posted March 20, 2014 03:55 AM
I ran your chart real quick, can't post it but. Your Rising is Leo 24'44" and Chiron is Leo 25'9", sounded important so I found this:You either have an inclination to help other people discover their true potentials, or will undoubtedly discover this particular quality as life unfolds. Chiron is known as the Wounded Healer and his placement in the chart reveals where we are most likely to discover this potential within ourselves. This will come from your own lessons of self-discovery through emotional, psychological or even physical wounds that you may experience in life. Spiritual healing and teaching may play an important role in your life. There may well have been some deep wounding at a very early age in one way or another, though this may now be locked away from the scrutiny of your conscious mind. This may give you some degree of difficulty in liking yourself or be critical about your own appearance. With maturity, you will overcome this. There may even be some degree of physical impairment that is a continual wound to your sense of personal well being. This does not have to be a physical disability or blemish, it could just as easily manifest as a degree of difficulty in accepting your body and its appearance. This placement endows you with a special quality of being able to heal others in some way, be that by the laying on of hands, or some form of counselling, either way this quality will manifest in later life for the benefit of others.
Beyond that, I always liked using Astro.com's chart maker because they have Interactive horoscopes where you can click on houses/planets/aspects/signs to get more info about your own chart.
And on another note, as an anxiety sufferer who also was self-medicating with alcohol / hidden relationships with not so great guys, it'll get better.. not the guy, he's blah, but everything. You feel like a very creative, intelligent person and you'll get past this all in time.