posted March 09, 2014 06:43 AM            

I've copied the Short Report Forecast for you, from astro.com

I think it seems to fit your situation (from what you say):

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Pluto square Pluto: Which category?

End of January 2013 until beginning of December 2014: This is a period of general regeneration, which may not be entirely pleasant. Most of us are attached to the past whether or not it is good for us. And this influence will root out precisely those elements of the past that are not good for you, even those aspects that you have forgotten about. Problems that you may have lost track of entirely but which are still working unconsciously in your life may reappear and become active now, usually but not always to your detriment.

This influence is associated with forces for change that are inherent within the hidden depths of things. Therefore you should not blame the unpleasant changes that occur now on circumstances or persons in your environment. Look within yourself to see how the groundwork for the present is laid in the past.

Many things may be destroyed at this time, and the destruction will be ruthless if you defend them with rigidity. The action of this influence upon unyielding entities is particularly harsh. Therefore you should simply allow the things of the past to fade and allow the future to be born on their ruins. If you can do this, the potential for positive change is very great.

This influence may also increase your concern about the creative and regenerative processes within the universe and cause you to become interested in the occult. However, certain aspects of the occult, such as magic, are best avoided during this time, because the energies involved will be difficult to control now. Although your conscious mind may be in control at first, you are likely to find that entirely unconscious forces within you have taken over and are running you completely. This can have disastrous consequences.

You may also get into severe power struggles with people who are trying to prevent the changes in your life or who are trying to expedite changes that you are resisting. Look very carefully to ascertain which category they are in.

Neptune trine Uranus: Enlightening experience

Beginning of April 2013 until end of January 2015: This influence will expose you to ways of looking at the world that are quite different from any you have known before. The alternate states of consciousness designated by this influence are not terrifying or confusing. Instead, you are much more likely to experience a widening interest in the greater depths of the universe and an increased ability to perceive them. Your intuition will be enormously heightened at this time, and if you have any innate psychic talents, they will appear now. You will be increasingly interested in the occult and astrology, and these disciplines will give you understandings that you have never had before. It is quite likely that you will have an enlightenment experience - a perception of your true place in the universe - on some level that is meaningful to you.

Idealism is also part of your life now, but its nature is very abstract. You are much more interested in philosophical truth and absolutes than in practical reforms in the world around you. The exception to this is that you could become directly and practically involved with the plight of the underprivileged. You might work to reform conditions in a hospital or other such institution.

Another consequence of this influence is that you may become involved with a religious or spiritual movement that works for social reform - a movement motivated not by political doctrines.

Uranus opposition Pluto: Sweeping changes

End of April 2013 until end of March 2014: Now is the time to make sweeping changes, not only in your consciousness, but also in the circumstances in which you live. Conditions that have been developing slowly will force major changes upon you now. If you are flexible, you will be able to start a whole new phase of life, even though you may have thought that the time for new starts in your life is past. You will have a new birth of awareness, and you will be able to deal with your life unhampered by old patterns of thought that have limited you.

But if you cannot adapt and be flexible, this will be a period of great turmoil and stress as you try desperately to hold on to circumstances, possessions and relationships that no longer have any real function in your life. What you are trying to save is not something real, it is only an illusion.

The impetus for change may come through persons who present you with many upsetting surprises, all of which show that your life is no longer what is was. The key point to recognize is that this process is not bad for you, it is just upsetting at first until you get into the flow of events. It can be quite exciting and will certainly inject an element of youth into your life again, with the advantage that now you will have the wisdom to handle it properly.

Uranus trine Saturn: Understanding limitations

End of June 2013 until end of February 2015: At this time in your life, discipline, order and responsibility can lead you to understanding and freedom. You will learn to understand and respect your limitations and work with them so that they are no longer so limiting. Everyone has limitations, but they can be used in a positive way and actually become tools for managing your life.

Your approach to life is very methodical and thorough, but you are not satisfied with the status quo. At this time you will seek out ways to constructively create changes, taking a very definite course of action to achieve what you want. Not satisfied with abstract formulations of principles, you want to know exactly how to do something, so that you can immediately get to the task. Therefore this is an excellent time for studying any difficult but practical technique.

This is a good time for learning new ways to advance in your profession. You may appear ambitious, but you are really working carefully to expand your world and avoid undue limitations on your life. Whatever your motivation, you will win favor from your superiors, because they can see that you have balanced hard work and discipline on one hand with innovation and originality on the other. For this reason you may get a promotion of some kind now, which will bring you greater power and authority. But even if you achieve a new position, you are not likely to cease working for change within the system that you are part of. You will continue for some time, perhaps always, to work for reform and new ways of doing things, but always in the practical manner that got you there in the first place.

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The upcoming transits look good for you!
For the Summer:

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Jupiter sextile Jupiter: In good working order

From 17 July 2014 until 26 July 2014: This is a time of balance and equilibrium in your life, when all your affairs seem to run smoothly and without much effort on your part. It is a time when you can relax and take it easy for a while, knowing that your life is in good working order. This is also a time when growth seems to occur without much effort - growth in consciousness, in your profession, in your social life or wherever you feel that personal growth is important.

But this is not really a time when you should just enjoy yourself. You should do that, to be sure, but you should also be examining your life to see what needs to be done. It is important to think this way now because the equilibrium that is characteristic of this period enables you to look about yourself with reasonable calm and detachment. It is much harder to achieve a perspective when you are in the middle of some major and possibly chaotic change.

This is a good time to achieve perspective in all possible senses of the word. It is a good time for education, either formal or informal, for getting in touch with yourself through self-awareness studies, or for seeing the larger world through travel.
Business transactions or negotiations are also favored now, and this is a good time to expand your business, as long as it is within reason. Legal affairs also usually run quite smoothly.

Jupiter conjunction Descendant: Mutual growth

From 8 August 2014 until 17 August 2014: During this period you seek to grow in various ways through your closest contacts with other people. You try to create relationships that will further your life, not in a spirit of selfishness, but in a desire for mutual growth. Often at this time a person will come into your life who offers to help you out in some way, usually through a partnership.

In business, for example, this is an extremely good time to enter into a partnership or a contract with someone. In your personal life, you will work more closely than usual with someone, which will work out very well for you both. If other indications are compatible, you may meet someone who will be important to you romantically, but that is not the usual result of this influence.

This is also an excellent time to seek out someone for counseling, especially a lawyer, but also any other kind of counselor. Related to this, incidentally, is that if you have a case in court at this time, it will work out as you want it to.

A marriage or intimate relationship should work better than usual now. You and your partner will be anxious to help each other grow and to further each other's interests in all possible ways. You do not want to restrict your partner or be restricted by him in any possible way. Because you understand the need for freedom of individual self-expression within your relationship, you will try to find ways to bring that about. If your relationship is not working out very well in general, this influence can have either of two effects. It can either bring a time of healing in the relationship so that it ceases to be such a problem, or it can make your desire for freedom so strong that you break off the relationship altogether. At any rate, the problems themselves will cease. And a relationship that does break up under this influence (this only applies to one that is on the rocks) will do so relatively amicably.

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The Pluto square Pluto transit will last until December of this year, so I'm pretty sure things will get much, much better next year, and of course you should have some good time during this Summer with the Jupiter influence.

posted March 09, 2014 03:02 PM            

I am sorry to hear that you've been going through a rough time lately. *hug*

I do think that you haven't lost your Taurus SN. Those transits are definitely upsetting but they will eventually be over and a new you will emerge.

You'll still be you, but a stronger version of you. Pluto tears down everything but it does give you the tools and the strength to rebuild yourself.

You should read up about Uranus conjunct the North Node (natally) as well, because it's an important aspect of yours. Venus might apply as well.

A short example:

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Planets conjunct the North Node are opposed to the South Node, indicating that they are things we have accessed in the past and toward which we are still evolving. Jeffrey uses an orb of 10°† for conjunctions to the nodes.

For example, Uranus conjunct the North Node tells of a continuing need to liberate oneself completely from all prior ego patterns. This might be aimed at uncovering one’'s true nature after it had been disguised by overlays of past habits and distortions from things not particularly well executed. The result could be the Clear Lake of Taoism or the Diamond Nature of Buddhism, which are not particularly well received in society’'s normal operations but which the soul may value considerably.

Recognize that individuation, which is the process of life, may become more dramatic with a signature like Uranus conjunct the North Node. Individuation in any form, let alone with a Uranus-North Node conjunction, is a tweak of society’'s tail. Society, to be at all stable, needs strong norms and expectations of the individual. The individual, to follow his or her own process of individuation, needs to do what is right for himself or herself. This is unlikely to be totally aligned with society’'s expectations. So the system has built-in conflict, which produces growth. If I live within society’'s expectations, I frustrate my own growth pattern and needs, which will eventually force me to move ahead with my growth. If I do break out from society’'s norms, I will find myself in conflict with its pressures. This, in turn, will force me to be sure that I truly believe in what I am espousing. It’'s basically a ’"no guts, no growth"’ process.

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