posted July 17, 2014 02:36 AM            

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Originally posted by otha92:
i m 21 going on 22, im at a point in life where im trying to get established and start living in bachelor (pretty hard with scorpio moon in 2nd house) one thing holding me back is i have bench warrants and 1700 dollars in paid fines, in Arizona. i live in Maryland with my grandmother,should i just try to save money here then go back and pay of my fines.or should i go back to Arizona and turn myself in and,then after im released try to look for an menial job straighting this out. i don't think nobody will hire me in Arizona because i have a missdemenor theft and a missdemnor assault

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Overall I'm getting you should leave Maryland eventually & take action so you can start afresh. Were there people involved with this ('bad groups'). If yes, I feel it's best to also release that. You can honestly have a sunnier future for yourself.
If I look into Arizona it definitely shows the opportunity for healing from this situation, basically underlining what I just saw. It would give you a new chance. Not easy though, because as you say, after that period it feels like you will need to 'defend' yourself. And need some inner resistance/resilience (?) to pull through this situation.
I understand you are unwilling to go to Arizona, but it's not like you have to stay there forever. Take it one step at a time, and trust that after this is handled you can find new ways of being & building your life.
You are still young & it's a big world & you can do lots of things.

Hope this helped & just try to see what resonates with you & decide for yourself.

Good luck!