posted October 26, 2014 06:23 PM            

10 of Cups
Devil
World

I get a real sense this other guy brings you lots of lustful joy... strong sexual desires and everything.. but idk if you will end up together or if it will be more than that. i honestly feel this is just a temporary crush that will pass. fun while it lasts but thats it. you will still want to pursue him.. maybe even want to travel to him. but i don't think its anything more than a fantasy.

with your marriage:

death
strength
ace of wands

posted October 26, 2014 09:14 PM            

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Originally posted by poochycat:
Hi aqua,

I haven't read for you before. It's always nice to read for someone new. Why don't you leave me the initials, first is O.K. of the man you are talking to through the internet and your husband's first initial. Poochy

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posted October 26, 2014 09:47 PM            

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Originally posted by athenegoddess:
how other guy will turn out:

10 of Cups
Devil
World

I get a real sense this other guy brings you lots of lustful joy... strong sexual desires and everything.. but idk if you will end up together or if it will be more than that. i honestly feel this is just a temporary crush that will pass. fun while it lasts but thats it. you will still want to pursue him.. maybe even want to travel to him. but i don't think its anything more than a fantasy.

with your marriage:

death
strength
ace of wands

I'm getting it can go either way. you can decide to end the marriage or stay. if you stay it is salvageable.. but you two need to talk out your differences and where you have grown apart to see if there can be any compromise. however you may just decide to leave, and will feel very confident with this choice and eager to start a new life. if you leave you will be just fine.. I'm getting you want to leave more than you want to stay. so follow your heart.

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OMG thank you athenegoddes.
I think your reading is true.
I have a really strong feeling towards this guy, and i kept thinking about him a lot and somewhat feel that i'm in love with him.
Yes i wanted to travel to him and really digging on what i could pull off to make it happens. But i lately no longer feel that urge to go there anymore myself, as i think yes it's just a fantasy and there are some doubts that i got on him being real honest and really meant everything he said to me. Thats the reason why i stopped talking to him. He actually been more affectionate and kept telling me that he wants to come to my country as he has been working si hard to make it. But i just cut it off, it's been 3 weeks and now theres no any sign from him talking to me again either.

And about my marriage, it's correct that i really want to leave, even since the very first month of our marriage. But theres some things that make me still stay. However, the feeling of leaving is so strong that i couldn't see him with me there in the future together.

posted October 27, 2014 02:41 PM            

Before giving you a reading I would strongly advise you NOT to reach out to DRN. I sense that yes, there are strong sexual urges present as Athenegoddess pointed out but you are not truly in love with this man. It is only a fantasy, something you are missing with your husband. Red flag #1 was that you were saying he lives in Europe? That could be a problem as he may want to gain U.S. citizenship through you. #2 is he hasn't written you in three weeks. Sorry to say he is probably "working" on someone else

Here are your cards...

The Devil, 9 of swords, 8 of swords

The devil would definitely be this man, someone who is unscrupulous. It also shows the sexual feelings YOU have for HIM. He doesn't care for you!
The 9 of swords and 8 of swords are showing fear but also a bit of excitement (the devil)in this situation. I strongly advise you to just block any e-mails from him if they should arrive and forget this situation. Sorry to sound so harsh.

Re your husband...

The world, king of cups, hinging man

These cards are showing a lot of positivity!

posted October 27, 2014 08:16 PM            

At first he kinda interested to move in to my country, but as time went by it turned up to him wanting to just come over and get me outta my country to his or anywhere else.
It was great idea i thought, but not really a good idea at all when it comes to the fact that i'm still married.

I lied about my marriage stuff in the first year of us talking, actually i lied about a plenty stuff. But it was just because i wanted to keep him around me. Eventually he knows it as i confessed it all to him, but surprisingly he still didn't go away.

It's been on and off between us, and there are some points when he tried to just end it up, but i always came back and tried to making up with him over and over whatsoever. I think that i'm being so dumb idk why. But he said that he feels like a stupid too regarding our relationship, so apparently we both are.

I don't know about the sexual things, as we weren't that sexually intimate. We don't talk about sex much, and i find myself kinda hard to turned on by him.

But what you said that he is a scrupulous is something that i think i could confirm. So this guy, been dealing with a dangerous job that in most states claimed as an illegal and related to crime job ish. I found that his life is somehow messed up, and alcohol is a major problem since a long time, he got a DUI and still haven't gotten his license and it's been 5 years or so.

To be honest, that possibility of him seeing someone else is make me sad. I know i too have been seeing someone else in this off time though. But i still can't take him off my head.

He has actually been more affectionate and things feel more intense, he has always telling me how much he loves me, trying to convince me about his feeling, telling me how hard he's working on coming to see me and how bad he wants to get me outta my marriage and just be with him. Crazy, right?

Then that was just like too good to be true to me, i was beyond happy but scared at the same time, and at that point i'm starting to feel like its harder to see a difference beetween reality and fantasy as i feel like i couldn't fully trust him no matter how much he tried to assure me, i constantly worrying bout things, the slightest issue could really got me on my nerve, just like the last one when he couldn't call me like he said he gonna, because he was outside with his cousin.

Thats when i cut it off 3 weeks ago. I saw him still checkin on me on a chat app few days ago even though he didn't text me or whatever, but i don't feel like talking to him either.

It just like a hard slap on my face, and i hope it's a true wake up call.
Now i still feel down and hard to believe that i spent my 2 years like this as i thought that i finally love someone after all, but now i just hope everything would be far better with time.