posted April 08, 2015 11:13 AM            

fish, no fish I come swimming

I am doing ok, thanks.

posted April 08, 2015 11:23 AM            

I was still on LL just not in this forum. I needed a bit of time to center myself but honestly, life is so much different than it was a couple of days ago.

I think that eclipse did me well because I see things so much differently now. It gave me a lot of clarity in many areas of my life.

posted April 08, 2015 11:28 AM            

Do you have any question ?

Well, A did open up to me in a nice way, I didnt expect it or even think he would do it.
Monday he texted me out of the blue, and we had normal chat, no sex talk nothing and he opened up a bit.
Said how he hasnt talked to anyone else in 2 days, ( me only I guess) and then he added he was feeling very depressed.
I told him he can count on me and some other things.
Even though I am sad he is depressed I cant be but happy to the way he opened up, which for him, is a big deal, he is like a closed shell usually.
When I usually ask him I get "ah" and " oh nothing"

lol look at me ramble

basically he did the step on his own.

Whats new with you?

posted April 08, 2015 11:48 AM            

What is new with me... well, my surgery date is coming up soon which is good. There's also this guy named Albert that I went to high school with, it was his birthday yesterday and the night before he had called me to ask if we could hang out.
So I said yes and threw him a surprise birthday party
He's been my best friend for 5 years and things sort of took a different turn... we have always been flirty with each other but yesterday we got really close. He was very romantic and we were both touchy feely but we never kissed lol there were a couple of moments where we were laying down and our faces were super close, but I was shy and moved mine away. But he was so adorable.
One thing I didn't like about it though was that when I didn't kiss him, he got a bit defensive and brought up M. He asked if I slept with him in the bed we were on and I was like that's none of your business and he kept asking and asking, then he started assuming what we did and even called me a w h o r e, so I slapped him and said wtf is wrong with you? but he apologized and I told him it wasn't right and he said he was drunk and that he was sorry but he only had one drink -.- lol but I also think it was because he was jealous

Then, remember Aaron? Well, that girl he's with was talking about me on Twitter lol
When A and I first started talking, he had me under a certain name on his contact. We were both being silly and putting weird names. Anyway, I looked on the girl's twitter and just a few days ago she wrote that whenever she hears the word "cake" she thinks of "that ***** " in his phone with the name cake he saved me under. So it's funny that even though I don't talk to him anymore, I'm still in the picture. I also remembered how you told me that 19 year old girl that A was talking to had blocked you from his FB, I started thinking maybe that girl blocked me from A's instagram.

posted April 08, 2015 12:01 PM            

Wow a lot going on with you

I am glad you have your days busy, thats good.
The surgery is near, that good too, Iam pretty sure it will go well and it will all be positive!

Yup that guy got very jealous, his ego got bruised and he reacted in a very stupid manner but he felt stupid for it right away so he said something about it right away because he knew it was stupid and felt bad for saying what he did. He sounds good though, he is not a bad guy just got a little jealous because he likes you so much and also he cant believe you like him that way, I feel like his wishes are coming true with the night he had with you even if it went a little bad.

Ugh that girl sounds like B**** she is being a controling jealous freak and basically, who cares haha she is making herself look crazy, I get that even Aaron thinks she is crazy and doenst want to get involved in her craz buisness, I feel like it makes him laugh though that she brings you up in her twiter bits.
Ridiculous

remember, when you are gossiped about its because the other person envies you and wishes she was more like you.

Hey, would you mind looking into something please?
if you dont its fine, I like just catching up also, no need if you dont feel up for it.

Just what is making A so depressed?
I didnt want to ask him over text and didnt want to push him or my luck lol
he actually said " I've been sleeping for 2 days and havent talked to anyone " and then he said " I am badly depressed"
so I think I am really the only person he told or opened up to whats going on honestly

posted April 08, 2015 12:25 PM            

Oh! I also wanted to tell you some info on M
Well, ever since I told that other girl that he was basically cheating on us both she no longer has anything to do with him. So he is single and I'm sure he's depressed. But here's the thing... he's also trying to get back with his ex (the one before me) but the funny thing is, she cheated on him TWICE. Yet he is still trying to go back to her. It's been 3 years since they last talked and he is still obsessed. She doesn't want to be with him though and ignores him. He even started following her on Instagram again but she completely avoids him. He's so creepy and such a stalker, because he used to stalk me too. He's so weird.
I did my own readings on it and found out that he just wants his ex for sex.
She was his first, he lost his virginity to her, and she was the only girl to ever give it up to him. In real life, M is not popular and a lot of people don't like him... now I have the clarity to see why. Anyway, whenever a relationship ends, he goes back to thinking about her but it's just obsessive/fantasy/sexual thoughts he has about her which is creepy and kind of sad. Thank god I am over him and he's out of my life.

Anyway, I like keeping in touch with you
I feel like we're sisters even though we live halfway across the world from each other hehe I still feel close and connected with you.

posted April 08, 2015 12:59 PM            

I really hope he isnt seeing her any more and that he keeps away from her.
But you might be right, because, while this was going on ( saturda-sunday) she posted some sexy pic of herself and added like 5 guys to fb, so he is probably not talking to her, and she tried to get his attention like that. If she knew what is going on she is a damn fool to act that way and make it about herself. ANd if they didnt know then she probably took it personal and went all sexed up to get his attention, either way she is being an idiot.

Yes I look at you like a sister also, a very dear dear friend who I love talking to

After what happened, I feel in some way he has even more respect for you, I feel like you showing backbone made him like you more, like you got guts and didnt just go along with anything he wanted but you have a strong personality which he admiers.
He likes you turned him down and he likes that he has to earn you and your respect. He likes its not easy and that you are not just some mindless girl who will do whatever he wants. He had those kind of girls but he doesnt want that any more.
HIs only concern is you and your ex, he is unsure where you stand with him, where your heart lays and actually he i afraid to get hurt. He already knows you can do some real damage to his heart. BUt that kind of makes it even more interesting to him, knowing you are someone with quality to them and not some twat on the street.
He has had fatansies about you and he has been thinking if there will be a possibiity of a kiss to happen, he would like to. HE also doesnt want to rush anything but he likes the chemistry he has with you.He always liked you is what it felt like to me, like he had this huge huge crush on you and now wants you bad but doesnt know which way to go, how to get it and how not to blow his chances.

I have something else please, I did write encouraging text to him, what did he think of them? are they helping him see the light.

Do you really think I am one of the few he has talked to in these days?

posted April 09, 2015 10:35 AM            

So even though A is feeling sad, he was very happy with your messages. Even if it's a simple message, you take him out of his funk. I do think your texts are showing him the light but I get the feeling that after he reads them, he takes it all in, but then retreats and goes back to being sad. I feel he's going to be getting over this soon though. I pulled a card for clarification on all of this and got Heart. He loves what you are doing for him and he loves you. The love is still there That is why he is still talking to you He is trying to take it little by little right now.

Would you consider each other your soulmates? I don't know if you believe in this but I am getting the feeling that the two of you are meant to be in each other's lives. Yes, you are one of the few people he has been talking to. I'm getting that you should feel lucky because he has been a closed book lately but he is open for you. I keep getting an image of a book locked so I feel that he is the book and he is keeping himself closed and allowing only a few people to read... which is you

posted April 09, 2015 12:49 PM            

I keep forgeting to say that part that I feel lucky he has been opening up to me, it feels really good and positive no matter if he doesnt talk to me all the time, hopefully it will get better.

Can this girl finally move on geeez so annoying!

I hope he finally sees her as the negative manipulative beee** that she is.

I do think your friends are right becuase they saw the way he acted towards you then so I do think he has liked you a long time.

posted April 11, 2015 02:39 AM            

Hope you are fine