posted May 07, 2014 04:49 PM            

I wrote about my latest break-up/rejection in another thread ( http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum11/HTML/011462.html ), but I am having a hard time getting over this guy. I have been crying every day and night since we have stopped exclusively talking/seeing each other. We used to talk from the time I woke up until the time I went to bed, and now I am lucky if I get a "hey, how are you?" text every few days. I knew there were warning signs and major red flags, but I ignored them. Sometimes I don't trust myself enough...

So, I cry when I see something that reminds me of the trips to see him (we met online, long distance), I cry when someone else texts me, I am crying at work (but quickly covering it up). I don't know what to do...

I know it is not only about him - when we started talking, about 5 months ago, I also started a new position at work that I wasn't sure I wanted to take. Talking (texting) with him made me feel better about going to work but now, I am forced to be present, in a job that I hate. I was also supposed to move to be closer to him and now, that's not looking good because the day we decided to "be friends" I got a rejection letter from the job I'd hoped for in his area.

I am usually sad for a day or two if things go wrong, but this time I can't seem to snap out of it. I can't see how my life will get any better.

Please tell me what you think, using any technique you want...

posted May 07, 2014 05:15 PM            

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Originally posted by LoadedPistil:
Can you remember the day things went downhill? Use that date for a transit on your natal and repost. If not, use an estimate

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Just thinking about this is making me cry ...

posted May 07, 2014 05:31 PM            

Well what i see,
Rx saturn in transit over MC,-this is why you hate your job so much.

Sun our 7th house ruler is making a square to transit rx saturn.

Yout tr sun is conjunct your natal chiron-the pain you feel in the love field.

Sorry i can see more.
I hope you get better, i think after saturn will not make any aspect with your personal planets it will be better

posted May 07, 2014 05:38 PM            

#1) Transit Uranus is conjunct your Natal Uranus. Saturn is Retro, so you may remember some bad news just a year or 2 ago. (I'm bad at remembering speeds) Saturn goes direct in September. Until then, there will be aggravation. Luckily, this will probably be the worst of it in your life. It's also conjunt your MC. Play with the transit and look when you'll get relief as Saturn moves away from your 10th cusp.

2) Transit Mars is also retro to conjunct your Pluto making you obsessive in a bad way. Mars goes direct in 12 days.

Ill look at some cards when I get home.

posted May 07, 2014 06:14 PM            

I'm going through a similar time, but I'm not one to cry. Doesn't mean I don't feel the way you guys do.

posted May 07, 2014 06:25 PM            

For 7th house Sun people, separations can be very trying. You function well when there is someone to relate to, bounce ideas off of and generally be your sounding board.

I think that you are lonely. You may have made a unique connection with him that you doubt that you'll ever make with another.

posted May 07, 2014 07:14 PM            

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Originally posted by fauxcoat:
Thanks, Pistol!

Here is my chart:

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Transits, woman!!! I need natal with transits!!

(By chance, do you have a brother named Richard?)

posted May 07, 2014 07:26 PM            

I see the workings of finding a new job, but not before summer will te efforts bear fruit. 9 of wands is assessing your work and efforts and outcome is 3 of wands with spiritual awareness and virtues. You'll be in a better place emotionally/mentally to give your best effort at the summer solstice.

posted May 07, 2014 08:51 PM            

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Originally posted by fauxcoat:
@ Pistol - I linked the chart with transits.

No brother with that name. Just saw you are from NJ - which part of NJ are you from?

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I don't see the chart.
Northern

posted May 08, 2014 10:13 AM            

Crys -

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Rx saturn in transit over MC,-this is why you hate your job so much.

Sun our 7th house ruler is making a square to transit rx saturn.

Yout tr sun is conjunct your natal chiron-the pain you feel in the love field.

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Thank you. Sometimes things are so obvious, like my 5th, 8th and 7th house rulers (Sun & Mercury) going over my Chiron. Yeah, "wounded healer" my bum! Where is the healing? :-P

I had a feeling about Saturn though causing me stress at work. I got the position and all was well when Saturn was direct and conjunct my MC. I thought things would be better because I got a raise and a better title but I knew things would be terrible because I am not as well-liked at this organization as the person (younger, good-looking, flirtatious, all-play/no-work man) before me. I was actually trying to make changes, but that doesn't fly. So I give up there. I am doing the bare minimum and I dare anyone to say anything about it. Like I said, the guy before me did nothing and had zero qualifications for the job, someone up top just liked him for some reason. I found him obnoxious and I didn't appreciate his lack of work ethic. But, people at my organization bring him up as if he did as much as I do. Um, I created a curriculum, set up a class, got more credentials (credentials that he refused to get) and started a pilot program that is now thriving and successful and allowed us to get a new grant (I work for a small non-profit). I am just not as entertaining as the last guy. It's sad. I want to be appreciated at my next job. What's funny is that my direct supervisor does appreciate me and saw that the last guy did little to nothing, which is why she got him to leave (he got a side job - as a cop, when we work for parole re-entry - that was considered a "conflict of interest" and my boss took it to every level until HE decided to leave - he should have been fired!). My boss gives me a boost every day but she wants to leave too because she feels the same way I do.

I know that was too much about my job, I just had to get it out though.

Thanks for listening.

Fauxcoat -

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Let fate guide you...if he is the one for you, the relationship will be salvaged. If not, you will meet someone who is a better fit for you.

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That's how I am trying to see it. I think that if he was really the one then it would be easy. I don't know why I was guided to him in the first place because I thought it was for a reason. I don't date that often, in fact he is the first guy I dated in over two years. This leads to another reason why this is so sad for me - I am not really in the dating game because I play for keeps. It's rare that I meet someone who touches my heart and moves me enough to want to date them so if things don't work out, it's rough. I have large gaps in my relationship history, I don't run right out and meet people. Plus it seems that all of my jobs keep me away from people who would be in my dating pool. I now work primarily with parolees and people on probation and prior to that I worked at a very small family run business and before that a mental health clinic - I should leave the non-profit realm, which is mostly women, and move to the corporate world. I also have way more education than the people I work with, they are surprised I even work there since I have two masters degrees and the job desription only calls for someone with a high school diploma! I need to move on and up, maybe I'll meet more people who are "in my league". I don't know. I have met a man at work and it wasn't so great: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum23/HTML/000138-2.html

Aries23Degrees -

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For 7th house Sun people, separations can be very trying. You function well when there is someone to relate to, bounce ideas off of and generally be your sounding board.

I think that you are lonely. You may have made a unique connection with him that you doubt that you'll ever make with another.

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Yes, I agree. We went from talking all day long (texting during the day, calling during the evening) for five months to next to nothing. It's really hard. I've never met someone who had time to or liked to talk that much. I think that's why this is even harder, I thought we were compatible in that way. We were long distance too, so we needed that from each other.

I am lonely. I am pretty reclusive and I rarely date so when I let someone in it actually means something to me. I have to get used to the fact that not everyone is like that, even when they say they are.

LoadedPistil -

Thank you for your replies and reading.

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Page of Wands shows me that you'll continue contact with him.

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I really don't want to be the desperate one that continues to initiate contact though. I wait for him, but keeping me hanging on is not good for me and is just as desperate. I don't know if the love is both ways, it doesn't feel that way now anyway. In our composite chart we have a tight "love stellium" but it is square Saturn. There are a couple of things that could explain - our distance, his alcoholism and other health issues and maybe the lopsided love. The three of cups had me excited though for a moment, "the reunion card". He wants to see me at the end of the month, when he will be making a business trip near where I live. I don't know how that will play out.

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I see the workings of finding a new job, but not before summer will te efforts bear fruit. 9 of wands is assessing your work and efforts and outcome is 3 of wands with spiritual awareness and virtues. You'll be in a better place emotionally/mentally to give your best effort at the summer solstice.

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This is spot on! I actually am not thinking of making a real career move until July/August. What I really need right now is a side job to help pay off some debts before I move anywhere. I wouldn't have to do that if I was actually getting paid what I was worth (part of the job resentment). I will eventually though.

Thank you again! (<--Yay, an exclamation point! I haven't done that in a while...)

posted May 08, 2014 12:57 PM            

I don't know if mercury retro will bring him back...it could...but it doesn't mean the communication would go well.

posted May 08, 2014 01:11 PM            

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Originally posted by fauxcoat:

I don't know if mercury retro will bring him back...it could...but it doesn't mean the communication would go well.

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I thought about that, but with me, since my natal Mercury is retrograde, I noticed that I am not as affected by the communication difficulties as other people with a direct Mercury. I have, on the other hand, heard from old jobs, old friends and even exes during those times. But, it's usually not the ex I want to hear from (then again I never wanted to hear from an ex until now) :-( ...

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...it looks like Jupiter will transit your 7th house in the near future. That is a good time for marriage.

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Jupiter transits, eh, I really don't notice that much from them. When Jupiter was going through my 5th house, I put myself out there on a couple of internet dating sites and while a couple of guys talked to me, it didn't lead anywhere. When I say "anywhere" I mean not even a first date or meeting. I don't know. Jupiter going through my sixth has made it easier to get a daily routine going though, I have noticed that. It is because of some effort on my part though. I managed to change myself from a night person to a day person.

posted May 08, 2014 06:50 PM            

Transit Uranus is opposing that entire stellium in your 8th house like a torch. That's gonna make things come and go in your life. The feeling of uncertainty with everything. Right now, it's close opposition to both Pluto and Mars making you moody and obsessive. It's also in almost exact trine to natal Saturn. Trine is not that bad, but it may make you indecisive, but flexible. You roll with the punches. There is going to be a level of disappointment, but not a deep dark hole. I'm not the best at charts, so get some other advice. However, 8th house stellium is not good for a natal to begin with. 8th house things are out of your control. Your aspects are very good, though!! That balances you quite a bit!

Eta: Also, this cardinal cross is not your friend. Everything is in Libra