posted May 20, 2014 01:26 AM            

what should I know what's coming out for me?

posted May 20, 2014 01:27 AM            

I have a specific question too, the guy Joe that I have been dating previously I saw him on there! I deleted him out before he can even see my profile but now I'm just curious as to why things never developed between us.

I had a reading someone's said because there was somebody else, and ask who he basically wanted back in the picture. okay well now I am not so sure, I don't think that was actually correct.

posted May 20, 2014 01:31 AM            

And I guess I'm wondering will I be able to travel some time this year or at least by next winter? I really want to but am still figuring out the best way to do it financially and with everything else going on...

posted May 20, 2014 01:41 AM            

....u should is from iam seeing!

but in truth I think you're going to need to get a part time job. I understand don't see you traveling by this January. I hope I'm totally wrong!! if you can find another source of payment like getting another job then yeah I can totally see you leaving. I don't know what type of plans you have to travel if its in the states and if its hotel but for my vision is backpacking like Hostels.... more of an experience and less of a vacation. or such as going on a destination trip like White River rafting.... going to nature like Colorado

.... I have no idea if any of this resonates with you, but I don't think now is necessarily the time that you'll be able to travel. I sent it when you have a f*** it attitude and get so displeased that you need to shift the shift is a learning, connecting experience , a travel with nature....

.... when this happens you'll make the money show up. because that's how badly you want it you want a new experience and get out of where you're at. it will be a life altering change. so again I hope I'm wrong I hope you get to travel but I see u at the breakage point... or more like a disconnect point in life, if you will, not relatively soon, not immediately

posted May 20, 2014 02:05 AM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
I have a specific question too, the guy Joe that I have been dating previously I saw him on there! I deleted him out before he can even see my profile but now I'm just curious as to why things never developed between us.

I had a reading someone's said because there was somebody else, and ask who he basically wanted back in the picture. okay well now I am not so sure, I don't think that was actually correct.

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10 of wands rx-2 of cups rx-7 of swords rx

I would say it would make sense if there was "someone else" in the picture in some way, but probably someone who doesn't return the interest in... Like he's secretly recovering from a really painful breakup (maybe there was cheating involved) and is trying to appear like he's moved on but really just feels pretty defeated and pessimistic about love. He could be on the site for rebounds but his heart isn't fully in it. I would say it's definitely not something personal about you though, he'll probably go through a string of shallow attempts at setting up dates but do the same thing every time until he gets over whatever the issue is... My feeling is definitely stay away from him though, if he never gave you answers it's probably for the best..

posted May 20, 2014 02:07 AM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
do you possibly mean backpacking? and are you going to blog a journal about your experiences?

....u should is from iam seeing!

but in truth I think you're going to need to get a part time job. I understand don't see you traveling by this January. I hope I'm totally wrong!! if you can find another source of payment like getting another job then yeah I can totally see you leaving. I don't know what type of plans you have to travel if its in the states and if its hotel but for my vision is backpacking like Hostels.... more of an experience and less of a vacation. or such as going on a destination trip like White River rafting.... going to nature like Colorado

.... I have no idea if any of this resonates with you, but I don't think now is necessarily the time that you'll be able to travel. I sent it when you have a f*** it attitude and get so displeased that you need to shift the shift is a learning, connecting experience , a travel with nature....

.... when this happens you'll make the money show up. because that's how badly you want it you want a new experience and get out of where you're at. it will be a life altering change. so again I hope I'm wrong I hope you get to travel but I see u at the breakage point... or more like a disconnect point in life, if you will, not relatively soon, not immediately

.... let me know your thoughts and feelings about this because I feel like I'm missing some connection

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Wow thank you this definitely resonates!! that's amazing, honestly every single part makes complete sense.

I'm considering going on a very "off the grid" backpacking type of trip in Asia that would basically be volunteering instead of teaching English (which is what I originally wanted to do) Hadn't thought about writing a blog but that definitely sounds something I would do. And I'm basically at that f*** it point right now, but know it's not realistic until I save up money.

posted May 20, 2014 02:44 AM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
Lol iam. but you can leave your question to !

what should I know what's coming out for me?

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The Tower- Moon rx- Heirophant rx

Hmm seems like some unexpected changes are in store that might be unsettling at first but will actually help clarify things and free you from feeling restricted.. How did things turn out with your interviews? If you're still unsure you could find yourself considering new options that would take you in a different direction or that are "untraditional" in some way..

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Originally posted by cherful24:
also I just joined this dating site its called Tinder. do you see if I'll meet anyone and if it can spark anything like an actual relationship?

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The Fool-Page of Pentacles-Knight of Wands

I think you'll definitely at least meet people you can have a lot of fun with. This could help bring back the "spark" into how you view romance again... I don't know if you'll find something long term but it will at least feel like new beginnings. Knight of wands, could meet someone with a fiery and enthusiastic personality.. Page of pents makes me think you'll share creative interests with this person and really enjoy your time together

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Originally posted by cherful24:
but also I have to say looking at the girls here in Chicago and looking at their profile like sure maybe some of them are thinner, but very few have a better face. and I f give me a break I'm 10 pounds overweight.... like I'm not trying to be a ego tistical but I feel like maybe some of these guys are intimidated? I hold a really high position and I do take care of myself really well........ what's your take on it and if you have any other take let me know its my problem let me know maybe I can fix it

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The Devil-6 of Pents-7 of Pents

Yes I think they're definitely intimidated... Their first impression is that you're really sexy, but they also see you're a thoughtful/giving person who has your sh** together career wise and isn't going to be a typical damsel in distress type, you're basically the whole package.. Which should be great but I live in the Midwest too and unfortunately know how people are here lol. Anyway I'd say just show them that you're down to earth and pass on anyone who seems to take themselves too seriously...

posted May 20, 2014 02:46 AM            

no I'm not interviewing anymore so I'm basically at the same job?

posted May 20, 2014 03:08 AM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
Ooh! can I ask another question besides me losing the weight and getting fit again how can I make myself more desirable to men who are thinking long term...wanting marriage?

feel free to ask me more questions to!

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Ok I'll get to this soon!

posted May 20, 2014 03:24 AM            

are you sure you want to continue on and dealing with this because I don't see much change coming?

I don't necessarily sense feelings towards you, from him... so be careful about that. and I don't think he's in any place to develop any....not with you but with anybody. if you want him to the extent that he's giving himself to you you have to play nice and sweet and don't give any lip. his main thing is that he pushes back... again not just with you but with everyone, so you won't be able to change that personality.

this is going to be a lot of effort on your part very draining.... while you're stuck thinking about it and asking about it trust me he's not concerned about dealing with anything

I just wanna make sure, when I asked if change is coming, u said.... unexpected changes I just wanna make sure that I also still have employment? that's my biggest concern. I cannot be left with no job not even for small period Of time

posted May 20, 2014 04:10 AM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
that was a dig at you about the making assumptions thing you made an assumption and he is being sarcastic like when that out.

are you sure you want to continue on and dealing with this because I don't see much change coming?

I don't necessarily sense feelings towards you, from him... so be careful about that. and I don't think he's in any place to develop any....not with you but with anybody. if you want him to the extent that he's giving himself to you you have to play nice and sweet and don't give any lip. his main thing is that he pushes back... again not just with you but with everyone, so you won't be able to change that personality.

this is going to be a lot of effort on your part very draining.... while you're stuck thinking about it and asking about it trust me he's not concerned about dealing with anything

I just wanna make sure, when I asked if change is coming, u said.... unexpected changes I just wanna make sure that I also still have employment? that's my biggest concern. I cannot be left with no job not even for small period Of time

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Thanks.. And idk it's just that I'm not in a position to develop feelings for anyone either, but I know I don't want to give up on the friendship. We've both played stupid games and it's always been very push-pull (Cancer-Capricorn we were both too proud and defensive lol) but it wasn't a shallow experience.. I'm just sick of him saying things he doesn't actually mean, like what's the point really?

Also no sorry I didn't mean to alarm you.. The job thing was just my first thought since I remember you saying you were having interviews, but honestly it's late and I didn't know exactly what to make of those cards, they could apply to a variety of things. Heirophant rx just made me think you'll be breaking out of the norms in your life in some way, and that it will be sudden but also feel "liberating". I can't really pick up on what that is exactly, but really don't worry about it, I'm sure it's nothing too disruptive... Plus I've found when doing readings online the cards could sometimes just be picking up on my own feelings at the moment, so please take it with a grain of salt.

posted May 20, 2014 08:57 PM            

6 of wands-the Emperor-The World

So that looks really positive! Seems like you'll be getting recognition for all the work you've put in and will be well respected there. Emperor makes me think this will come from one boss in particular-or maybe you're in a leadership position? The world again indicates accomplishment and fulfillment, like you've reached the end of a cycle and are now able to fully enjoy your success. Or in a more literal sense, your job could involve traveling?