posted May 07, 2014 12:24 PM            

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Originally posted by CrimsonRed:
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Hi... how are you? Hope you're well. If I remember correctly didn't I promise you a reading a couple of months ago, before I disappeared for a while? If you'd still like one from me, please let me know. I'll be happy to do one or exchange if you'd like. Let me know.

Also, just to add to your subject here... I'm w/you guys... can't wait... especially since my Mars is in Aries (ugh!)

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Hi Crimson! Happy to hear from you. Yes, I'd love to exchange.

I feel like a phase I've been in is coming to an abrupt end, both in romance and work. Things are changing but I'm not sure what direction they are going. I think things at work will improve significantly, but the change is still a bit overwhelming.

As far as guys go, I had a very hot and satisfying hook up with this one guy (N), but now I am finding it hard to realize that the interaction won't continue. Another guy (J) who I really like is leaving the country for several months and has felt very out of reach so to speak, despite having shown interest in me.

Anyways, I feel like it's time for a new beginning but I want something to put my energy towards. What should it be? Is a meaningful relationship just totally out of reach for me now? Should I write J off?

I know this is a lot to absorb but I'd appreciate any kind of guidance. I'm trying to get more in touch with the idea of having spiritual guides and asking for the things I hope for. For some reason, despite my confidence in everything else I have a hard time being confident in the hope that a good relationship will come along.

I've never really experienced a good relationship with a man, which has a lot to do with the fact that I'm a late bloomer. Had my first relationship last year with a very hurtful and damaged guy (S) and now have only been intimate with him and the most recent guy (N). I'm really craving experience and learning through experience as I've spent much of my life learning through observation, not personal experience.

posted May 07, 2014 01:05 PM            

Thanks for asking... am plugging forward with hope and leaning on my sagittarian optimism.

An exchange w/your Tarot cards sounds great! Can my question be for my hubby's business/finances? Or does it have to be about me?... (coz I know that it's Pluto causing what's going on w/my business.)

I'll be back in a little bit w/what I feel for you about your questions.

Until then my fellow sag...

posted May 07, 2014 02:00 PM            

I agree with what you feel... your energy feels to me like you're just about to step into a different phase... an expanded sector of your life. Where I feel the most energy shifting is internally (more mind than heart - the mind expanding to protect and guide the heart better)... inner growth through exterior experiences. A period of exploration (as you mentioned in a later paragraph) is on the horizon. You, being the explorer.

The 'explorer' phase is now approaching you. Your explorative stage is dawning.. rising like the early morning sun. It's where the sunlight is just breaking the darkness, so you don't know what to totally expect, naturally, because the light of the sun hasn't illuminated the terrain yet. I hope this metaphorical explanation makes sense to you.

Regarding N and J...

The energy I get w/N is very physical... fun, physical, maybe even sizzling physically. I feel an intitial intensity that isn't built on a very solid foundation, but one built on attraction and infatuation. It feels like cotton candy to me... light, sweet, very enjoyable but not satisfying and melts away quickly. If there is more to come with N, I feel that it'll be temporary. As if he's a 'traveler' in your life. There for a short purpose and period of time, but ultimately you two go in your own directions.

J's energy for some reason I don't trust. I don't feel he's totally honest. Not that
he's a malicious liar, but I feel he doesn't like confrontations or to disappoint
anyone... he doesn't like to face the consequences of that. Therefore I feel he tries to be smooth and cool about things... sometimes lying to achieve that. I feel he did and probably still does have interest in you... to him, I feel, you seem like 'his type' of gal. But I feel that whatever is taking him out of the country (which I'm feeling is career/work related) is what is first and foremost on his list of priorities. I feel that he just doesn't want to really be tied down. Not that he doesn't like you, or isn't interested in you... I feel it's just the pursuits for himself at this time that take
priority. Whether you write J off or not, I cannot tell you what to do. You may hear
from him again... may... but (like you called it) it would only be a hookup, I don't see anything significant with him for you. I feel that when much, much time has
passed and you look back on J, you will see him as part of your 'learning tapastry'.

I feel that the reason for your past experiences with men is to get you to a point (this point actually, where you are now) where you are going to start, if you haven't already started, looking at things a little differently. Allow me to explain... I feel that when it comes to romantic relationships, you've give much weight to how 'he' feels about you... what is it about you that he likes... does he think you're desireable in this way, or that way... what is his opinion of you as a person/as a romantic partner. etc.. I hope that resonates, coz that's what I feel. Then I feel you are going to look at things from a different viewpoint (like looking at the same house, but now from the side or the back)... where you are going to figure out what YOU want in 'him'. When you meet guys upcoming... and I do feel a few new ones entering your path... your journey will teach you how to see if THEY meet up to what you want... not the other way around. By going out with them you will figure out what you want, what you don't, what you're willing to compromise with, what you're not... each will teach a different aspect of things. I feel that this journey could be
extremely fun, explorative and thoroughly enjoyable, if looked at from that point of
view... not from the point of view of 'finding a relationship'. I feel that these guys that are coming into the picture are all pieces of one lesson... of one whole cake, and are coming in pieces, so that all pieces by you will be digested fully and will become part of your intrinsic self, rather than only an intellectual conception.

I feel that the person you will have a long term relationship with is someone you will
meet through your work. You might not work with him directly, but it's because of
a certain job that you will meet him. Even if it's a fluky situation where you go to a
deli to pick up lunch and you meet him standing in line... but you wouldn't BE at
that deli if you didn't work there, see what I mean? Or if there's a company summer
bbq and one of your co-workers brings a relative or friend and you meet him
there... somehow through your work... a job that you do not have yet.. but will....
hope that makes sense. So you meeting him has something to do w/your work/career.

The reason I feel that you have a hard time being confident that a good relationship
is coming to you is because you are intuitivfe and know on some level that you have things to learn. As it is now, I don't see any long term/deeply connected/deeply in love relationship coming along. I feel it'll take a bit of time for you to meet the guy I feel for you (in the above paragraph)... so your own gut/intuition is saying 'neh, not now'... and you're right. After journeying through what will teach you, you will feel that there's someone there for you... like a scent you can't identify where it's coming from, and will feel 'but where is he?'. Then you will know that you're getting close. But I feel it'll be after you become the interveiwer not the interviewee.

I was so happy to read that you are craving experiences... ... because that is
EXACTLY what's coming up for you... lots of fun experiences to learn through. If I
may suggest, don't put all your eggs in one basket right now... don't tie your heart
to anyone at this time... feel free, light and enjoying the breezy flight... like a bird or butterfly flying around some lovely field with many flowers to go and smell and sit by, exploring and learning.

posted May 07, 2014 03:21 PM            

Thank you for this.

Seriously, I know this took a lot of energy.

I think most of this is very accurate.

As far as N and J, I would say you picked up on their energies well. Although I didn't say I thought J would just be a hook-up, because I don't. I do think his inability to own up to things is a major issue for me, and in that sense I feel done with things. Yes, he's got other things going on (the trip, which is just for fun - world cup in Rio) but I deserve honesty from him.

As far as the interviewer/interviewee concept, I think you might be on to something. Although I will say I've always felt like I knew what I wanted in a guy. I think the reason I've gotten myself into the position of being the "interviewee" so to speak is that in the past I often pined after guys who were unattainable, and thus I always feel like I'm wanting to know whether they are interested in me. I feel like it's one of the qualities I look for, because for a long time I didn't care whether or not they were interested in me and kept going after them anyways. So I'm not sure if that's the dynamic you're talking about, but I think it's related. I don't see myself as being able to get any guy I want, so I feel the need to win them over constantly.

As far as wanting experiences go...the biggest thing on my mind and why I ask about something meaningful is that I do not want to keep having casual encounters. I'm not necessarily asking if I will find a deep love soon, but if I will have at least a deeper level of involvement with a guy, beyond casual hookups. I want to actually feel something and not just date or hookup for the sake of it. NOT saying it needs to be a forever love, but just the consistency and level of involvement that I had with my ex, at least. You know, emotional involvement and not just physical. Talking more frequently, sharing, getting to know each other.