posted October 16, 2014 07:11 PM            

Particularly I am not sure about my north node true node (my purpose in this life)
Like others, I have lack of love life as well (or at least the last 5 years) but my problem is not necessarily lack of 'suitors', more like the people whom are attracted to me tend to be broken or hurt, and through my association with them (in relationshipsin the past , but purely non-sexual in recent years) they heal, then move on (usually found their soulmate/long term partner directly after our association, lots of marriages etc)

The common trend is people in person- even strangers- would feel compelled to tell me their stories or their inner hurt to me, providing they're in the same place with me long enough to start talking. (online is different ) these connections can last long or short, but mostly 'on the spot.'
I don't mind it actually, I like listening and conversing about that, but I wonder if it shows in my chart?

I noticed as I grew older I have a slight advantage in communication, I can be very persuasive (?) and it has worked well in my career as people of any status seem to give their trust relatively quick. I also seem to travel a lot due to work or other things. I seem to be quite lucky in financial area- never too poor, never excess- mostly enough.

Someone told me in one of my past lifetimes I once killed/sacrificed many people by the way of cultish behaviour, and directly in my life prior this one- I was a wandering monk atoning for my sins and try to heal people. I am not sure if they are right, but perhaps it shows on my chart?

So in short, my life has been very flexible and adaptable and communication seems to be the main theme. I seem to be blessed with chances with going abroad and making fast acquaintances regardless nationalities (with enough trust to let me -a stranger- stay over at their houses at times) and I am blessed with a balanced financial life (probably because I don't seek much) Almost like I am born to move- even if I don't necessarily wish to.

What I lack is lovelife (including sexual, despite acquaintances), roots (I always feel very peregrine and perhaps subconsciously wondering about having a 'home'), lack of family ties and traumatic childhood (I was almost a mute for 2 years due to fear). I do wish for an anchor, whether it's a partner or a 'home', but seem people feel discouraged by my constant expansion (spirit/travel), even though I am a very committed and loyal person.

I wonder if all of those show in my chart.

And although I don't mind being alone (I sort of accepted it, albeit a little lonely at times), does the chart show if I would ever/never find someone in this life time?