posted August 03, 2014 02:17 AM            

I wrote an anonymous letter to a man just over 8 years ago, basically pouring my heart out to him, anonymously . I have been in contact with him a few times since then, but I never discussed the letter.

I would like to ask....
Did the intended recipient, JR, ever receive the letter?

If he did, does he know that I wrote it?

If not, who read it?

Basically, what happened to my letter???

On 3 separate occasions, I've pulled single cards with different questions, which I think are quite telling. I'm worried that I may be biased in my interpretations, so I'd like some outside input.

I also had a very vivid dream several months ago that I feel had something to do with this, but I'm not sure.

I'm curious to see what cards come up. I'll add what cards I drew later, for discussion.

Thank you in advance!!!

posted August 04, 2014 12:21 AM            

This man is at the very least a Karmic soulmate, and I believe he could be my Twin Flame. I wrote the letter when I was moving over a 1,000 miles away, and feared I'd never see him again. Unfortunately, I couldn't bring myself to tell him how I felt face to face, so the letter seemed like a good idea at the time.

I moved, the years passed, but I still think about him constantly. I was convinced I'd get over him eventually, but I was wrong.

I could kick myself for not dealing with this properly, but my feelings and soul connection to this man terrified me. It made me incredibly vulnerable to him, which I was not comfortable with. I've lived through 9 years worth of "dark nights of the soul" since I met him, and I just want closure.

Getting some clarity on what happened to the letter might help, at least I hope so.

posted August 04, 2014 01:43 AM            

does he know it was you

8 of wands
emperor
page of swords again

posted August 04, 2014 06:08 AM            

Interesting to see the Page of Swords show up twice!

I've spent the last hour and a half typing a lengthy response, TWICE, which both times went poof for no apparent reason! I guess I'll take that as a hint that it's not a good time to respond at length, so I'll do it later.

posted August 06, 2014 04:07 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by athenegoddess:
Yes he did get the letter (page of swords)

does he know it was you

8 of wands
emperor
page of swords again

I believe so. but is he already taken?

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Thank you again for the reading athenegoddess!

Wow, although I can't confirm it at the moment, your reading seems really spot on! Page of Swords definitely makes sense, I think that's a pretty clear answer. I'm younger than him by 11 years, so the Page also ties in with the Emperor, as a message from someone younger to an older man. I always associate 8 of Wands more as quick action, but I know that it is often in the form of a message. I've read interpretations meaning a love letter, or a declaration of love in a passionate sense, so that is definitely accurate! And Page of Swords again, if he didn't know before that I wrote it, he definitely knows now.

Yes he is taken. At the time that I wrote the letter, I had not spoken to him in 9 months, and I believe he got married either just before or after I sent it. I didn't even think he had a serious girlfriend at the time. He said once he had a "gal" that lived nearby, that sounded more like a friends with benefits type thing. I had a boyfriend that moved to another state, and at the time I wrote it, I was really torn between moving or staying, in large part because of him. My feelings for him were so overwhelming, that the last 2 times I saw him, I totally blew him off because I couldn't compose myself, and he was clearly hurt by it. By the way I acted, I doubt he would've had any clue that I was the one who wrote it back then.

Not a single day has gone by that I don't think about him, and after my ex and I ended things, I finally got the courage to confess that I had these feelings for him in March of 2013. At the time, him and his wife were separating, and when I confessed my feelings, he acted as if this was divine timing. Once we both settled everything with our exes, we could see where this goes. He never said anything about the letter, which is why I assumed that he never got it. I had a lot going on at the time, so I was just so relieved to have gotten things off my chest, and could focus on getting my new life on track. I knew neither of us were in a place to start anything, so we talked and texted a few times, just as friends. After waiting 8 years to confess to him, I was in no hurry to rush things.

A month later he told me him and and his wife were considering counseling to try to save their marriage. I understood completely even though I was disappointed, because my ex and I went through the same thing a few times before finally deciding to call it quits. During this same conversation he told me he did not love his wife, and that he was only staying for financial reasons. He owns property that belonged to his family, a custom home that he built himself, and a successful business that were all at stake in the divorce. He said his family would disown him if went through with the divorce, and risked everything. They don't have kids by the way. So he resigned himself to live in an unhappy situation for financial reasons. He's a King of Pentacles type, quite literally. I was crushed, because I honestly want him to be happy, and it's heartbreaking that he would stay for these reasons.

I told him at that point that we could not speak, even though our conversations were strictly platonic, because it was only going to complicate the situation. That was the last time we spoke. I don't know what's going on with him now, although I do know right after I first contacted him in March, he replaced his wife as Vice President of his company and hired someone else. I feel like he's getting things in order slowly, in a way that protects his assets. I have the feeling their marriage will not last much longer, because he's 45, and I don't see them spending the rest of their lives together.

As far as letter goes, the fact that he didn't mention it made me think his wife was the one to find it first.

posted August 07, 2014 02:55 AM            

I'll list the cards that I have pulled about the letter, if you or anyone else wants to comment about them. I'm not good at doing multi card readings, so I like to ask one specific question at a time.

1)What ever happened to the letter?

5 of Swords-My first thought was that someone else(presumably his wife) got the letter and hid it from him for their own reasons.

2)Did his wife get the letter?

5 of Cups-I believe she did get it, and that this letter has haunted her for years, thinking that the sender would eventually come back. I found it interesting that the figure on the card is looking very depressed facing 3 Cups(other woman?) and turning their back on the 2 cups behind them.

3)Did JR ever get the letter?

2 of Swords-I thought maybe he did get it, but didn't even consider choosing between his wife and another woman as an option. Or maybe that he was unaware of who wrote it, which I believe he would've been at the time. Also I thought it could mean he was unaware of the letter. I know this card is about choices, but being blind to or refusing to make a choice.

I guess the reason this has been on my mind so much lately is because of a dream that I had about his wife several months ago. At first I did not realize who she was, she was sitting near me on a train. I confided in her that I'd always had feelings for this man that I'd hidden for years, and that not telling him was my biggest regret in life. She was very kind and compassionate, and she confided in me that she never loved her husband. She said that she loved a man named K---, that had betrayed her. The feeling I had was that he cheated with her close friend, or got someone pregnant, possibly both, and he left her without warning. She was so devastated to be betrayed like this, and it made her resentful and distrusting of everyone. She said she married her husband shortly after that for all the wrong reasons, and that she had taken all of her issues and anger out on him due to bitterness. She was feeling guilty about the fact that she had denied him love because of her own issues, and punished him for what K did to her. I realized at that point that we were talking about the same man, but I did not tell her. I felt an overwhelming sense of empathy for the pain she had gone through, and I felt guilty for possibly contributing to her insecurities because of the letter.

Since having this dream, I feel like this is true, and that she found the letter first. I think she's having a lot of guilt now because of it. I believe that she might have told him about the letter just recently. I have prophetic dreams regularly...Moon/Pluto and Neptune all aspecting less than 1 deg, and lots of Scorpio, and 5 planets in the 8th house. So my dreams are very accurate, and my sharpest intuition comes during the dreamstate.

Just today, I did some digging and I found that she had owned a home with another man, whose middle name was K----, the name she told me in the dream!!! He is named after his grandfather and father, so he's the 3rd, and likely goes by his middle name. Also, just 2 months after she signed their house over to K----, taking her name off of the deed, he married another woman. I found this through public records. Also her and the other woman have EXACT trine suns, Scorpio and Pisces, and I have a feeling they were very good friends, possibly best friends. I know my intuition is filling in the blanks, but I'm almost certain that this is what happened. It makes me very sad for her.

That's why I've been feeling lately like they will not last much longer, because I think she's coming to terms with all of it. Saturn is also right on her Sun right now too, so anything not built on a solid foundation will likely crumble.

I can feel JR struggling too.

Sorry it's so long, at the very least putting it out there helps to deal with it.