 05, 2014 01:04 AM            

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Originally posted by Chryseis:
well don't worry about the perceptions etc of what you are putting out there, because sometimes we just have to be who we think we are until who we really are shines through - so the outer is not really going to make up for the process of the inner you shining. True attraction looks after itself.

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I like this

As for the guys, yes you seem to hit on something accurate. The blue eyed one and I had a falling out a while back. I've been thinking about him lately, wondering if we could patch things up and have a friendship or if I should just let it be in the past. He's not 40 but smokes so maybe that's why he seems older? Yes he has some issues that come from his family and a first love. Actually the love issues is kinda what got in between us because he would say things like "b!tches always cheat" and being a girl and hearing this repeatedly I would get offended. Even if I wasn't offended it would be difficult to carry on a conversation like that. He did help me grow a lot though. He ripped apart my fantasies and it's like I have a more realistic view and expectation of a relationship. It's a lot less romantic now. Disillusionment. Also yes, he's a huge flirt, has Sun conjunct Mars, well a whole Leo stellium, so he can be a bit of a womanizer. So sure it hurt a lot to part ways but it also makes me appreciate guy #2 more.

#2 calls himself bi but I don't think he really is. I think he blurs the lines of affection at times and he transfers that into sex. I'm very affectionate with female friends and females in general but because I know that in the end they will not satisfy what I need in a relationship (having kids for one) and that I have a much greater attraction to males, I do not indulge myself in sex with women. I've also had a bit more of a traditional upbringing than he did, my parents believe homosexuality is wrong and I think that in part limits my experimentation in that area. So I think he's somewhat similar to this. He's an Earth sign but is very cynical and calculating but that is what I've learned to love and accept about him. It's not romantic and roses or whisperings of sweet nothings. It's honest and real and I appreciate that so much more than being told some lie, or pampered in a way that I believe more than there actually is. Guy #2 is actually older than #1 but in better health because he's more physically active and a bit more health conscious.

posted March 05, 2014 05:33 AM            

Wow, I seem to often get a key facet to someone switched with someone else like the age factor. From my view, guy 1. looked older, bigger, and darker than guy no. 2 who kind of looked more of a humourous lighter coloured lad.

I must have got things so stuffed up in readings sometimes.

Yes, I agree with you, I prefer the real relater not someone telling me a lot of hoo-hah, lol

posted March 05, 2014 05:52 AM            

You are too sweet to be missed out on by this someone. I am befuddled and blocked on who they are but I've searched for a distinguishing feature. They can play chess and their grandparents/mainly grandfather taught them - they generally don't like the idea of having children themselves - it seems like too much hassle - they will accommodate the idea of children if its important to the girl they love - to them it is all about the coupledom. They would be a reasonable father, surprisingly good in some respects but not inclined to fuss over them - they think children should take care of their own growing up and be helpful when required. Like just grow up yourself dude. They are totally hilarious to me because it would be like the child would be this much younger acquaintance who just happens to be living with the couple - sort of like a much younger brother/sister.

I think that's it, and I guess that chess isn't much of a distinguishing feature but that's what sort of presented itself

posted March 05, 2014 08:48 PM            

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Originally posted by Chryseis:

Wow, I seem to often get a key facet to someone switched with someone else like the age factor. From my view, guy 1. looked older, bigger, and darker than guy no. 2 who kind of looked more of a humourous lighter coloured lad.

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I think you picked up more on their personality type of essence than their actually looks. Guy 1 is about 5'10, peircing blue eyes (as you said), brownish/blondish hair, it gets more blonde in the summer. But there's definitely a darkness to him. Likely the hurt and anger he carries with him from childhood/first love. I don't know all the details but he's more attached to family than I am so I think that's another reason why he's as affected as he is. He would do drugs as well, on and off. I didn't realize until much later that many of the times we would talk he was high or drunk, then one day I watched him do a line and I think it broke something inside of me. Likely the disillusionment I told you about, but it's like he was in this dark hole and I couldn't reach him because he didn't want me to. It makes me sad to see the deep sadness in him.

Guy #2 has darker features all around, skin, eyes, hair. He's not as attractive as #1 but has a certain charm to him. Very intelligent and has a lighter approach to things in general. Its like his scope of view is wider and therefore able to understand things and likely let things go more easily. Also his upbringing wasn't as difficult as mine or guy #1, yet he's oddly very understanding. I've met so many people that aren't, even people who have been through similar situations. I really like guy #2, a lot. I want a relationship with him, but at the same time I realize that I may not be fully ready for one (which may also be an excuse) and also because I'm comfortable with where we're at. It's safe. And also my schedule is all over the place. I'm not sure if I have time for anyone..they would have to be very flexible with me. Also I'm not sure guy #2 has just grown comfortable with where we're at and therefore doesn't want to go further or he just really doesn't want to go further. I think we're good together. Not perfect, but enough differences to promote growth. I like those challenges.

Also I don't really believe in the 'perfect match' anymore. I have two close long time friends. One has that "perfect match" story with her fiance and the other one has the "we've been through hell and back" story. I've realized I need the latter because I'm not all peaches and cream and it's going to be tough no matter who I'm with, so I need someone who will take the time to sit and talk with me instead of the whole 'in love' feelings. Some people are just better suited for each other but a lot of people don't even know what they want/need in a relationship. To me that is the key, knowing what you need will help you find someone that is better suited for you without having to deal with all the bullsh!t. I think guy #2 is just learning to put this together. Guy #1 is still searching for the 'perfect match', love at first sight type of deal. He's still special to me, just because he has that affect, but I doubt it's a romantic prospect I'd revisit because I don't think he has grown enough to suit me.

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They would be a reasonable father, surprisingly good in some respects but not inclined to fuss over them - they think children should take care of their own growing up and be helpful when required. Like just grow up yourself dude.

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HAhahah! I love this, because it's how I intend to raise my children. I do NOT want to be that mother that fusses about everything, I want to teach them how to grow and be adults. No whining brats please.

posted March 06, 2014 12:14 AM            

You weren't far off.

posted March 07, 2014 03:32 PM            

The natal square to mars of venus-Chiron is painful and Jupiter has been probably making you a bit sensitive and miserable fur to expanding things. Mars has got T. Uranus right there which will be tending you to fly off the handle in a rage. And with Chiron and now neptune transiting by trine your Venus- Chiron you would be feeling sensitive, reflective and feeling effects of memories, issues etc in your body because moon is in your 6th in Virgo and the 6th.

So it translates as real aching hurts and pains interspersed with frustrated tears and rages. But Jupiter will also enhance there as well but I can't get succinctly what it would do.

Take heart though there are positives to this. You have astral helpers (well I think they are astral). They are kind of like our feel of what fairies are like but I don't think they really look like how we imagine them but a lot of their feel is similar to what we imagine.

I don't know if it's true but they collect at your feet, around your heart and near your head and a bit on your upper back and around your ears. They swell to protect you and they absorb things. They almost kind of sweep hurriedly in front of your feet as you walk but you can't squash or injure them. They don't like loud music. They don't eat and they sleep pretty much when you sleep - though some struggle to be awake when you are but they have to and they are connected to some rhythms in you like your heart and stuff. They have the cutest feel though are concerned now it seems because I have told you. But they are being told it's ok. And I wouldn't be telling you unless it was presented to me as I don't like hogwash.

So it sounds really wacky and I thought that when I got the sensation to look into the positives I would itemise the manifestations of the transits and then I started to get a sense of and sort of see these fairy elf things. I always believed in fairies but I haven't seen much about them till now. Now you'll really think I'm crazy but apparently I have little green men though I don't know if I still have them. Isn't there a saying like 'hmm, they think they see little green men' and people roll their eyes because they know the person is a fruit loop, ha ha. Maybe I am that. Oh gosh I've brought ip the little green men thing and it's coming up to st Patricks day as I mentioned to imeanj that I have a transit situation happening that day, oh lol. I'm not even catholic. Oh well hope me telling you all that doesn't freak you out or have people trying to medicate you. Might be better just to think I'm delusional.

posted March 07, 2014 10:24 PM            

When T-Uranus originally went over my mars I got hit by a car, and now with T-Mars opposing that I'm worried about physical harm and my explosive temper.

posted March 08, 2014 02:00 AM            

I've 'seen' other things and I've thought a 'fairy' was located outside my last house around a large climbing rose bush. I've seen a mythical type small goat thing that accompanied a guy and I had more ideas about its features etc. I was told several years ago by a kind of genie that I had little green men engineering things around me. They probably weren't men but had male oriented roles. They were like wardens like I was under house arrest and I think they did other stuff. I never noticed anything, or saw them, or any imposition. One time when I was driving I noticed like a scene playing out but it's hard to describe because I can still see the road though I am distracted with these things - anyway, I saw a small knobbly man climbing a ladder to look in a drawer high up in a wall of drawers but maybe they are thought forms. I'm not up with the details of what things are. But the little helpers seem what you might imagine are fairies or small elf things by how they feel and a feeling of their gentle natures, their diligence, concern, sweet sad happiness, and how they sleep too. I think they might fight/ bicker, kind of joke and trick a bit like trip each other kind of humour which is the sort of thing that stars the bicker. And they almost get secretive or want to hoard. I can't work out what they are trying to hide and hoard or have. It doesn't feel like things that I would want. I said they don't eat but there is something that has a sensation of sustenance and almost enjoyment like food but not. I'm getting the info now as I type through ask/thinking.

Even though I'm relaying the info only part of me believes it, it just seems too textbook children's story. At the moment I have no clear insight into why they are around you and I wasn't looking for fairies I started by getting the heads up sensation that there were positives that I had to tell you about and I thought I was going to have to look for them with the chart.

They were meant to be with you and it was fated from birth. I thought they came to you at 18yrs so it doesn't seem much help if you were hit by a car but I don't know the intricacies of these things. I'm not even sure if they are astral - apparently they are partly. I don't think they have been always with you since 18 and I don't know when they came to you again but it seems they will go again at some stage.

I used to wake to clearish spiders around my ceiling, especially after an afternoon rest. And I have seen two amazing things on waking - it was on waking from an afternoon sleep too as I used to get really tired when my kids were still school age. I saw two ball shapes on separate occasions for about only maybe 20 secs but could have been as little as 3 secs. I saw each ball shape like it contained things but there was no outer defining edge and it had moving insects like butterflies dragonflies and centipedes in it and then another time had hummingbirds and small birds but I'm finding it harder two remember them though it was two separate occasions and same sized ball shape of creatures and it looked like they were made out of glass but they could move in the ball confine and they had a little bit of some colour but vey pale. And now I cant remember if I saw seahorses in one or insects and the birds in the other but I think it was as I said.

But I haven't seen any spiders for about 2 yrs although I may have a couple of times and I haven't seen the ball shapes for about maybe 6 yrs. I used to see the spiders a fair bit, maybe 50 times or so.

So the fairies seem like a medicine. Not the word I would have thought but I looked for what effect they had and kind of put forward ideas until one seems right because i'll get a feeling of that's not right or not quite etc and when I get something suitable I get a feeling of like yes I can use that.