posted December 08, 2014 10:18 AM            

My dad is a drunkard,my parents are in a bad marriage,my home is full of poisonous feelings BUT I am the only earning member and I cannot leave them, so obviously I am under constant emotional turmoil, no idea what to do about that.

more importantly, my dad has been a bipolar disorder afflicted schizophrenic for long and I took up a low paying job just so I could care for him as much as possible even though it meant giving up some lucrative job offers. Now,TODAY, I was fired from that and I have no idea what to do.

I have no love life. 2 really intense relationships in past 10 years but always something goes wrong and I am left alone. So completely hopeless in that sense too.

So here I am 30 years old, single, sad, jobless, soon-to-be-penniless, what is the way forward, which way do I go,I have no idea I don't even know how to frame my questions. I guess right now I just wanna know,as a priority, about my career. What jobs should I be applying to? And then ofcourse family, love, anything! I am attaching my natal chart here-it is pretty accurate, my dad was into amateur astrology (in rare moments that he was sober in my childhood!) so he made sure my time of birth was accurate so I am hoping this would help.

posted December 08, 2014 10:35 AM            

I see that the ruler of your IC & (empty) 4th house is in the 8th house, the house of pluto. That's never a good sign since it suggest very intense relationship.

Also you have moon in 12h opposing saturn (by sign) and pluto in 7h. This is not nice to have since it suggests feeling restrained & depressed, and as if you were feeling unable to express feelings.