posted May 20, 2014 09:16 PM            

this is new to me so I don't know if it's because of my wright gain, poor eating habits or if my body is literally changing.

2. My fear, I think, is preventing me from being thin and fit again. I use to workout everyday. stupid as it sounds I think it must be true because when I was at my best that's when everything is going fabulous for me. Great guy, other men fighting over me, having a great job, loving it, good pay... I felt on top of my world.

but of course everything and everyone has moved on. so maybe I feel like I'll be repeating history or I'll be starting from zero and I'll bring those memories In my life, again.
Then I think what if I get my body back and thus, confidence...thus looks, and I still get rejected? its like I feel.......like oh **** i have to go thru this again....competing with other girls...and who are younger than me. Just that game and process... its draining and I don't wanna be halfway into it and it feels as if Ian not making headway in my life or with finding a partner, and get overwhelm and defeated to where I continue to eat like crazy again

I have tried several times, but aa short time into it, I end up feeling defeated.

Any help, answers, etc would be appreciated.

posted May 20, 2014 09:26 PM            

I hope you don't mind I've tried something different for you - my energy seemed so scattered lately and I can't read my cards..

So I've picked up the book I was reading and asked to get a message for you - picking a random page.

Here's what I got for you:

"By actually rewriting your agreement with reality, you can change your mind and send away perceived problem. Change your attitude toward yourself, and resolve to believe in your connectedness to the higher energy of God, even in the direst of circumstances. Turn anything that seems problematic over to your higher self, trusting that the "problem" is not what it seems to be, Rewrite your agreement about who you are and what you're capable of achieving." Wayne Dyer

I think this is a great message, to me it says - there's absolutely nothing wrong with you! Change how you perceive yourself and realize how capable you are of achieving anything you want.

Anyway... hope this resonates with you

posted May 20, 2014 09:32 PM            

Sounds like you could benefit from some soul searching.

Look at your strengths:
for example--you're in the health care field, which is still hiring; you're a caring person; you have leadership qualities...

Ask yourself--do you like what you are doing?

Have you written down some goals lately?

Also, are you spreading yourself too thin? I noticed that you are here quite often and when you exchange with others a lot, you are depleting your energy and time--then you create more stress on yourself.

You are a wonderful person and need to take care of you. Maybe the job isn't what you want at the moment, but think about even the little things you have that you enjoy and build on them.

Write a letter to God or whoever your higher power is and tell him what qualities you would like in a man. Be specific. When you start writing, sometimes you will realize that even you didn't have as much of an idea about what you were looking, so how can the universe help you to meet the right one for you? Make sure you sign it and keep it in a safe place.

Write down your weaknesses as you see them and think about how you can improve on them. i.e. Do you need to take a class, etc.?

No question for me. Time for you to think about you. Think about what you would like in your life and train yourself to not think about what you don't want. I know you can do it.

posted May 20, 2014 09:40 PM            

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Originally posted by mtyoonstruck87:
Just sending positive vibes as I am on a similar path Cher - ((hugs))

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posted May 20, 2014 09:41 PM            

QUOTE]Originally posted by St@r2013:
Hey Cherful,

I hope you don't mind I've tried something different for you - my energy seemed so scattered lately and I can't read my cards..

So I've picked up the book I was reading and asked to get a message for you - picking a random page.

Here's what I got for you:

"By actually rewriting your agreement with reality, you can change your mind and send away perceived problem. Change your attitude toward yourself, and resolve to believe in your connectedness to the higher energy of God, even in the direst of circumstances. Turn anything that seems problematic over to your higher self, trusting that the "problem" is not what it seems to be, Rewrite your agreement about who you are and what you're capable of achieving." Wayne Dyer

I think this is a great message, to me it says - there's absolutely nothing wrong with you! Change how you perceive yourself and realize how capable you are of achieving anything you want.

Anyway... hope this resonates with you

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posted May 20, 2014 09:45 PM            

It's more about why I am fearing, self sabotaging myself. Ian not understanding why im doing that. And if the reasons that I listed are true, then why Ian letting that control me?? That's what I don't understand. I feel imprisoed by it

QUOTE]Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
Hi Cherful,

Sounds like you could benefit from some soul searching.

Look at your strengths:
for example--you're in the health care field, which is still hiring; you're a caring person; you have leadership qualities...

Ask yourself--do you like what you are doing?

Have you written down some goals lately?

Also, are you spreading yourself too thin? I noticed that you are here quite often and when you exchange with others a lot, you are depleting your energy and time--then you create more stress on yourself.

You are a wonderful person and need to take care of you. Maybe the job isn't what you want at the moment, but think about even the little things you have that you enjoy and build on them.

Write a letter to God or whoever your higher power is and tell him what qualities you would like in a man. Be specific. When you start writing, sometimes you will realize that even you didn't have as much of an idea about what you were looking, so how can the universe help you to meet the right one for you? Make sure you sign it and keep it in a safe place.

Write down your weaknesses as you see them and think about how you can improve on them. i.e. Do you need to take a class, etc.?

No question for me. Time for you to think about you. Think about what you would like in your life and train yourself to not think about what you don't want. I know you can do it.

Spring[/QUOTE]

posted May 21, 2014 07:53 AM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
TY!

It's more about why I am fearing, self sabotaging myself. Ian not understanding why im doing that. And if the reasons that I listed are true, then why Ian letting that control me?? That's what I don't understand. I feel imprisoed by it

QUOTE]Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
[b]Hi Cherful,

Sounds like you could benefit from some soul searching.

Look at your strengths:
for example--you're in the health care field, which is still hiring; you're a caring person; you have leadership qualities...

Ask yourself--do you like what you are doing?

Have you written down some goals lately?

Also, are you spreading yourself too thin? I noticed that you are here quite often and when you exchange with others a lot, you are depleting your energy and time--then you create more stress on yourself.

You are a wonderful person and need to take care of you. Maybe the job isn't what you want at the moment, but think about even the little things you have that you enjoy and build on them.

Write a letter to God or whoever your higher power is and tell him what qualities you would like in a man. Be specific. When you start writing, sometimes you will realize that even you didn't have as much of an idea about what you were looking, so how can the universe help you to meet the right one for you? Make sure you sign it and keep it in a safe place.

Write down your weaknesses as you see them and think about how you can improve on them. i.e. Do you need to take a class, etc.?

No question for me. Time for you to think about you. Think about what you would like in your life and train yourself to not think about what you don't want. I know you can do it.

Spring

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You're welcome Cherful.

I had to empty my head as I kept thinking about what had happened before. What helped me was to think about those things and what lesson(s) I learned and then meditate with archangel Raziel to let them go (past lives, past and present). That cleared things and I'm finding that more people I bump into each day respond positively to me than just a few. I don't see the negative ones as much like what I had seen before at work.

posted May 21, 2014 08:21 AM            

what if I decided to become a life coach?

it's something I thought about before and I do have a counseling and advisor background

posted May 21, 2014 03:32 PM            

QUOTE]Originally posted by beenylove:
Okay looking at your chart, I can see why you are going through a bad time. There is a malefic transit ruling your chart, and it ends on october 13, 2016. :/ Things will slowly starting turning better after that, but you will experience true growth around May of 2019. According to the charts, that is. You will definitely have ups in between too, but I think around 2019 is when you truly start to feel better. I think if you can find a way to have someone help you with working out, such as a personal trainer or a friend to work out with, it will be really helpful for you. As women, when we feel that we look great, that is when our true confidence shines. So I can completely understand how you must be feeling. [/QUOTE]

posted May 21, 2014 04:21 PM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
5yrs? WTF bad is happening to me for that long

QUOTE]Originally posted by beenylove:
[b]Okay looking at your chart, I can see why you are going through a bad time. There is a malefic transit ruling your chart, and it ends on october 13, 2016. :/ Things will slowly starting turning better after that, but you will experience true growth around May of 2019. According to the charts, that is. You will definitely have ups in between too, but I think around 2019 is when you truly start to feel better. I think if you can find a way to have someone help you with working out, such as a personal trainer or a friend to work out with, it will be really helpful for you. As women, when we feel that we look great, that is when our true confidence shines. So I can completely understand how you must be feeling.

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