posted February 21, 2015 02:54 AM            

Dear

I wanted to say a huge huge thank you for your special surprise, you made me cry and feel extra special, thank you for your wishes and for the reading. ALso thank you for being support and help, guiding me along.

many hugs

update is - I eneded up texting him today he did reply and it was an added bonus to today. there is even a potential to making plans to meet up.

posted February 21, 2015 10:36 AM            

I get that A is feeling very excited about meeting up with you. He was happy to talk to you yesterday and feels that things are improving. I also feel that he kind of feels attached to you, sort of like you have him under your finger. This is not in a bad way.. He just feels like you have a hold on him and that you will always have his heart. This is such a cute card. It's a woman and man kissing, and they're completely comfortable with each other, there are roses by their feet and the moon is in the distance. They are both beautiful but the thing I like the most is that they aren't dressed all fancy and aren't all done up. They are completely fine being themselves and they love each other as they are, flaws and all. The woman holds the man's heart in her hands and he holds her waist closer to his. He is definitely looking forward to seeing you

Thank you for the read. I need to send Moritz a message soon because I never replied back and we usually reply to each other at the speed of light, and our conversations are never ending. There definitely is flirting going on between us but it's true that we do make better friends than lovers, so we will never cross that line

posted February 21, 2015 10:43 AM            

Thank you, I am glad he is excited. We havent made specific plans, more him saying he wants to make the effort.

posted February 21, 2015 10:47 AM            

If you don't mind another question, can you see why AL became so attached to me? Like why did I invoke such deep feelings for him so fast?

posted February 21, 2015 10:57 AM            

The thing I get is that he finds you amazing and perfect. I feel that he likes beind dependant on you, almost feels like you help him through life in ways he is not even aware of.
He likes being close to you. You make him feel safe and secure

posted February 21, 2015 11:13 AM            

How does A see whats happening between us right now?
what is this for him? only talking again, does he see it as a start of something or ?

posted February 21, 2015 11:34 AM            

A definitely feels like there is a new start between the two of you. In the World card, it shows two people underground holding each other close and kissing, while the earth is on fire. A feels that you are one of a kind and he holds you dear to his heart. He knows there have been a lot of problems between you guys and truly getting where he would like to take the relationship, and he is truly hopeful that the two of you will get farther now. He does have good vibes about this and sees it becoming more

posted February 21, 2015 11:46 PM            

I decided to go to Jersey after all and am so far having a lovely time! Nothing but laughter and fun.

posted February 22, 2015 03:12 PM            

well, basically tonight we had a sort of fight.

edited.

please so now I need some help on this

what is he thinking about this right now?

will he talk to me again? ( will there be a long pause before he talks to me )

how does he feel? what will happen now?

.... sorry I know I am asking a lot.. but I need the help..

thank you !!!

*hopefully you understood*

p.s. - later I wrote something calmer, trying to explain in a calm way and with no blaming saying hope he is not mad and again saying I understood what he was saying...

posted February 23, 2015 09:34 AM            

I feel that he's a little embarrassed. I feel this strongly for sure... He is a bit disappointed. He knows your worth for sure, and kind of feels disgusted with himself that he did what he did. I keep getting embarrassment, to the point where he doesn't even want to look at you because of how he acted. I feel that he thinks you were a little feisty, but he knows you were just standing up for what you believe in. I do get that he thinks you're very angry at him and he is feeling that you may be looking at him differently now.

Will he talk to you again? Will there be a long pause? Right away, yes. I know the two of you will speak again. That's a fact. I asked how long will it take and got the Knight of Chalices He is already thinking of talking to you, he has everything he wants to say in his head, let's just hope he makes it in time A message should definitely be on it's way soon though. I get a lot of romantic feelings... He does care about you and he wants to fix things for sure. He is embarrassed and kind of hitting his head over it and wants to reconcile and move down a calmer path with you now.

What will happen now? Knight of Chalices - 3 of Pentacles - 3 of Wands I think there will be a talking things through... The Knight showed up again So yes, the two of you will be talking soon. You will both work things out and see where the future takes you based on this conversation.

His feelings? The Tower
It's obvious that A is very very much attracted to you, but he is also feeling like he has made the biggest mistake of his life. He feels like things could come crumbling down if he doesn't fix it right away and this is something he would really like to do. He thinks it may be hard for you to accept him, but it is something he wants to do from the bottom of his heart. He wants to prove something to you, I get.

posted February 23, 2015 09:43 AM            

i dont even need to say how much I appreciate this and how much it all resonates!!
thank you thank you!

I even asked angels to heal him and help him do the right thing, he needs it more than me.

After the fight, I wrote out something in a calm manner. ( maybe an hour later)
and wrote how I understood what he said, how I am understanding his words and how I like talking to him and hope to continue and that he not be mad but have a nice night, I wrote some similar things but I wanted to write it all nice to let him know I am not mad.

I didnt expect a response, he read it and then replied a few minutes later with "Ok"
which I think is a good thing?
he could have just ignored it.

Do you think I will need to text in a few days or so, or will something come from him?

I am sorry for asking so much, I am feeling upset that we got into a fight, he is one of the people I care the most not to fight with because well, his pride, his ego.

Oh and, you are not the only who said he felt ashamed.

posted February 23, 2015 09:54 AM            

I think it is a good thing that he replied with the "Ok" it's better than nothing for sure and it's clear that he still wants something to do with you because if he didn't, he wouldn't have replied. So it is a step no matter how small. Guys are way different than us... We like to spill our emotions and they just like to analyze them hehe I feel like when he sent you that text message he was just trying to make sense of everything and didn't want to talk much because again, feelings of embarrassment.

posted February 23, 2015 10:05 AM            

It makes sense I would need to reach out to him. Hopefully he will be receptive.

I dont mind doing it and actually want to

posted February 23, 2015 10:31 AM            

I also felt maybe these fights need to happen for some reason, as there is still built up tension be it sexual, be it unsaid things... I know I hold a lot of things in and so does he.
He actually initiated the whole thing, I sent a friend request on fb and he immidiately texted saying "come over right now" and after I declined and said I would love to but cannot because I am waking up really early... then boom bit bit it escalated.

Joshua -

I think Joshua thinks you are cute, as in looks and finds you in a way adorable. I get also that he likes the way you think and say things. I feel he likes it when you talk to him. Also I get that he might ask other people about you, like extra information. It feels almost like he wants to fill a puzzle. He likes to know bits, he feels like knowing bits will give him a good overview and when the time comes you yourself will show him the full picture. I also get he wants to prepared in some way before talking to you, that he watches what he says and says things carefully, but more in a sense to make sure you found him funny, to make sure he seemed cool and to make sure your attention is on him and not on other things or other people.
I do get a good energy, that he is a good guy, no bad vibes.

actually something else (SORRY) I will owe you some huge reading