posted March 10, 2015 02:12 PM            

I think it is time to open a new thread.

How are you, sorry I only saw your other thread and wanted to ask if you have a question or need to vent

posted March 10, 2015 03:12 PM            

I've been trying to keep myself off the forum and busy myself. M, my ex, and I were talking for a long time. Even when AL was in the picture I still loved mr which is why things never could develop between me and A.

Anyway, remember when I told you about that night we had March 4th? Well, he ignored me the whole day after, and then said we would just be friends with benefits. We fought. And then I found out by snooping that he told Jen that he loved her a week before we had sex, even though they weren't officially in a relationship.

I was so hurt and felt like he was playing with both of our feelings since we did what we did that night, cuddled in bed, and I thought we would get back together since he kept being romantic through texts/calls and constantly trying to make things work.

Anyway, he kept ignoring me and all of my phone calls after the fight so I messaged Jen on Facebook, showed her all of mine and mr's conversations to show her that he was still in my life and that I feel hurt that we had sex and then I see that him and her are a thing as well? So we both found out he was cheating on both of us and she deleted their picture off of her Facebook, unfollowed him on Instagram, and when he got caught, he messaged me and asked "How long were you planning this?" and I just ignored him and showed Jen that message he sent. It's just been a crazy crazy week.... She told me that he was denying everything and said that he didn't know what she was talking about and I told her I wasn't surprised he said all of that because he told me the same thing about you. Jen and I haven't talked again, and Marc and I haven't talked again.

I feel dirty and disgusting over what happened that night. I'm ashamed that we did those things and then he left. But I also feel a weight lifted off of my shoulders that Jen and I were on each other's side. She is also still in High School so I feel bad that he played her more than me since I'm older and in college, but it still hurts.

This incident is definitely a reminder I need to trust my intuition more and put my heart in the back seat.

posted March 10, 2015 03:22 PM            

I am SO sorry you went through all this, I keep feeling he used her more, like he knew from the start he wont stay with her so just used her a bit not to be lonley, but tha doesnt really matter, it just came to me say it.
I am really sorry
Just want to hug you and show you that you will be OK.
But maybe it was for the best, you know, so you can see how he is a negative influnce no matter his feelings for you, it was shown to you clearly how he is still very much a boy and not nearly a man, still immature and doesnt care who he hurts.

This was all for you to see what he can be like, to protect you.

But I am so sorry he hurt you like this, but, yet again, shame is on him not you!!!

you didnt know!

He is the A*hole in this story not you. So please do not try and turn that around.

Maybe you should block him or something on FB?
so you dont feel tempted to see what he is posting?

Dont talk to Jen any more, I feel like she will probably still try and be with him, he is like a trofey for her and she cares a lot but has little back bone.He will use her still. So best is to to just remove yourself from this.

posted March 10, 2015 03:43 PM            

Thanks for listening though I agree that he that he is an ******* and doesn't know how to treat anyone. The only person he knows how to love is himself. I do agree that he is using Jen as well because she is young and naive. I don't think their relationship will really get anywhere but I am not gonna focus on it. I have to focus on me and my future no matter how broken I feel because of him.

posted March 10, 2015 03:52 PM            

No man should make you feel less than what you are, even if you did for a bit, you know you are better and stronger than that. This is life, and trust me, I know !!
I have done some very idiotic things in my life, and learned through them and now I am here where I am.
Chin up sweet GofTMoon
You shine brighter than any silly boy who doesnt know better still.

Bless him and his life and move on Say thank you for the lesson ( yeap as silly as it sounds) forgive yourself and know you are loved.

umm if you feel up to it, if not its ok.

- What is making A withdraw so much?
I think he is withdrawing from all not just me.
I did send him something today, just a hi, on whatsapp.
But he hasnt been on since yesterday, hasnt opened or read it still.
so if you get anything surround this?

posted March 10, 2015 04:19 PM            

if you could please clarify, is he mad at me?

I'd hope I havent upset him this much.
I did notice he has been going less on wapp, maybe once a day if. And he is usually glued to his phone and loves checking such things, so I found it strange when he stopped going so much.

posted March 10, 2015 04:23 PM            

Yeah. There's a lot of tension in these cards. So, I would say yep, he's mad at you. It shows that he's kind of annoyed and doesn't even want to look at anyone in general, and would not prefer to have short conversations. He doesn't just want to sit around and have small talk I feel with the 5 of Swords. The imagery also shows a giant man walking, with his eyes closed, but his posture straight in mean, while two swords are broken on the ground. He sees no one in his way and doesn't care who's sword he breaks. So anyway, back to this, he is mad at you and feels that there is tension between you guys. I don't know what has happened or the backstory but it just feels off like he also has things he wants to say that have been built up but he is just going to go his own way and ignore.

posted March 10, 2015 04:26 PM            

The last we talked was that thing I asked you about, where I even wrote that nice text to him.
Nothing else has went on, so I dont know why he would be so mad at me?

I had thought maybe that girl ( E) annoyed him.

posted March 10, 2015 04:32 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by goddessofthemoon:
Can you ask if mr feels guilty?
and if he even cared/loved me as a person to do something like that to us both?

Don't worry about getting back to me right away. It's okay if you are tired, I know our time difference is probably by a lot

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Its not that late, I am fine to answer.

posted March 10, 2015 04:36 PM            

Yes I can understand what you are saying. I can see what his mind is going through.

I just thought we resolved that little argument, I mean, it wasnt even a fight.

hm, he does sometimes go into depressive states but I didnt think he was mad mad at me like this
Now I am sad

posted March 10, 2015 05:03 PM            

I dont mind or care if its me reaching out, I know sometimes he needs that to make him feel better or show him that not everyone is against him. I do truely care how he is and for him to feel better.

thank you.

I do feel you should see Will and hang out, although I do see you feeling better after( and during) I see it being as short lasting, I dont mean "you and will" but the good feeling you will get from hanging out with him.
I do get you should and that it is something you need, its a distraction that will give your energy a good injection, but it is only a bandaid to your situation.
I see you might even during the time with Will think about the situation with MR, it will still haunt your mind, so you wont be fully relaxed and focused.

BUT, yes do go! it will give you some relief and a good energy buzz but I must repeat, the "buzz" wont last long unfortunately. But do keep talking to him and even hanging out.
It will boost your ego and give you a pleasant feeling overall.

posted March 10, 2015 05:11 PM            

Do you think you can see why the "buzz" won't last too long between us, could it be we won't be attracted to each other fully whether it be physically/or emotionally wise like the connection?

posted March 10, 2015 05:18 PM            

Hopefully it will be soon

I can never stay mad at him and he also doesnt hold grudges, I still dont think its a true madness he feels about me.
I dont know, he might be going more through ALL we have been through + how others have been with him so I think its more a globar annoyance than focused on me.
I am not saying you are wrong, more that the anger is a combination of everything and everyone like you said in that other post.

thank you, I appreciate it.

posted March 10, 2015 05:33 PM            

I do hope you have a fun time and try to relax and have fun as much possible

Hopefully A will reply soon enough.

thank you

posted March 11, 2015 10:04 AM            

I'm wondering if you could answer a silly question for me... Can you see why Marc R used me--- basically why couldn't he see my worth I guess?

posted March 11, 2015 11:00 AM            

My Q is, even though I saw A went online ( on wapp) he still has not opened my message, do you feel he might be more recpetive if I try again in a day or so?

posted March 11, 2015 11:15 AM            

For some reason, I feel like A has his guard up. I feel like he will see your message if you choose to send it in a couple of days. I do see him reaching back out to you and he actually does feel bad that he hasn't replied. I get a feeling of deep care for you and I also feel a bit of remorse that he hasn't answered you yet. However, he's a bit back and forth. He isn't quite sure what to say to you right now since he hasn't replied. I don't think he is in the mood to talk 100%. Something is bothering him and with the 4 of Cups, he just doesn't seem interested. I think the two of you will talk again but right now, his energy is showing there won't be a lot of effort into the conversation. Things can always change though This is just the current energy of things and how it is flowing. Maybe you can tune in and ask how he is feeling because he seems a bit depressed/stressed out.

Thank you for the reading about Marc. You're right. I do feel he does respect me because besides what happened, he's always been a gentle man.

Weird thing though... Ok. When we first got together, all of his friends added me, but there was one guy in particular he didn't want me to accept on Facebook. The words he used were: "Don't accept him, I don't want him to steal you." So I deleted that guy off his friends list. Well, Marc and I haven't spoken since Sunday but GUESS WHAT? His friend added me again... which is weird because the last time he added me was in July.

posted March 11, 2015 11:26 AM            

Not sure what to do, but maybe best not to add him yet ?
Let things settle down and then see how you feel about it.

Thank you on the insight.

posted March 13, 2015 10:39 AM            

Do you think you can tune into Marc's feelings for me as of today? Yesterday made a week of the night we had.