posted November 25, 2014 02:31 PM            

Tower - Whip - Cross

No I donīt think it will be very soon. It seems like there are quite some obstacles to overcome, maybe official obligations getting in the way.

posted November 25, 2014 11:11 PM            

Seven of wands- are you sure he is being honest with you? I feel he has a sneaky side to him.....like he's not being completely honest about something to you maybe manipulating this a bit

The sun- he is optimistic it will open up new relationship between you two he's feeling childlike about it almost.

posted November 26, 2014 02:32 PM            

About the 7 of wands. Well I have never seen it as sneaky, that would be the 7 of swords for me.
7 of wands usually comes up for me either when someone is being very defensive (but in an active way) or really standing your ground, even if it means fighting against windmills. lol

However, well we are not that close, so I am sure I don`t know everything about him. Or maybe he thinks he is sneaky, maybe he is not aware that I know about his relationship. Though that would be odd, as his partner is very aware of my presence, when I am there, and she doesnīt like it.
Having said that, there was never really anything between us, and there never will be for that reason (if he thinks otherwise, he can think again. I am not that kind of woman, no matter how strong the attraction might be).

Where it gets complicated is that there seems to be a definite spark there, and actually I think we both did really really try and keep on trying to ward it off (7 of wands?)
At least I have been rejecting the thought I might be truely attracted to him in other ways than just creative admiration of a vague familiarity for years and in turn probably rejected him during quite some occasions, that I never really got really aware of though.
I was always good in that, being defensive and all.

And then when I couldn`t deny it anylonger, that there was some part of attraciton on my part, I was soothing myself with the thought that it was totally onesided and there wasn`t realy anything but my fantasizing bewteen us (no matter how clearly I felt his interest).

And then THAT safetynet flew out of the window as well, when the comment was being made that I was driving him crazy to the point he was messing up a song.

But that was while he was being on stage, so of course I thought it was just for the show.
Still the next concert or so, he was getting off his stage and walked over to my table just to ask me for my name and then after a bit chitchat return to stage again.
And in between and after that, well, his eyes would be pretty much glued to where I was, even though I still tried to tell myself that it was just coincidence (coincidences worth of years now, including him having written a song, which seemed to reflect our non-interactive-connection to a creepy point, starting with the words: "Why didnīt you talk to me?" *sighs* I remember that night, Iremember that expression in his eyes, even though I was too dumb and paranoid back then, new year 2011/ 2012 as a matter of fact. And yes why didn`t I? Things might have gone differently, maybe.)

But anyway, by now I have somehow resigned to that strange status. I suppose you could put me into the fan category (though I never ever approached him for an autograph, picture or whatever. I did approach him some years ago to ask him about his birthtime, but that was before I even knew I was attracted to him. lol)

But we keep things on this vague level (even though even that vague level lately gets a LOT of attention from hte crowd. Lately when I enter a club or whereever they are playing, I find I gets stared at a lot, and believe me, the stares are not really all of the friendly variety! Especially not if his SO and her entourage is around. It doesn`t help that somehow coincidentally the spotlight seems to always find me. Sometimes I wonder if h arranges it intentionally, telling the technician to blind me on purpose at least once or twice a show. lol)

However, vague level, yes, as a fan or whatever, I have now and then commented on his facebook page (official one), but really just very superficially (but friendly, I am a friendly person), and despite now and then liking one of my comments he hasn`t really ever responded to anything I wrote there (well, I rarely did so anyway. lol).
But that has to do with his habit, also, to only acknowledge people on there by liking their messages or responding, whom he knows personally, or who are part of his social circle. And I am neither part of his personal social circle not really that much of a fan, in the sense that I really talk to him. (except for very rare occasions, and looking back, it was not even me who always initiated the rare chats. lol)

So it did not surprise me that he did not respond to anything.

But he changed that behaviour last friday, which totally surprised me, and I am not sure if it was just a slip, or if he was trying to change the rules to this game. And if so, I`d like to know what game it is being played here. lol

Seriously though I do believe there is a spark, mutually, but one that can`t be acted on. And I just hope we can find to a normal way of interaction.

Sun is of course a nice card.

The 4 of cups is interesting, as this comes up often in terms of me, and usually for me it indicates that I am turning a blind eye to an offer, because I am too withdrawn in myself, and to busy refusing to believe anyone could like me. lol

Anay way it could also denote in this case that, while there is sympathy, it can`t be acted upon.

As to litle or no progress, yes I supose you could say that. It took me a long time to leave my shell as far as this.

posted November 26, 2014 09:22 PM            

i got king of wands, queen of swords and 4 of pentacles.

posted November 27, 2014 02:59 AM            

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Originally posted by venuscorpio86:
Yikes sorry ceri! Major typo I meant seven of swords. I remember specifically....I dislike that card lol

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posted November 27, 2014 03:01 AM            

thank you for liking me.
What a nice way to start a day!

posted November 27, 2014 08:04 AM            

I misread - again (last time I misread something it led to him uncharacteristically respond to me on facebook, which he probably regrets having done by now)

I was reading: "He can`t tell you how he feels"

Instead you were writing he possibly can`t tell how I feel for him. Which is true, I suppose.
It must strike him weird that I donīt gush over him an do those fanrelated things (in fact his current partner seems to have started out as a fan, and honestly, when I saw her in the audience of the last concerts, she is STILL looking at him like a fan. In fact I was thinking to myself: "I could never look that adoringly at anyone, no matter how much I admire them." It`s just not me, that, "I worship the ground beyond your feet and applaud you just for breathing alone" kind of thing.
So I am not doing these things, and yet I do show up, more often in the last year as a matter of fact, before last year I was even more erratic, as I was going through the "I want to never see him again. What for?" phase regularly, which lasted usually a few months. Still everytime I resurfaced, he DID seem to notice. But I suppose in a way I am slippery and rather confusing to read. Hey, I confuse the heck out of even myself, how should he be able to read me?)