posted September 04, 2014 07:13 AM            

Throughout his relationship with this new girl this year he had sent me several messages just saying hello and I ignored each and every one of them until valentines day when he asked to visit my new home (I moved out of the city I was born in because of him as I couldn't deal with things any more)
Stupidly I agreed to let him visit, we talked and it was so lovely to see him again but one thing led to another and we ended up having sex that night. He left in the morning, cut off all contact with me and I was so confused...
In a rage I took copies of all the emails he had sent over the course of the past few months and sent them to his girlfriend and she called me by telephone and I just told her everything about what he has put me through the past six years. She ended the relationship instantly and he started telling me I had ruined his life, made him suicidal and started bombarding me with messages ranting on like some mad man.

I thought the best way to respond was not to respond at all and then he told me he would come to my home and his words were "I'm coming over to your place after work and I am going to f***k you so hard."
When he got no reaction from me he instantly switched to taking to take me camping and talk about 'us' but I was too scared as I know he is unpredictable when he is angry. His silence has always spoken volumes...
He quit his job, sold his car and started calling me racist names (I am black and he is white) and started spiralling in to depression claiming that this was all my fault, he shared our private photographs over the past 6 years with mutual friends so I decided to call the police and have him arrested for harassment.

He was arrested and charged with racially aggravated harassment and sentenced to community service and compensation to me for sharing my personal photographs. I was told a restraining order would be put in place so he could not contact me as he would never leave me be otherwise, the courts ensured the draft was ready and some 'problem' happened on the date where there was some apparent miscommunication with the judge and my lawyer meaning my restraining order was not in place and he is free to contact me at any point....

I was furious with this and even the police said themselves they had never heard of such a thing happen with an res order and I honestly feel like forces at work stop me from cutting myself off from him. I thought this was my ticket to freedom and wth this order in place he could no longer hurt me any more or feed me his lies so I made a complaint to the courts and they are dealing with my case again.
I've already had various anonymous phone calls when I changed my number, fake profiles on facebook trying to access my page.
I have a good feeling it is him, could this all be related. I do love him but he told me in his own words I mean nothing to him apart from sex, so why won't he just leave me to live my life? I'm happy to let him live his now because I cant do it anymore.