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sis
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posted May 17, 2014 11:58 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Finally, after forever struggling to solve the intimacy issues, finally I decided to cut ties. I did it quite a harsh way. Guess, it is because I am the Mars in our affair. I did it because I was sick of his evasiveness although it was him never letting go.; mars conjunct neptune I guess. I also did not trust him, always suspected he is playing along. My feelings for him were never clear, neither his; Moon-Neptune square / opposition DW. I was quiet open spoken and brutally honest with him most of the time; his moon square my Mars... Having Saturn in the 7th, the relationship never really took off. Our emotional natures were different; moon square moon.. But of course we had some lovely synastry aspects...

We were high school class mates. He found me almost 20 years later... Affair started. On/off 4 years. Now, I closed the door. It has been a week. But I think about him a lot and as I am saying my final goodbye, I can't believe the bond is really broken... :S

I love him. But it just did not work...

Here is our synastry chart


[IMG]http://i1127.photobucket.com/albums/l629/thechironicdance/bfe8fd59- 297d-4ad0-96f5-6a8f94ff7e2f.gif[/IMG]

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posted May 17, 2014 12:07 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Enneline     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
you obviously have a Grand Cross. That's a lot of attraction but also a lot of tension. I even heard it's a dealbreaker. One astrologer I know said, she never saw a relationship surviving a Grand Cross

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posted May 17, 2014 12:16 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LoadedPistil     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Can you redo the chart without equal house? Just Placidus? Please?

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Leo ♌️ Sun, (2nd House), Venus (3nd House)
Scorpio ♏ Moon,Mars,Saturn (5th House)
Cancer ♋ Rising
Svātī Nakshatra

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sis
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posted May 17, 2014 12:30 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
here is equal

[IMG]http://i1127.photobucket.com/albums/l629/thechironicdance/6311049b- 4355-4c1a-8ded-6b29551b5ec6.gif[/IMG]

and the plasidus

[IMG]http://i1127.photobucket.com/albums/l629/thechironicdance/3fd260fd- f1b0-461f-b2fc-59b9760007f1.gif[/IMG]

thank you,

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sis
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posted May 17, 2014 12:36 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
yeap, most say Grand Cross is a deal breaker. But I also heard, there are no missing legs so energy even though it's stressful flows easily which releases the tension ? It was something like that.. Do you think it makes sense ?

We have all these "blue" escape lines on each corner of the grand cross, I always made myself believe the issues can be worked out.

Now that he is gone I feel more for him :S

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posted May 17, 2014 12:38 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LoadedPistil     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
That's not a grand cross. It's a grand square. Some orb is too wide to make it a significant grand cross. I'm not so sure this is the last last last lastest goodbye. The house placements are really good and I'm big on house placements. Saturn Saturn and Pluto Pluto?!?! Nah. Ring me up in 30 days.

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Leo ♌️ Sun, (2nd House), Venus (3nd House)
Scorpio ♏ Moon,Mars,Saturn (5th House)
Cancer ♋ Rising
Svātī Nakshatra

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posted May 17, 2014 12:48 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
ah loadedpistil, you put a big smile on my face. I think this means I want him to come back... And this has started to scare me :S

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posted May 17, 2014 01:02 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LoadedPistil     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Can I see the composite with transit?

And the composite with transit for the date of the last breakup?

None of that equal house crap.

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Leo ♌️ Sun, (2nd House), Venus (3nd House)
Scorpio ♏ Moon,Mars,Saturn (5th House)
Cancer ♋ Rising
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posted May 17, 2014 01:24 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
here is the composite. Unfortunately, astro com does not give me the option with transit or I could not locate it.

[IMG]http://i1127.photobucket.com/albums/l629/thechironicdance/17112e9b- 3979-4f2e-a28f-f77bb17d4601.gif[/IMG]

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posted May 17, 2014 01:30 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LoadedPistil     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
It's when you generate the chart. Right above it

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posted May 17, 2014 01:31 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LoadedPistil     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
NO EQUAL HOUSES!!!

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sis
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posted May 17, 2014 01:40 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
ah I used whole sign system. Ok.ok. don't get angry here is the plasidus version with transits

[IMG]http://i1127.photobucket.com/albums/l629/thechironicdance/30ee3e6b- 38b3-445f-b753-caa63d255f1d.gif[/IMG]

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posted May 17, 2014 02:01 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LoadedPistil     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Retrograde Saturn came backwards to conjunct Mars, your chart ruler.

Composite Uranus conj Asc. I'm dealing with this right now. This break up to make up nonsense will continue until some seriousness comes to the relationship and even then, the constant separations may be because of things not directly related to the relationship. You'll be back together.... You'll break up again.

You'll be back together maybe by....mid July? But Saturn goes direct again and leaves the sign just before Christmas. It'll be ugly til then, I think.

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Leo ♌️ Sun, (2nd House), Venus (3nd House)
Scorpio ♏ Moon,Mars,Saturn (5th House)
Cancer ♋ Rising
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posted May 17, 2014 02:28 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
wow thank you so much. I hope we can ride the wave...

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posted May 17, 2014 09:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
also thank you for guiding me to composite transit chart. I wonder what will happen when saturn moves to Sag and start making conjunctions to the crowded stellium we have. Do you think those upcoming Saturn conjunctions can give the seriousness lacking in the relationship ? Or Saturn will truly end the relationship, bringing restrictions in every sense. maybe not enough communication and love ?

not much on the net about composite transits..


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posted June 12, 2014 06:25 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
update;

he called. I answered. He was mad at me because I deleted him from facebook. He spoke about "my" feelings for him and told me I had no right to be upset with him because he did not respond to my feelings which he was not aware of...

The whole conversation was missing his feelings.

He was trying to hurt me at least I think that was his initial reason for the call but aghh I don't know... It feel likes we don't understand eachother at all. ( Must be moon square moon )

So, I told him don't call me again. He told "I will..."

I find this super odd... Why don't you let me go ! Friendship ? oh come on ! We have been having sex almost since the day we found eachother. Sex was our main activity when we were together. We did not spend much time outside, we had seperate crowds, separate lives.

So I don't understand why he strongly resists and insists to be in my life.

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posted June 12, 2014 07:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for redshoes     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by sis:
update;

he called. I answered. He was mad at me because I deleted him from facebook. He spoke about "my" feelings for him and told me I had no right to be upset with him because he did not respond to my feelings which he was not aware of...

The whole conversation was missing his feelings.

He was trying to hurt me at least I think that was his initial reason for the call but aghh I don't know... It feel likes we don't understand eachother at all. ( Must be moon square moon )

So, I told him don't call me again. He told "I will..."

I find this super odd... Why don't you let me go ! Friendship ? oh come on ! We have been having sex almost since the day we found eachother. Sex was our main activity when we were together. We did not spend much time outside, we had seperate crowds, separate lives.

So I don't understand why he strongly resists and insists to be in my life.


I feel for you. My exes never let go ~~ and i agree it is utterly ridiculous when you have had an intensely sexual bond with someone and they ask for friendship!! My last ex asked if we could talk once a week so i said to him *why, so you can use me as a shoulder to cry on when you have women problems*. He stopped contacting me for the time being, but i put in very strong boundaries and listed all that i wanted in a man...he couldnt cut it at all

If he becomes a nuisance to you, tell him, you will have to take appropriate action. Men are like children..push, push, but when you are very strong, they eventually tow the line

Good luck to you ~ i am so glad to be single x

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posted June 12, 2014 07:57 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for redshoes     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
ps are you the Scorpio?

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sis
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posted June 13, 2014 09:06 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
since yesterday, new entries do not show up ?

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posted June 14, 2014 03:37 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
can someone fix this ? I've been waiting for the new entrees to show up but it has been several days, still nothing..

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posted June 15, 2014 06:02 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sis     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
ah finaly sorry for the delayed answer..

He is the scorpio but I am quiet plutonic as well ( sun, mercury, venus square pluto & mars sextile pluto, moon trine pluto )

To be honest, I can't let go easily as well, mostly due to above aspects. But never stalked anyone. I am too prideful for such things, sometimes to a fault... I can carry you in my heart forever but never knock your door...

Yeap, I am trying to establish firm boundaries... let's see if he comes back again, will I be able to resist his charms. I am sure he will have a new game plan.

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