posted May 29, 2014 08:33 PM            

The pain I feel is indescribable. I kept starring at some pills today but I didn't have the strength to follow through with my plan.

I feel so lonely and I can't stop crying my heart out today. I feel as though my heart is getting ripped out of my chest.

Is there any chances my situation is going to get better?

posted May 29, 2014 08:48 PM            

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Originally posted by athenegoddess:
Just think about all that you have. For one you most likely have clean water and food and a place to live. That's enough to pick yourself up and stop this.

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I don't have a job and I therefore have to live with my abusive parents who now verbally abuse me more than ever before. Because I haven't found a job, I can't move out.

When I say abusive, this is an understatement. I just don't know what to do with myself at this point.

On top of this I have health issues and I literally have zero friend to talk to or to rely on.

I have been at home for about a month now and my parents are hoping I stay with them so they can marry me off to whomever. I graduated from college but being called "stupid" "useless" "sinner" "money waster" every day is tough especially as they are the one who chose to my for my studies and they're now throwing it back in my face.

posted May 29, 2014 11:03 PM            

From my angel deck, you have support! Here is the message:

Here is the link to the interpretation: http://www.sfpnn.com/Angels/Saints%20and%20Angels/Help/Heaven%20is%20Watching%20 Over%20You.htm

posted May 30, 2014 04:59 AM            

If you're not sure how to tap - check this video first - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9VpeAAk9qhA

And then this (talking about your parents) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gH7Gd0VUNdg
- This video works!

She has many videos also about attracting money etc so check her other videos too...

posted May 30, 2014 05:06 PM            

I am sorry that you are going through this MineAgain. I'm not sure what's wrong lately, but I have been more sensitive myself - I am not one to usually cry for no reason (not every day! LOL) so it's weird for me as well.

Wishing you could feel better soon xox

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posted May 30, 2014 05:39 PM            

I am so sorry... Please remeber that you can talk to us here on the forum. All i can do is pray for you. I can trully understand you.

posted May 30, 2014 06:00 PM            

I have a suggestion. And this is because it is possible to have peace ; even in such difficult circumstances. Even with people who seem to "peck" at your soul every single day.

You must first create your own haven; a place where you shut off the world.

This could be your room,the bathroom, some place in the garden(it doesn't matter).

Now , I'll go through some of what you just wrote and the idea is to inspire in you, good feelings.

So I'll change the direction of your thoughts. And this is important to do. To steer them closer to a place of "relief"; where you feel the ease of a headache lifting. You know that feeling? It's not excitement, it's a feeling of release.

I don't have a job but I know that in time, things will change for me. It may not be overnight but all I know is that if I keep on going towards feeling relief from pressure. Things will get better.

I am living with difficult parents right now who are hurt and disappointed that life hasn't turned out the way that they would like.So they blame me for what they did not get for their efforts worth.

It is really not I that they are angry at. It is really because I am the person who is "taking it". But I won't be doing it anymore.

I'm starting to believe that I am worth more than they know. I am starting to feel better about my possibilities untapped. They do not see the wonder that I am and that is fine, I'm seeing it all every day

I have health issues, yes, but this is due to what has gone on before and where I am now.And because I have believed, in the past,that I'll stay in this place.

But I don't believe that anymore. Not when I have such a powerful will to live, to dance, to breathe in the fresh air and feel the vibrancy of every cell in my body scream and say "indeed you are alive". Its not over.

And everyday, I am feeling better about the condition I'm in. Things are definitely changing.I feel hopeful that a new body of complete wellness is within reach. I am hopeful.

I don't have friends to talk to or to rely on.But that is because I have felt too burdened by my own issues to let someone else in. But this is changing.

My issues are becoming less, I have more to talk about beyond my troubles. I am willing to go out and have fun. I am willing to smile. I am ready to compare and contrast with another; to laugh and enjoy the exquisiteness of life. There is so much that I would like to say to one who will listen. We will laugh and it'll be a beautiful friendship

You must keep going, keep going for the good feeling place. Feel good about yourself. Feel relief. Feel the pain easing from the inside. Start to feel splendor and the joy of smiling for no reason at all.

When you do this, you CANNOT stay in the current circumstances longer.Something will shift; either you will find that your parents spend less time talking to you or that you find yourself moving out from under their thumb.

posted May 31, 2014 06:18 PM            

My sister sent me this link and I thought about you - it's called the abundance pray, from what the people write it seems to have helped a few people financially after they've said it a few times...

I've only said it twice but hey, I don't think it can hurt... so give it a go maybe? http://simonarich.com/abundance-prayer