posted September 17, 2014 11:30 AM            

So there are some reasons to go there.
But of course it will be a little inconvenient (2 hours by train, though manageable as it starts early and ends at 9:30 pm., so I should have no problem getting on a train back home, just a little inconvenient).

However, my real problem with that is it is a dinner show, and I can`t do that, right? I mean it would be just weird and probably feeling off and unpleasant to go to a dinner show on my own. And no there is noone who can accompany me.

So what am I going to do?
And if I go there, how awkward will it be?

Funnily I thought I read up on Anne Ortelees horoscope for today what she has to say.

"Today has oodles of aspects around relationships, partnerships, patterns ~ old and new ~ which are ALL being looked at. Neptune’s active ~ the good part about Neptune is you don’t see what you are getting into. The bad part about Neptune is you don’t see what you are getting into. It is kind of like cosmic blinders…the universe puts a blindfold on you and then leads you to where it wants you to be. If you didn’t have it on and could see what was coming, you might not sign up for the ride. By inviting you in gently, without a clear idea of where you are going, the universe takes advantage of your optimism. Rose colored glasses are a good thing. Say yes even if you are not sure. Set some boundaries but say yeah! Explore. Because we are human, we’ve been hurt. Part of the package of life. Because we are human, the sun comes up tomorrow… and we have a new day, an opportunity for redemption and resurrection… forgiveness … of ourselves and others. Venus sets off the Finger of God today… it’s a profound choice that you face."

Argh, not really helpful. lol

posted September 17, 2014 01:36 PM            

Lilly-Book-Flowers-Dog-Whip

I think you will have a lovely time and might receive an invitation from a lovely man that is trustworthy - actually might be two men! lol The Whip is the only one casting a small shadow suggesting you might see or hear things that might be a bit uncomfortable, but as you know it can also mean sex appeal The concert in itself will be wonderful!

I understand it is awkward. I went to lunch and dinner by myself; to the theater; to the seaside; across the ocean. A Queen of Swords has to do what she has to do. Would it had been easier to be with someone else? Of course. Would I let that stand in my way? Hell no.

posted September 17, 2014 03:37 PM            

DM,
love your reading.

To be honest I did one myself yesterday when reading it, and got Hermit-Ace of cups- 2 of cups.

The hermit seemed to make sense, but the others?
Well it seemed to positive. So I did a redraw today, slightly different question and got 10 of cups-9 of cups - King of Cups.

Then my last attempt was the oracle thread here on LL, and it got me a 3 of cups.

That was the point when I gave up drawing for myself and started this thread here.

Mmmh, lovely men, you say?
Lovely.

In fact, I was going to the WW-meeting today with the girl who sometimes goes there with me, too, in a new city, new meeting, new coach actually, new beginning, lol

I was talking about my dilemma, and she is thinking about it if she will come there with me. WEll the big thing keeping her from doing it is the money, and actually I offered to pay for her, too. After all she would be the one driving us there and back, and that would be for my convenience as well.

Well, it might be still too much of an inconvenience for her, because of the money, but she`ll let me know by the end of the week, if she can come with me. Which I think would be the most elegant solution.
Hmm, Mr Sag will be sort of one of the singers (as if you had not guessed that already! lol) and I kind of do not want to show up on my own again. I suppose his part will be only a minor one that evening anyway, and the whole idea of the dinnershow with entertainment intrigues me.

posted September 20, 2014 06:44 AM            

Well, so I was pulling three cards on what how he would think of me showing up there on my own (though I know I shouldn´t care about what ANYONE thinks, I sort of do. Gotta work on that).

Anyway, I pulled

Page of Wands - 8 of wands - 3 of cups

posted September 20, 2014 02:13 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
It will be for a good cause as well (100% of the money goes to a caritative organization helping children, which is close to my heart anyway).

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quote:

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
I thin ...

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posted September 23, 2014 07:36 AM            

Happens sometimes I guess, thoughit is too bad, it would have been for a good cause.

posted September 24, 2014 04:18 AM            

Heart-Stars-Ring-Letter-Flowers.

Self explanatory, I believe.

I think you should get emotionally ready, and I'm serious when I say this.

posted September 24, 2014 05:13 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Dancing Maenad:
I asked if you guys have an actual chance, you know, for a true relationship, or whether it's just a delusion. Not sure what possessed me to draw without being requested to or even to phrase it like that, I guess your Sun-Moon conjunction on my Moon-Neptune conjunction, lol.

Heart-Stars-Ring-Letter-Flowers.

Self explanatory, I believe.

I think you should get emotionally ready, and I'm serious when I say this.

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This spread looks too scary to be true (you know how good things scare me, right?)

so give me your interpretation,w ill you?

Seriously though, it is HIS Sun-Moon-conjunction on your Moon-Neptune, and my Sun-Mercury on your Moon-Neptune.

While I naturally love that spread, could it be that your wishing for something like that, coloured it?

It was a perfect question, and thank you for asking it.

I suppose it is one reason why I can deal with things more relaxedly now, I always wondered if I was deluding myself, and a part of me still does, at least questioning to what extent it is real.

however the events of the last months seem to point out rather clearly to me,t hat it was at least not a TOTAL delusion.
does not mean we will get into a relationship anytime soon. But him singling me out on these occasions? The remarks being made, then him approaching me during his concert again to talk to me, even though shortly, ust to ask for my name?
which surprisingly he announced on facebook,e ven though i did not believe it. Well he told his fans before the concert, that they can anticipate him "having a word with you". LOL
turns out the man means what he sais.

but anyway, maybe that is all it is, but what it is, I suppose there is certianly some kind of intrigue or curiosity about me. Which makes me think I was not totally delusional after all. but that spread? I will put it in a frame and print it out (reverse order though).

posted September 26, 2014 03:00 AM            

I am not sure about the interp. My cards have a mind of their own, I ask about my exam and they tell me something about being terminally ill or in a life-threatening accident (it was a combo of Tree-Scythe-Coffin). I got super anxious, what if I get in a car accident before my exam?? Turns out the cards were saying I will hear about something like that (there was either Birds or Letter somewhere in there, but I thought it pertained to my exam), the parents of a good friend of mine were badly injured in a traffic accident. So the cards answered but it was totally unrelated. Unless I will have either of them as my exam subjects.. well, I will see. It could also have been about the nightmares.. recurring themes about the abuse.. since I was at gun/knife point.. they started to become more violent and they messed me up.

So, it's tricky like that, especially when I read for myself. Things the cards say DO happen, but often have nothing to do with my question. So, there will be a wedding/engagement announcement for sure, but idk if yours to him or his to.. you know who.. But I would imagine some bad cards should have popped in there in that case.
Anyways, I was sort of playing with them this morning and I asked again about you guys. Single cards this time.

Me: Will Ceri and Mr. Sag have a real, boyfriend-girlfriend relationship?

Cards: Tree (one that is happy, healthy and long lasting!)

Me: Are you sure?? (lol)
Cards: House

Me: (laughing) alright, alright, I'll stop asking, it's pretty clear.

I talk to them, crazy I know.

posted September 27, 2014 02:56 PM            

"the parents of a good friend of mine were badly injured in a traffic accident. "
Oh I am sorry to hear that.
But yes, sometimes cards do that. they seem to react to the underneath-influences, too. The questions you might not even dare to ask, or are not aware you are asking. Not always, sometimes.

"recurring themes about the abuse.. since I was at gun/knife point.. they started to become more violent and they messed me up."
Oh I am sorry, but I suppose that is how your subconsciousness deals with that, at least you are conscious about it and CAN find a way to deal with it, somehow.
But yes I see how that would fit the spread you mentioned.

"but idk if yours to him or his to.. you know who.. "
Yes, I thought about that, too.
but to my knowledge they are already married, or aren`t they?
He referred to her as his wife once, (but then I saw someone else mentioning the same incident and she was saying he was talking about his girlfriend - did I mishear or did she?)

Nevertheless, currently she is giving him the silent treatment on his facebook page, di dnot even congratulate him to his successful premiere of the play he directed.
Of course she might simply be busy,b ut usually she is the first one to give him a thumbsup to basically EVERYTHING.
She even did so when he posted these startling pics of himself at a concert. To be honest he looked awful on these pictures. I ahve never seen him look so sad, depressed, melancholic and lost.
Was I really the only one noticing it?
But no, someone else mentioned that he was looking rather worn out.
Well I surely wouldn´t have liked such a picture. In fact I found it worrisome. He really has to take better care of himself. His schedule is insane. Anyay I am disgressing. lol

"Me: Will Ceri and Mr. Sag have a real, boyfriend-girlfriend relationship?

Cards: Tree (one that is happy, healthy and long lasting!)

Me: Are you sure?? (lol)
Cards: House

Me: (laughing) alright, alright, I'll stop asking, it's pretty clear."

LOL A treehouse. I like that!

Of course the tree is slow, slow, slow development.
I also wonder if it might be a hint at our past. Well, we had sort of our childhood at the same place, same background (well I was just visiting of course).
It also seems like we have very similiar family structures right down to the way he is interacting with his siblings. It reminds me so much of how my brother and me are. LOL

Well, I was drawing some cards myself, but I am not sure which question I was asking. lol
I think it was mixed up all in one. Partly wanting to know about his relation with his wife, about what role I am going to play in his life, what is generally going on with him... so probably too messed up for a question.

I will mention the spread nevertheless.

Ring - scythe - cross - heart - sun

well whatever the real question was, the spread surely looks rather dramatic. lol