posted December 24, 2014 10:24 AM            

I kept wondering if anything significant occurred within the last week for you. Reality or more focus on your true values should be occurring, but I think I wrote before that this transit wouldn't complete itself until next year.

Update on what you had read for me: I do feel tired at times (from my mom), but I'm also picking up her forgetfulness, which makes her want to do the same things over and over (if she gets it in her head to do it, i.e. thinking she hadn't finished her Xmas shopping yet).

I also had someone (a former boss) watching me at the gym a few weeks ago. I worked for him at the same company where I have had another person follow me for years (saying unkind things about me) that I mentioned to you once before. I think someone at my previous employer has been forwarding the emails I am sending to my friend to this person. I hadn't told anyone else I was going to the gym in the morning, which is when the former boss started showing up. I stopped writing any particulars in the emails I now send to my friend and explained why. I think he knows his coworker/boss isn't helping him.

You didn't say much about your dog. I didn't get the one I was looking at that I mentioned earlier. The posting had given me its birthdate and I didn't see that she would be very agreeable (mercury square mars), which could make her aggressive but smart as well. She was adopted in two days. I think I will wait until I move.

Hope you have refined your choices out of all the opportunities career wise that have come your way.

posted December 25, 2014 05:49 PM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
Happy holidays LostTaurus!

I kept wondering if anything significant occurred within the last week for you. Reality or more focus on your true values should be occurring, but I think I wrote before that this transit wouldn't complete itself until next year.

---

Ehh...I'm thinking I may well get fired soon from the 'day job', so that should certainly clarify a few things for me! The Director of Operations, a very young woman, has spread herself very thin and is in a bit over her head. It sounds silly to say, I know; but I can't help feeling she's very intimidated by me and wants me OUT. My direct manager is a bit gutless and is fearful of advocating on my behalf, so she's got free reign in doing what she wants, completely without a sense of true judgment for what she's doing. So there it is!

Truth is, I'm ready for the shoe to drop, should it, because the day job has thus far provided a safety net which has simultaneously consumed massive amounts of time and has evolved into such a great 'comfort' that I have very little time to commit to the efforts I feel I really should be.

quote:

---

Update on what you had read for me: I do feel tired at times (from my mom), but I'm also picking up her forgetfulness, which makes her want to do the same things over and over (if she gets it in her head to do it, i.e. thinking she hadn't finished her Xmas shopping yet).

---

Patience my friend - with yourself as well as her. Caring for a loved one whose faculties are declining is the most challenging responsibility we may ever face, and it doesn't get 'easier'. Some of the feelings which well up will be ones you want to be ashamed of. Don't. They'll be a result of you pushing yourself emotionally to places you never wanted to visit, but there is a reason for it all. Be certain to care for yourself in ways, even as you care for her. If EVER you need a friend, I hope you'll know you have one right here.

quote:

---

I also had someone (a former boss) watching me at the gym a few weeks ago. I worked for him at the same company where I have had another person follow me for years (saying unkind things about me) that I mentioned to you once before. I think someone at my previous employer has been forwarding the emails I am sending to my friend to this person. I hadn't told anyone else I was going to the gym in the morning, which is when the former boss started showing up. I stopped writing any particulars in the emails I now send to my friend and explained why. I think he knows his coworker/boss isn't helping him.

---

Shame on all of them - bitter, small minds. I don;t know how they're getting anything productive done at all, wasting time on things that simply don't pertain to them.

quote:

---

You didn't say much about your dog. I didn't get the one I was looking at that I mentioned earlier. The posting had given me its birthdate and I didn't see that she would be very agreeable (mercury square mars), which could make her aggressive but smart as well. She was adopted in two days. I think I will wait until I move.

---

Ah, my Belle!! She is a Karelian Bear Dog/Border Collie/Mix. A rescue, of course! I found her at approximately 3-4 mos old, a tiny, frail,skinny, mange- & parasite-ridden baby, dragging her shattered front leg alongside a very busy highway one morning on my way to work. I stopped, picked her up, called work and told them I'd be late and took her straight to the vet. Her shattered (and infected) front shoulder was stabilized with pins, plates and drains, she was spayed and she came home with me that night and has been my very best friend ever since! I'll try to attach a picture below (and HOPE that I get it right!)

quote:

---

Hope you have refined your choices out of all the opportunities career wise that have come your way.

---

I have a contract opportunity in Colorado which I really, really hope comes through. It feels like the right thing, for sure. PRAYERS AND POSITIVE THOUGHTS PLEASE!

posted December 25, 2014 10:35 PM            

Sorry to hear you're in a position with management during your day job like I've been many times--they treat you like competition instead of seeing what you can bring to the table or contribute. I found that when I was in that position, it was meant for me to move on in some way.

I'm learning to take each day one day at a time with my mom. At least I'm not picking up the energies so much of the other guy (I went out with years ago) and it's now mostly my moms. I think she worries about me.

Since I wrote you, I had picked up that my friend was happy that I have continued to send him emails and have not let these other people bother me.

Belle is beautiful and looks very happy! I'm sure she is eternally grateful for all the love and care you have brought to her.

I have traveled to Colorado before--Colorado Springs--it's beautiful (the mountains were very moving), can be cold and the roads a bit scary. I liked the Spring better than the Fall. Anyways, I took a look at your chart and could see that transiting Mars (in your 6th house of work) is squaring your natal Sun, which rules your 12th house (can be self undoing or subconscious motivations driving you and is tied to your 9th house of philosophies), so I can see you breaking away--are you working tomorrow? The last week of the year and first couple of days of the new year should be good for your writing, though, which is your actual career. Nursing is just work you do.

I was just looking at your natal North Node and you have it in your 7th house like I do, which means you will find your greatest joys in life while in a close and intimate partnership with someone. It also seems to be magnified, since the NN resides right on your 7th house cusp. The person will be either a coworker, neighbor, friend or someone you meet through your writing.

I don't know how nurses do their jobs without having to detach themselves daily, so that isn't the easiest thing to have to deal with either. Thank you for offering your support. Sending you prayers on getting that job and any decisions you need to make.

Transiting Mercury goes retrograde on the 21st of January, but transiting Mars (in your 6th house of work, service to others) makes a harmonious contact to a beneficial planet in your 2nd house of money, revenue on around the 10th of January, so that looks good for money coming your way. Transiting Saturn is also making a square to this same Mars transit and could create a delay or there may be something about the job that is less than appealing. Mercury goes direct on Feb 11.

The first couple of weeks in March look good for you to move into a new home. You will be very happy and upbeat then.

posted December 27, 2014 07:54 PM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
Hi LostTaurus,

Sorry to hear you're in a position with management during your day job like I've been many times--they treat you like competition instead of seeing what you can bring to the table or contribute. I found that when I was in that position, it was meant for me to move on in some way.

I'm learning to take each day one day at a time with my mom. At least I'm not picking up the energies so much of the other guy (I went out with years ago) and it's now mostly my moms. I think she worries about me.

Since I wrote you, I had picked up that my friend was happy that I have continued to send him emails and have not let these other people bother me.

Belle is beautiful and looks very happy! I'm sure she is eternally grateful for all the love and care you have brought to her.

I have traveled to Colorado before--Colorado Springs--it's beautiful (the mountains were very moving), can be cold and the roads a bit scary. I liked the Spring better than the Fall. Anyways, I took a look at your chart and could see that transiting Mars (in your 6th house of work) is squaring your natal Sun, which rules your 12th house (can be self undoing or subconscious motivations driving you and is tied to your 9th house of philosophies), so I can see you breaking away--are you working tomorrow? The last week of the year and first couple of days of the new year should be good for your writing, though, which is your actual career. Nursing is just work you do.

I was just looking at your natal North Node and you have it in your 7th house like I do, which means you will find your greatest joys in life while in a close and intimate partnership with someone. It also seems to be magnified, since the NN resides right on your 7th house cusp. The person will be either a coworker, neighbor, friend or someone you meet through your writing.

I don't know how nurses do their jobs without having to detach themselves daily, so that isn't the easiest thing to have to deal with either. Thank you for offering your support. Sending you prayers on getting that job and any decisions you need to make.

Transiting Mercury goes retrograde on the 21st of January, but transiting Mars (in your 6th house of work, service to others) makes a harmonious contact to a beneficial planet in your 2nd house of money, revenue on around the 10th of January, so that looks good for money coming your way. Transiting Saturn is also making a square to this same Mars transit and could create a delay or there may be something about the job that is less than appealing. Mercury goes direct on Feb 11.

The first couple of weeks in March look good for you to move into a new home. You will be very happy and upbeat then.

Take care friend,
Spring

---

Very encouraging, some of that! I feel rather frozen right now, so am encouraged to hear that I can look forward to some progress. Funny you mention the writing - you're not the first (not even recently), but I am somehow TERRIFIED... It's this horrible block where I keep asking myself, "what could you possibly have to say that people might actually want or need to hear?!" As a direct extension, I often fear that will be my undoing.

This friend of yours; is he an admirer-type friend, or truly just a friend? He holds you in great and very genuine regard, whatever the case.

Did you see your nephew over the holiday season?

posted December 28, 2014 12:15 AM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by LostTaurus:
I keep asking myself, "what could you possibly have to say that people might actually want or need to hear?!" As a direct extension, I often fear that will be my undoing.

---

posted December 28, 2014 08:57 AM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by MinceyMouse:
LT.. *shakes head*. I love listening to what you say and write.. If only you could experience the amount you've helped me overcome that fear. I would buy the book, if that means anything.

---

posted December 28, 2014 12:14 PM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by LostTaurus:
Very encouraging, some of that! I feel rather frozen right now, so am encouraged to hear that I can look forward to some progress. Funny you mention the writing - you're not the first (not even recently), but I am somehow TERRIFIED... It's this horrible block where I keep asking myself, "what could you possibly have to say that people might actually want or need to hear?!" As a direct extension, I often fear that will be my undoing.

---

Your 5th house ruler (karmic/past life) is conjunct your 12th house ruler (subconscious)and 1st house (new beginnings/starts) and 10th (careers)--all of these are being squared by transiting mars in aquarius, which is sitting in your 6th house (work/service to others). That should get better on Jan 1 as it passes. You'll have two more transits from other planets going through the sign of aquarius in mid January, which could cause a little stress/worry, since one is in mercury (communications). You'll get a little more from the Sun transit through Aquarius in Feb and then Mercury (still in Aquarius then going retrograde) will go direct on Feb 11, but won't entirely clear your 9th house stellium--Mercury, Sun, Saturn until the first week in March--which is when you will somehow get passed all of this.

I also hit some blocks while in the early stages of writing and settled for just making notes or thinking about what to write. The paper got crumpled a few times. I didn't start with using the PC, but chose to write stuff down.
[/QUOTE]

This friend of yours; is he an admirer-type friend, or truly just a friend? He holds you in great and very genuine regard, whatever the case.
[/b][/QUOTE]

Early this year I made a goal (not resolution) to get married, which was unusual since I had always been a career person. He is a person I had worked with, but they had left (their spouse passed) a couple of years after I had started working their. Right before I left the company, he came back. I bumped into him again back in January, I felt a connection, and have been emailing him ever since. He hasn't written back yet. I felt like I missed bumping into him at least twice this past year, but hopefully our timing will be better in 2015.
[/QUOTE]

Did you see your nephew over the holiday season?

[/b][/QUOTE]
Yes. He and his wife stopped by his grandmother's home while I was there. I got to hold the baby, but she got really antsy while I held her. She seemed to be okay when he had her. He was fairly quiet, but think that was because his father was present. He and his wife are different when his father and mother are present. He helped his sister out financially less than a month ago and I felt they were taking advantage of him as his parents tried with his grandmother. The person makes their significant other out to be the bad person, so you will sympathize with them and then give them money. He is very sympathetic towards others.

Your natal Saturn sitting next to your Mercury is similar to the square I have between the two. It can make you worry, cautious, and sometimes feel that others don't want to hear what you have to say.

When Britannia did that an oracle reading for me she had mentioned Arch-Angel Raziel, and it really helped me to meditate to him and it changed my energy as you also noted.

I enjoy writing and just that simple thought--enjoyment of what you do, has gotten me through. I changed my focus away from other people and to the work at hand. I know that transit of Saturn squaring your natal Neptune (other people, open enemies, partners) is not helping you emotionally, but once it's done you will most likely see that your assumptions regarding how others may perceive you were incorrect.

Hope some of this helps dear LostTaurus.

Let me know how things go. I check the thread periodically. I know you are very busy, too. Sometimes that Saturn planet next to your Mercury wants you to be an island, too.

Spring
[/b][/QUOTE]

posted December 28, 2014 10:38 PM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by LostTaurus:
Awww Mincey...you're so kind to say that. It's not that I haven't 'picked back up the pen', it's just that what's coming out right now seems terribly self-involved and I have a hard time believing that my story could move anyone. To me, as I read back, it doesn't yet have a direction (though I can see one in my mind) - it feels, to me, like emotional vomit (having to just get it out so that it doesn't continue to affect me, if that makes sense?).

---

Just write down the emotional vomit, it maybe useful. Mind you, once you verbalise and write your emotions, you can always remove it when you are editing it. Let your words flow from you like a stream of conciousness- then structure and edit.

LT, I would read it. Trust me. When I read some of your story on fauxfur's (?) I was incredibly moved. What may sound like verbal vomit could also be a gold mine of ideas.

posted December 30, 2014 08:37 AM            

I also thought of a book someone loaned me a couple of years ago--On Writing by Stephen King. His book helped me to make sense about a lot of things regarding how I write and going about it.

Have a Happy New Year!

posted January 11, 2015 07:31 PM            

No shoe has dropped yet. Still just coasting (...and praying). I read that book several years ago, actually - my well be time to give a re-read COME ON, MARCH!!!

posted January 11, 2015 09:57 PM            

Good to hear from you!! Glad that things are going okay, so it looks like you will be there at least until mid-year when the Saturn transit finishes.

What I got out of King's book wasn't so much his technique of writing, but more so how he motivated himself; as well as relating to some of his perspectives on life and why he enjoys writing.

How are things going with the two guys you mentioned before?

My mom is doing well at the moment, which is giving me a breather there. She is in good spirits, too, but I know that can change quickly.

I was just thinking about you today. Once the two homes are completed on the street where I live, I think things will slow down, since the For Sale sign just went back up on the lot next to me--looks like they backed out due to all the legal delays, so I think that fits with what you saw.

I did some planning/organizing lately so I will be prepared for whatever happens with my mom, writing, etc. this year, so I'll know what to do without having to think about it. Good for stressful days, too.

I'm still writing my friend (guy I bumped into early last year). When I send my messages, I'm not picking up the other people who had been reading/forwarding my messages. It's almost as if someone told them to stop. Boss maybe, like MB I'm thinking.

One morning at our Sunday breakfast, a few weeks back I opened my mouth to my siblings. One seems to be more respectful of everyone now and I'm not sure how of if what I said to the other one made any difference.

Like you said I would start evaluating who will be around me in my life after my mother passes. I know that both of my nieces won't be and I don't think the others will be either.

I've been meeting new people, but I am also seeing other people around that won't be part of my future either--the ones that are more superficial. That also makes sense with what you had said as well.

posted January 13, 2015 01:56 PM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
How are things going with the two guys you mentioned before?

---

Eh...the writer/director is rather pompous: loves the sound of his own voice (to the unconscious exclusion of anyone else's) and that bores me. He's very smart, creative, but there's little room for real exchange there. I haven't realized until recently how well such (or similar) characteristic has served my own protective defenses; or how dated that service ha become to who I'm becoming. I don't know if that makes a whit of sense to you, but it does to me.

The attorney was (and still is) in an emotionally fragile state: he pops in and out accordingly, and that (oddly) is fine with me, as I've not developed any substantive feelings for him beyond friendship.

The 'one' is still off in his own world as I explore mine. The feeling that there is yet-unfinished business hasn't diminished - I still have a very strong sense that he will one day show up quite out of the blue, and we'll see where things are when that time comes. A weird place to be in, for sure, but I'm taking a philosophic approach because I have little other choice.

quote:

---

My mom is doing well at the moment, which is giving me a breather there. She is in good spirits, too, but I know that can change quickly.

---

I think you're both doing an admirable job of seeing that her time left here is as dignified and happy as it can be. Time and effort well-spent, that.

quote:

---

I was just thinking about you today. Once the two homes are completed on the street where I live, I think things will slow down, since the For Sale sign just went back up on the lot next to me--looks like they backed out due to all the legal delays, so I think that fits with what you saw.

I did some planning/organizing lately so I will be prepared for whatever happens with my mom, writing, etc. this year, so I'll know what to do without having to think about it. Good for stressful days, too.

---

I still see a lot of change coming your way as spring comes upon us. Lots of change and transformation on a personal level. Your preparation now will serve you well as these changes manifest. Again, be patient with yourself and aware and respectful of the things you feel as they come along.

quote:

---

I'm still writing my friend (guy I bumped into early last year). When I send my messages, I'm not picking up the other people who had been reading/forwarding my messages. It's almost as if someone told them to stop. Boss maybe, like MB I'm thinking.

---

I feel such a growing affinity between the two of you: a very real respect. But I also sense a reserve(?) that I can't quite put my finger on...?

quote:

---

One morning at our Sunday breakfast, a few weeks back I opened my mouth to my siblings. One seems to be more respectful of everyone now and I'm not sure how of if what I said to the other one made any difference.

Like you said I would start evaluating who will be around me in my life after my mother passes. I know that both of my nieces won't be and I don't think the others will be either.

I've been meeting new people, but I am also seeing other people around that won't be part of my future either--the ones that are more superficial. That also makes sense with what you had said as well.

---

You're defining your boundaries clearly. Good for you! Those around you will ultimately show you whether or not they want to continue to be a part of your life by actions more than words: believe what they show you.

_____________________________________

The writing is coming. Much harder and far more emotionally challenging than looking at my life through a third-person perspective, but also (at least so far) more cathartic. And scary.

Much Love,
LT

posted January 14, 2015 07:30 AM            

I understand what you're saying about the writer/director and know that sometimes we are shown things through others that helps us to recognize what we need to change--even though we may not see it until we've grown past it. Yes, I do understand that. We also tend to pick up behaviors from others, while being around them, and are not always aware that we are doing it either.

Sounds like the attorney is at least a nice distraction. I bet he will show you, though, how important having balance in your life is.

Late September is when the transit of Saturn completes its last square to your natal Neptune in the third house of coworkers, neighbors and friends. You'll be around that woman for a while longer.

Transiting Mercury will still be squaring your natal Saturn until tomorrow/Friday, so you'll get a little break after that on the worry on writing and the small gains there, but Mercury will go retrograde on the 21st, so you'll feel this worry again by months end and maybe a few days into February. Hugs.

You'll have a nice creative window opening from the 9th thru the 16th of February as Mercury goes back into your 5th house. Maybe some social time for V Day, too? Part of that time may be good for book planning (outline perhaps?) as well.

Thank you for the thoughts on how my mom and I are doing with her changes. That meant a lot to me.

It's interesting the changes you see coming in the early spring for me and how that correlates with my nickname here. I picked it a while back and have used it before.

The reserve you are picking up is probably the last ghost I need to lay to rest so to speak. I dated someone many years ago (Leo Sun and he had a white car that he drove). Just the symbolism there is much like the knight on the white horse. He was a student at a local college (pilot) and we met during the summer. He left during their break and I waited for him to come back. He met someone else while he was gone and I was devastated when he finally came back. I guess I'm learning to have faith that all will work out and not fail like what happened to me before.

I'm thinking that while we wait for someone, there are things we need to work on within ourselves. Maybe you can relate to that, too.

It's fascinating some of the life parallels that you and I are both sharing at the moment.

Your writing will get better and less scary once this Mercury transit finishes as I don't see any major challenges affecting your 3rd house ruler. Also, during that window of creativity, you'll have some challenges going on elsewhere. If someone tries to get you to do something you're not comfortable with or doesn't fit in with your higher values/ideals, try to be flexible and give to both. It could be that they just want you to sacrifice a lot of your free time, but you can meet them half way, if that makes sense. Instead of four hours, maybe two.

The above could lead you to feeling rushed or angry (maybe both), so take care when driving during the last week of February.

posted January 21, 2015 08:58 PM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by Springtimeflower:

I understand what you're saying about the writer/director and know that sometimes we are shown things through others that helps us to recognize what we need to change--even though we may not see it until we've grown past it. Yes, I do understand that. We also tend to pick up behaviors from others, while being around them, and are not always aware that we are doing it either.

---

Yes, I finally realized through my association with him how well I've developed the habit of throwing a topic of interest out then just sitting back and listening, seldom offering exchange or perspective unless pressed for it! Its always worked so well as an interviewer, but I never realized until now how I'd extended that ability into my personal exchanges.

quote:

---

Late September is when the transit of Saturn completes its last square to your natal Neptune in the third house of coworkers, neighbors and friends. You'll be around that woman for a while longer.

Transiting Mercury will still be squaring your natal Saturn until tomorrow/Friday, so you'll get a little break after that on the worry on writing and the small gains there, but Mercury will go retrograde on the 21st, so you'll feel this worry again by months end and maybe a few days into February. Hugs.

---

Funny thing about this: I truly do believe in signs (synchronicities, etc...). I received a couple of quite remarkable ones just yesterday. Undeniable, really. And they couldn't have come at a more pivotal time for me.

quote:

---

You'll have a nice creative window opening from the 9th thru the 16th of February as Mercury goes back into your 5th house. Maybe some social time for V Day, too? Part of that time may be good for book planning (outline perhaps?) as well.

---

Some social time would definitely be nice! I've become something of a hermit lately and, while I'm enjoying it, I also think it may be reaching a slightly unhealthy level.

quote:

---

Thank you for the thoughts on how my mom and I are doing with her changes. That meant a lot to me.

---

Anytime. And it's true.

quote:

---

The reserve you are picking up is probably the last ghost I need to lay to rest so to speak. I dated someone many years ago (Leo Sun and he had a white car that he drove). Just the symbolism there is much like the knight on the white horse. He was a student at a local college (pilot) and we met during the summer. He left during their break and I waited for him to come back. He met someone else while he was gone and I was devastated when he finally came back. I guess I'm learning to have faith that all will work out and not fail like what happened to me before.

I'm thinking that while we wait for someone, there are things we need to work on within ourselves. Maybe you can relate to that, too.

It's fascinating some of the life parallels that you and I are both sharing at the moment.

---

I can, yes. And indeed it is.

quote:

---

Your writing will get better and less scary once this Mercury transit finishes as I don't see any major challenges affecting your 3rd house ruler. Also, during that window of creativity, you'll have some challenges going on elsewhere. If someone tries to get you to do something you're not comfortable with or doesn't fit in with your higher values/ideals, try to be flexible and give to both. It could be that they just want you to sacrifice a lot of your free time, but you can meet them half way, if that makes sense. Instead of four hours, maybe two.

The above could lead you to feeling rushed or angry (maybe both), so take care when driving during the last week of February.

---

I can definitely see the potential for this...*sigh*

Take Care Spring,
-LT

posted January 28, 2015 07:36 PM            

Thank you for the confirmation on Intuitive's reading. My mom still hasn't called her friend and I'm not sure if she will. I worried at times that when she did pass, that I would have a difficult time passing the info on to her friend. I also received a letter from her 2nd cousin, who has someone helping with the translation of any letter I send in English, so I will just let her know when the time comes.

Hope all is going well for you. It's been pretty cold here, but is supposed to warm up later this week, so hopefully you're thawing out, too. Oh, I saw two ladies going for a walk the other day and the dog one of them had looked just like your Belle.

My health is starting to get much better, but I still have a few off days every so often. I'm trying to finish my last remaining home renovations as well. It's really odd how everything seems to be on the upswing all at the same time. Maybe I just didn't realize how hard I had been working.

These last few days were colder than is usual around this time of the year, so as ou said I can see them getting even colder before the Winter is over.

posted February 03, 2015 07:12 PM            

Hope all is going okay for you work wise and with the better of the two guys you met earlier. Looks like the measles outbreak is becoming an epidemic. I'm glad that I had the MMR vaccination years ago.

I wanted to give you an update.

My mom seems to be stable and doing okay--as long as she stays away from the sugar. It also looks like the work has stopped on the houses around me. The weather hasn't been the best, but by now they should have started on the one two lots away from me. There's no drama there either as the neighbor from the street behind me hasn't been around lately. I've only seen people taking things. Maybe what you saw with the legal stuff hasn't happened yet. I didn't see any new legal stuff posted yet.

I'm taking a supplement and eating ground beef to try and boost my iron, but it's been a real challenge.