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Topic: Feeling lost
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Selenite
Knowflake Posts: 484
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Registered: Aug 2013
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posted April 28, 2015 12:07 PM
  
Hello, I am here to ask for guidance about this issue I've been having for a while now - I feel very lost and isolated from the world.I have been struggling with bipolar disorder and I feel like it would be so much more manageable if I didn't try so hard to fit into society's expectations.. I really feel like I don't fit in no matter what I do, or I try for a while and fail miserably. It makes me feel worthless, like I can't be anything, I'm not anything. Yet I really want to connect with people, and I have so many dreams and am inspired by everything. I just hate routine and having an identity and I want to disappear all the time. I seem to be trying hard to. if anyone is out there who has felt similarly and has gotten out of it.. I would love to talk about how you found your way.  IP: Logged |
blindpainter
Knowflake Posts: 180
From: Washington USA
Registered: Apr 2013
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posted April 28, 2015 01:17 PM
I have struggled with this in my life as well. If you haven't already and if it is available to you I would try and see a therapist about it, I wish I could! they are expensive! yikes! but it is so great to go and talk to someone and get everything off your chest! especially someone who you know you can trust because they will lose their license as a therapist if they break your trust. If that is not an option for you like it isn't for many people you could try a medical doctor but they will just throw pills at you, which do help many people but I am against unnecessary prescription drugs. The way I handle it is with a lot of support from my boyfriend (I have no friends lol and my family is the mpst negative and insensitive group of people I have ever dealt with...I still love them though haha) and support from people on here honestly some of these reading and advice ihave gotten on here was all I needed to get through my depressed moods :S there are a tone of sites out there where you could find support from nice, understanding people. There are a tone of jerks out there who will give you a hard time though, just don't listen to them...sorry I don't have better advice I am not the greatest at tarot but I will pull a few cards for you...IP: Logged |
blindpainter
Knowflake Posts: 180
From: Washington USA
Registered: Apr 2013
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posted April 28, 2015 01:46 PM
okay I pulled
queen of swords reversed
five of pentacles
page of wands reversedthe queens is saying you are leading with your heart but need to be using your head. This card could also mean that you are isolating yourself by your actions and people may be seeing you as uncaring and narrow minded, open your heart to your family and friends ask them for support 
5 of pents can mean financial strife but I think for you it's showing solitude and feeling abandoned or unwanted...if you have suffered a loss or you feel isolated know that there are people around you who really do care about you and want to help and support you!! page of wands reversed can mean you are being pessimistic, having a lack of direction or setbacks in new ideas or ventures. You need to try and change your attitude(trust me I know how hard this is to do) having negative thoughts circulating in your head will bring you down and make you stay down, try and think positively because there are people in your life who car about you a lot! just don't push them away you may even be doing this with out know it. Things will get better they always do honestly I feel that thinking positively has really really helped me get through difficult times you know? instead of sitting around hunched over and feeling sorry for myself and telling myself im an idiot and I can't do this or that or I will never be good enough or able to accomplish this or that I change all of that nonsense I change it all to positive thing and I find myself smiling, I say I CAN do this or that I know it sounds funny and cliché but that really helped me you just have that voice that's saying your not good enough or smart enough or pretty enough or whatever horrible lie it is telling you and tell it to shut up lol bipolar disorder and depression is a life long battle and it is a tough one but that is all just part of the challenge of life I think. have a good day and try to stay positive. I didn't think I could stay positive and I do have my bad days but I have become more and more positive on a regular basis because I keep telling my negative emotions and thoughts to shut up and think positively instead!! IP: Logged |
Selenite
Knowflake Posts: 484
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Registered: Aug 2013
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posted April 28, 2015 02:39 PM
Omg thank you so much, I didn't expect anything like your response You're so right, I need a major attitude adjustment, but I do tend to keep everything inside, away from everyone else, and ignore all the signs until I'm pretty deep down the rabbit hole..
LAst night I was feeling completely dead and laying in bed in some deep spiral, trying not to feel anything, wanting to just stop existing and my boyfriend is so sweet, he was just beside me rubbing my back a little, said it's okay to cry. Even though his touch actually pained me. I couldn't take it anymore. Didn't want to cry, just make everything stop. I feel like I don't deserve to be comforted or feel happy.. I don't know whyThe tarot is scary accurate! I rarely do any readings for myself but when I do they are always so significant! Thank you so much. I will find those cards in my boyfriend's deck and keep them in sight for a while. And I will take your advice, little by little, it made me laugh because you're so right.. I can beat whatever this is. Have you heard the song Junkie's Promise? The lyrics are awesome. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tJXjydR4Lwg
Music and nature and love are the only things keeping me alive really. It all gets me out of my head like, this whole life thing isn't even about me to begin with, it's about everything around me and experiencing it and really being here. But then I lose myself all over again.. *shrug*  Thanks again IP: Logged |
blindpainter
Knowflake Posts: 180
From: Washington USA
Registered: Apr 2013
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posted April 28, 2015 06:50 PM
im glad I could help you out! It's hard to open up to others but if you have someone you trust and can depend on it's worth it to open up, it can be really healing. I hadn't heard that song but I like it! just remember every challenge life throws at you will make you a stronger and better person UOTE]Originally posted by Selenite:
Omg thank you so much, I didn't expect anything like your response You're so right, I need a major attitude adjustment, but I do tend to keep everything inside, away from everyone else, and ignore all the signs until I'm pretty deep down the rabbit hole..
LAst night I was feeling completely dead and laying in bed in some deep spiral, trying not to feel anything, wanting to just stop existing and my boyfriend is so sweet, he was just beside me rubbing my back a little, said it's okay to cry. Even though his touch actually pained me. I couldn't take it anymore. Didn't want to cry, just make everything stop. I feel like I don't deserve to be comforted or feel happy.. I don't know why The tarot is scary accurate! I rarely do any readings for myself but when I do they are always so significant! Thank you so much. I will find those cards in my boyfriend's deck and keep them in sight for a while. And I will take your advice, little by little, it made me laugh because you're so right.. I can beat whatever this is. Have you heard the song Junkie's Promise? The lyrics are awesome. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tJXjydR4Lwg
Music and nature and love are the only things keeping me alive really. It all gets me out of my head like, this whole life thing isn't even about me to begin with, it's about everything around me and experiencing it and really being here. But then I lose myself all over again.. *shrug* Thanks again [/QUOTE] IP: Logged | |
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