posted November 06, 2014 11:18 AM            

I am pretty sure I will fail this year. But I also know that I don't have an interest in anything in particular, so I will encounter the same problems if I switch to something else.
And my original plan was to graduate and make money. Switching to something less promising to have the same problems is not a good idea at all.

I am at a dead end and I have no choice but to keep going on for at least one year. But it's been two months and I'm already depressed, so I don't see myself getting to the end either... Even if I do, it is extremely likely I will not graduate, and since I can't repeat, it will have been a wasted year.

I'd like a reading, about what I should do, or how will this end, or what changes I must make to myself, or anything that could help really. The only reason I'm not harming myself is that I have someone who loves me (and whom I love). I can't just keep doing this for seven more months however.

posted November 06, 2014 11:40 AM            

First question i ask is, are you really in that bad situation.
Well for sure you're feeling a little out of place right now but ever heard -
'Nothing is as bad as it seems'.

posted November 06, 2014 11:47 AM            

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Originally posted by thequeen:
Queen of Wands, Page of Wands, Ace of Wands, Fool rx, Justice rx
Eight of Cups rx-

First question i ask is, are you really in that bad situation.
Well for sure you're feeling a little out of place right now but ever heard -
'Nothing is as bad as it seems'.

I think things will start to get better for you next summer and you'll get in a school you deserve and will be satisfied with.
Till then, don't panic and do some certification if you can. I can tell you because even i'm an engineering student

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Yes, I am really in that bad of a situation. It wouldn't be so bad if the problem was with the difficulty or the amount of work. But here, it is completely and entirely with myself. I have always been a problem to myself, but it's seriously harming my future right now. I don't see many ways out, and I've been depressed for weeks now, but the harder I work, the worse my situation gets. It's not like I got a sudden personality change making me stupid - I am first in English and French - but I used to be decent at mathematics, physics and technology subjects, and now I am much worse than everyone else I know and much, much worse than I used to be.

Maybe I am just being whiny, but it doesn't mean I'm not hurting.

My transits, which I forgot to include:

(columns are my placements, lines are transits)

posted November 06, 2014 12:56 PM            

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Originally posted by thequeen:
Can you post you birth and timing details?

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It's very kind to help me with this. Thank you.

Here is my chart with the details.
http://image.noelshack.com/fichiers/2014/45/1415296577-my-chart-2.png

posted November 06, 2014 01:27 PM            

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Originally posted by thequeen:
I'll get your response tomorrow. I know saying 'don't worry' don't help in your age, but be brave girl..you'll shine

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I am a man. :v
But thanks for the advice! I've always been the kind to worry over the smallest things, but this is rather major in my opinion. I really don't see how to not worry when I'm so bad, can't manage to get better, and my future depends completely on it.